Evening
I didnt sleep great but I know its cus im sleeping during the day
but I still got up on time I guess
Oz played out for ages this morning which was nice
I like seeing him grazing on the grass
then it slung it down and he made a quick line for the shed
sick of this windy rainy weather its relentless but i guess i should be grateful
i had good weather for matlock
so i started doing a bit of dancing this morning
but just felt dizzy sick and exhausted so i left that one
made some biscuits
had a shower
then i started picking out some fabrics for these 3 place mats ive got to make
i had some lunch and went to bed i was just exhausted and couldnt think straight
when i got up i began drawing, cutting and sewing
and thats where i stayed til yoga basically
but i made a good dent in what i need to do
here is some of the work ive done
its neat, and good to see i still havent lost my touch XD
went to yoga
it was nice going with actual energy
usually i go after work and im dead
so i think i enjoyed it more
came back and had dinner
now im gonna see my Oz, play kirby and go bed
tomorrrow
mum is dragging me out shopping to shops across the city so it takes a good half hour to get there but i know shes been wanting to spend time with me
then i will come back and do some more of the place mats
have dinner and go to jack's for the night
saturday i need to pick up some stuff from the city centre with jack
also some stuff for his place, hes been on at me to leave like shampoo and stuff at his and toothbrush so i dont have to take it over each and every time but i still feel weird about doing that
i feel like im invading somehow
but he wants me to and i have caved in
so im gonna drag him round to go buy girly smellies and pink toothbrush
i will make it look like theres a girl there now hes asked for it XD
oh and i got disgaea5 in the post today
only ordered it yesterday morning!! so fast!
im gonna start it once kirby is finished :3
think im 1/4 through the game?
Evening
I didnt sleep well despite being home back in my own bed
i had taken a lot of pain killers too
but woke up at 4am and knew i needed to get up
so i stayed up for an hour then went back to bed
woke up at 9am ><
I was so dead this morning like truly dead
i didnt do much
and was hoping id find the energy to dance but no so i did half hour of yoga
then i had a shower
i wrote a list this morning of all the jobs i have got to do in the holidays
its a fair size list
11 things in total ><
i managed to cross off 5 today tho so thats a good dent but its the small jobs!
I had a shower and had lunch then went to bed for about 3 hours!
i was just so done in
but when i got in i started burning the snorlax chopping board and got it done
i like it and i cant wait to show jack
i had my birthday massage today as well which was really good
and i managed to stay silent throughout the whole thing!
i have never done that before and the lady said i benefited as i relaxed more
im just a bit done in from it!
i came home and had dinner and another shower ><
and now im gonna play kirby for a bit then sit with Oz then go to bed
tomorrow id like to get more of my jobs done!
i rang up about my blood test and its normal
so i booked to see the doctor 6th march to see why im fainting and have high blood pressure
Evening~~~~
I have come home from a little one night get away with Jack
so yesterday
I got myself all sorted and ready to go
and sat with Oz for half hour before I left
Jack arrived and we set off for about 10;50am
I was tired tho I have to say as I had spent the night in pain >.> not what i needed
We got about 15 mins into the journey and i said
"I havent got my phone"
jack asked if i wanted to turn around but I couldnt be bothered
we were an hour from home, he had my mum's number and she his
all would be fine
just annoying as I charged both that and my ipod up fully and left em on my bed!!!
my mum rang jack literally 5mins later saying "jo forgot her phone does she know?"
at least mum knew I couldnt txt back I suppose XD
we got there fine and without any problems
we called into matlock bath and had lunch I had a ham sandwich and jack a pie
it was alright, we brought a few sweets from a real sweet store so the quality was good ^^
from there we found where we were staying and checked in
we left our stuff in the room, got kitted and booted for our walk to the water fall
it was lovely as usual and we had good weather to say we've had utter crap weather lately
jack was really grateful for me bringing him and thanked him
but i want to experience these things with him its no hard ship im glad he enjoyed it
i was struggling to walk as its up and down hill and i was wearing my brother's wellies
thank god too as it was so boggy but it was also hard to move around
so i got back to the room and had a 15mins rest
then we walked in matlock and went round charity shops
and then walked all the way back
i was struggling to walk i was just exhausted and my joints hurt
we got back and had a hot chocolate at the pub we were staying at
we didnt see any other pubs around us for food so we decided we'd eat here later on
seeing how tired i was too ><
so we had a rest at the room then went to have food
i had chicken and chips just didnt eat many chips as im not on potato yet
jack had mixed grill
he offered dessert but i thought id only be forcing it down me
we went back to the room
i ran a very hot bath for my joints and jack played his switch
i came out and cooled down and then played my switch til bed which was 10pm as i was dead
i slept quite well
the room was warm the bed wasnt too bed
i had gone to bed with jack dressed and woke up to him in boxers XD
i said "making it easy for me?"
he laughed and said "i was hot in the night"
i left him there and made us a brew it was only 7:45am but we were being kicked out at 10am
so i ran a bath and had another bath X3
then he had a shower and i played my switch whilst i waited for him
then we left
we parked up at a cafe and had breakfast
i had porridge and a tea cake
jack had sausage bacon egg cob
then we went to matlock bath again to go play the arcades
jack had a shed load of 2p coins to get rid of
he was like a child XD nice to see him enjoying himself
i gave him my pile of 2ps as he obviously got more enjoyment out of it than me
then we went up to black rocks as i wanted to show him the view
it was windy and my legs were really unsteady so jack was once again helping me
but he liked the view
then we came home
got home around 1:30pm
sat with Oz and jack groomed him
then we went upstairs and fell asleep for an hour
we woke up and he went home i fell asleep
mum woke me, i went back to sleep
mum woke up and said its dinner
i had been asleep for a total of 3 hours
i was just dead
so god knows how i will sleep tonight
im in pain and stuff
i really enjoyed my little 24 hour get away with jack
it was good, simple and nice and we had good weather and nice treats
he really enjoyed it too and was grateful for it all
a good way to celebrate a year together~
i had dinner then i started sorting my stuff out
i still have my physio exercises to do which god only knows how i will manage
as im struggling to walk nevermind exercise
i will sit with Oz and climb into my bed
tomorrow i plan to craft and then i have a massage at 6pm~
and yes i got made fun of by my brother for forgetting my phone
he picked my phone up smirking "phone's ere Jo" -_____-
Konbanwa~~~~
Yesterday I got up and went to check my Ozwald
he still hadn't really eaten any food but had had his treats
and wanted to come play out
I did some dancing for half hour then showered
had lunch and got my stuff together to go jack's
went to grab Ozwald to sit with him but he was too busy running away from me-___-
he was obviously happy playing in the shed so I left him
I told mum to ring me if he doesnt seem good and I come straight home
I got to jack's and we went over to his mum's house
where we stayed for 4 hours
I saw the bunnies who are seriously cute I loved them
I just sat on the floor and petted them for ages it was really good
we all talked about various things and I got my birthday present from them
a Snorlax switch case
i did need a case but the snorlax one made me laugh
simply because of how scarred snorlax is now
he's just constantly known as "straplax" with his "18 inch strap on evolutionary item"
jack found it funny
what topped it off was a little business card inside with Snorlax's face on it
which we named as "snorlax's calling card"
we obviously made all the snorlax jokes after we had left jack's mums XD
we left there and got food for dinner and a load of chocolate snacks
got home and cooked dinner then proceeded to eat said chocolately snacks
i ended up on a bit of sugar high then i fell asleep at 8pm
theo said "id gone in to a sugar coma"
Brandon had come over and id just fallen asleep next him
twitching and everything -____-
it got to 10:30pm and i'd had enough so i announced i was taking my makeup off and putting pyjamas on, jack got up and opened a 150g bag of crisps into a bowl
i went to sort myself out
i was alone in the bathroom and heard someone blow behind my neck
full on creeped the hell out of me
hallucination once again
i came up after pyjamas and stuff and noticed the whole bowl of crisps had gone
all 3 of them said the same thing "thats made me really hungry"
so they started looking for takeaway...
jack came over to me whilst i took my meds and said i looked shaken up
i told him someone just blew on my neck i heard it more than felt it
i was not prepared to go to bed in a dark room by myself at this point so i told jack i would stay up with him, he was happy to come bed with me but it was fine i could stay up
we all ordered noodles
i wasnt hungry but ordered some to be socialable
i had about 5/6 mouthfuls and left mine i believe jack is eating it tonight....
then i went to bed and brandon left and jack came to bed
it was 12:30am at this point
we woke up and i told jack it had been a year
i was still very tired
we didnt celebrate today or anything we're celebrating it tomorrow instead
good job too as the weather has been awful
i had a lazy morning
jack went out with theo and brought doughnuts and lunch
so he did my breakfast and lunch for me today ^^
then we played on switchs but i knew i had things to do and Oz to see
my mum had been giving me updates on him so i knew how he was
i left at 2:30pm
i went to tk maxx on my way home
i picked up some cream i was well happy about finding
some cute rabbit dinner plates for when we move out and some tea spoons
im collecting things for when we move out
i got some fuel and came home
i got Oz out straight away and noticed he'd managed some food which i was happy about
he had also had carrot and wasnt in pain anymore
i think he's still got the runs a bit but he is doing better
wonder if he ate something weird in the garden or something
i then went to bed as i was aching and had enough
when i woke up i had dinner
and then showed mum my snorlax case and the stuff i brought
she liked it all and said i needed to find a box to put all my stuff im collecting
i did my physio exercises and packed a few things for tomorrow
cus tomorrow i am going matlock with jack for the night
to celebrate being together a year
should be good
ive organised everything
i will be back tuesday anyway
here is me with kirby cus i just love him
Evening
I did not sleep well
I got up at 2am cus I had woke up and was aching and it was starting to make me feel sick
so I grabbed a hot chocolate and chilled out a bit
then slept on top of my duvet in my dressing gown
but it was a restless sleep at best
did not want to go to school today
I went to get my Ozwald as usual
and he was at the back of his cage, very odd. usually he's at the front waiting for me
so I picked him up and he was floppy but tried to tense himself up
i just knew he wasnt well
i just know
i know my bunnies
so I brought him through to the sofaa where i placed him down carefully and he literally collapsed out and started panting, adjusting himself and panting
i felt sick
i cant bare seeing my pets sick
so i sat and ate my breakfast quickly not that i tasted it
then i grabbed my dad who was up and got him to hold Oz whilst i syringe fed him some water he did not appreciate this and tried to break free
but i felt better knowing he'd drank
i took him home instead of letting him outside
i went up to tell mum i cried a bit just cus i couldnt cope what with Oz and being tired
I told her i want regular updates and if he doesnt look good by 12 im coming home to nurse him
i reluctantly left for school >.>
I got there for normal time and there wasnt really many people there
which was nice actually
i just sat and drew and painted whilst listening to my ipod
then everyone started piling in -___-
there was to be a 40min talk in the hall
and what with aching and not being in the right frame of mind i told jack i wasnt attending
he said it was fine
and came back and said it was totally not relevant to us anyway which i knew it wouldnt be
then 2 technicians from other schools turned up and thats when jack practically sat chatting all sodding day, me and julia worked on
it came to lunch and mum said that Oz had chosen to play out with the girls and was foraging for leaves and other dead greenary so i felt a bit relieved
my worry was that he'd not left his hutch and was in pain
but hearing him up and moving around was a good sign
Jack had brought me soup for lunch saying that he doubted there was anything i could eat from the school cafe (we get free meals on insec day) turns out he was right so i was grateful of the soup
but i was sure to rob a cookie from the cafe X3
i worked through half my lunch so i could get home quicker to Oz
i faffed with bacteria and ive secretly brought some home to have a go with
not sure how well it work and i feel i may have wasted my time pouring out 40 bacteria plates but i will have time to do fresh ones on monday i hope
we did my appraisal which i left jack to finish as i wanted to get home to Oz he was more important
i got back and got to Oz and he was still in pain i could tell
and still hadnt eaten his treats or carrot from this morning
but he wasnt panting and even gave me some licks
i took him home and went to the dentist for a check up
i was seen by a dental nurse who was in my year at school small world as it is
my teeth were fine so i was happy
i came home and played kirby did one level and then had dinner
after dinner i got Oz in again
and was happy to see he'd eaten half his carrot and both his treats ^^
he was also able to sit up but i could tell he was still tensing up and doesnt like being held still
but i think he will be alright
rabbits get this its almost like an air lock in their stomach
i will see him again before i go bed
so grateful my baby boy is alright
dont know what id do if i lost him hes just so perfect
even if he is a glutton X3
I went for a walk to try chill out a bit
just come in and i will have a shower to get rid of the smell of bacteria nutrient broth out my skin i hate the smell so much
im gonna do my nails as well
tomorrow think im seeing jack? who knows
we didnt celebrate valentines day but I did do this photo for him before school
with my new kirby plush! look at the sheer size of him!! X3 even my brother likes him and he doesnt agree with my plush collection XD
thank god its half term now, i need a break from science and to recover from working
Evening~~
I had it easy yesterday morning
I had a blood test at 10:30am so I took my time in the morning
cleaned my Ozwald out not that he had any time for me XD
Mum took me to the blood test they were running half hour late -____-
and it wasnt my usual nurse ether
but surprisingly I coped! I did not pass out!
I was aware of every damn second
and there was a spare room where I could recover too
so yeah fairly good as things go :)
I got home and ate the house out of food whilst I fully recovered
had a shower and got my stuff ready to stay over at jack's
I got into school for when Id usually have my lunch
I found those few hours tough to be honest
jack said I could have got away with not coming in but im not like that
after work i went to jack's
we popped out to the shops for food then came back and did food
well jack did food i was too exhausted
as we finished eating theo came in
and we all sat playing on our switch's like nerds
i cant play for as long as them tho i have a short attention span
i looked at the time and it was only 8pm but i could have quite happily have gone to bed
i was sooooo dead
so i got ready for bed and sat with jack and theo really watching theo play his switch on the tv he was playing fire emblem which is a battle game but also has some dating on the side, i enjoyed the 3DS version and seems theo is enjoying this one, everything the characters said he made out to be sleazy and it was making me laugh especially the voices he puts on
eventually i went to sleep as love island came on tv and its utter trash
jack came to bed after he'd finished watching it
i did not sleep well at all
i ached really bad
i was tossing and turning and waking up
i cant remember the last time i had a night that bad in pain
its how it used to be years ago
i thought "how did i cope for years like this every night without going insane?"
so i was shattered this morning
i got ready for school still
but i felt really sick before my medication for some reason
and then once i had taken my meds i felt really bad
i was on the sofa and i wasnt sure whether to stay at jacks, go home or go school
jack motivated me into going to school and said i could always go home
we got to school
and i found the whole day tough to be honest
it was just such an ask on my body
but i did the practicals i wanted to do
and at the end of the day i did some painting whilst listening to jpop
as id had enough of science and hearing about science
i got home and was so dead
just like a zombie
i still had a brew with Oz
my kirby plush came!!
my god its huge, very soft and very cuddly
i am very pleased with it
i havent told jack i actually got one X3 ill send him a photo tomorrow morning
i have my physio exercises to do...booo
and i want to have some time to play kirby too
Ive had little moments of hearing things that arent there
i sat on the prep room floor and watched my stitch plush keychain move it's paw
ive seen red worms in the air change to blue and disappear
originally i wasnt going to tell anyone of my madness
but i told mum she put its down to tiredness which it probably is
i hope it is anyway
tomorrow is insec day at school
im going in at normal time of 8am whereas we've been told we can start at 9am
im gonna sit and paint
its gonna be such a long and dull day
but hey its non-uniform woo too comfort!
then i have dentist at 4:45pm >.>
then i can do what i like
even tho its valentines day me and jack arent doing anything for it
nether of us are arsed or feel the need to take part in the money grabbing holiday
Evening~~
Well last night I realised I had not taken any of my medication
and by which point it was far to late to take my morning's dosage
so I waited an hour and took my night's normal dose
mum wasnt impressed and I told jack too
I only had a headache but apart from that felt pretty fine
so I took my dosage and went to bed
I couldnt sleep I felt very very sick
and in the end at 11pm I got for a hot chocolate and a biscuit
I went to bed at 11:45pm
had an awful nightmare consisting of me screaming trying to get my paralysed body off my bed and to scream loud enough for someone to hear and wake me up. then i could walk. i walked to my mums room and literally used my nails and tore at her til she was dead on the bed
blood everywhere she screamed the whole time
i was told to step back and look at what i had done
then to place my hand upon the wall and i watched how the wall lite up with blood, veins, arteries
at this point i woke up
thank god as that was disturbing
my heart was pounding i was sweating
it was only 12:30....i was hardly sleeping for long!
i thought my phone was ringing, no
thought i could hear a radio, no
i looked around
and thats when the hallucinations started
i sat up right and was freaked out by what i could see
told myself none of it was real and looked away
but it wasnt going
and my heart was going out of rhythm and i felt unwell
i wanted to go wake mum up just in case i really wasnt well
but i didnt dare move from my bed
i knew there was hands on my floor waiting to grab me
there was hands waving at the window
really freaky
by a stroke of luck the outdoor light was triggered on and lite my entire room up
at that point as i could clearly see everything i made a run for it to my mums room
woke her up and cried telling her i wasnt well
she came downstairs with me and made me another hot chocolate
and i calmed down
she said i was white and looked really sick
i told her i was not going school in the morning as im dead and now wondering what my next dose of medication will do to me
i told her i was just gonna sit with the tablet and watch stuff then eventually go to bed
i didnt go to bed til 3:30am as i couldnt face it
i sent jack a message to say i wasnt going to be in today
i knew he'd see it when he woke up
i woke up at 9am
mum said i didnt look good
jack had left a message saying he'd rang in for me and to give him a txt to let him know i was awake and how i was doing
mum said i needed to take my morning medication
she brought it in with a drink and popped off food shopping
i fell asleep without having anything
she came home at 11am and said i hadnt drank anything or eaten anything or had my tablets
she said i was sickly looking and motivated me
i took my meds and felt awful for having them
but tried eating the food she gave to me
i laid in bed playing kirby and eventually got up for a shower at 2pm
mum kindly took me to my physio appointment as i was not fit to drive
the guy was really impressed with my improvement
he said he could tell i had been working hard
and tested my hip strength and said how much it had improved
ive got to continue with my exercises for a few weeks
then he'd like for me to go to the gym during working hours...so ive got to talk to school and see if i can play hooky in the gym for 6 weeks its only 6 hours
he said he'd like for me to do some weight training to improve further as ive worked so hard
mum brought me home and i made some biscuits
then sat with my Ozwald
then went back to bed i was exhausted even tho id done nothing
now ive had dinner and i need to do todays physio exercises
not sure what else i will do as i havent got to get stuff ready for the morning as i can actually have a lay in tomorrow! I have a blood test at 10:30am.....dear god its gonna be awful
its not my usual nurse ether and im not feeling well so ill probably pass out
then ill come home and shower and recover and try and get to work
jack has asked i sleep over even if i dont get to work
i told him i wouldnt be up to much and he said that was fine
so thats tomorrow
im having a blood test to test my thyroid as i think its outta whack
just dont want it
think mum is already stressing about taking me
just hope i get back to how i was quickly
cant believe the damage of not taking my meds tho
i thought maybe my body was stupid weak but jack said its probably more a case of my medication being so strong and plenty of it...
stupid meds i hate them
