Finished my hours and sick of being tired

 Konbanwa~

I managed 30 mins of exercise last night but they were slow easy videos. I just about managed, had a nice bath then jack had the bath after me, we watched an inuyasha special - about 40mins long and went to bed. I had a lot on my mind so took me a while to sleep then woke up at 6am and then kept waking up til 7am when I finally had enough of waking up constantly i got up at 7:10am and woke jack up.

We got ready for work and put the stew on, Oz had been out for a stretch but put him home with carrot.

We got to school to find it dead, people said before the holidays "yeah i plan on being in on the second week" no one was in XD no one wants to be there. I thought I had 4 hours to do left on my time sheet. I actually only had 1 left and ended up doing 2 hours today therefor i am owed an hour. As I cant leave early or start late to gain that hour back - cus i travel with jack - I will have to have a long lunch sometime! 

we got bits and pieces done, probably the most interesting bit was putting away our chemical order that had arrived. We had ordered a fair amount.

We left and came home for about 11:15. We had a brew and a sit then had lunch. Mia asked if we could go for a walk tomorrow morning which i was rather relieved about as I just felt so god damn tired. I am getting so fed up and frustrated of being tired. I did some house jobs, which made me want to cry and give up and go home and just give up on living away from home. I had had enough. simple.

I thought I would calm down and work on my painting. Literally did about 15mins and my mum showed up. I wasnt in the mood to be honest, I didnt know she was coming over. She bought the girls new outdoor pen for MY garden. It is this cheap horrid thing that required a lot of making and breaking of nails getting the clips on to hold the thing together. I was tired, achy, cold and I have also had an infected middle finger for 3 days that wont stop leaking puss. So having to put clips on with that was horrible. I lost my temper and ranted off at mum. She finished the job. I teared up and apologised. She said it was fine understood. Ive just had enough basically.

She came in and had a tea with me. I did calm down but I still couldnt be bothered to talk. She left me and I did a bit more of my painting. I would have loved to have gone to sleep but I knew if I did I would have screwed up going to sleep tonight. I bleached my eyebrows as I hated them.

We did dinner which took like 5mins as it was just a yorkshire pudding in the oven and dishing up the stew thank god for the easy dinner. 

Now just doing diary and going to see Oz for a bit

but tonight we said we would have a night together as havent spent any actual time together this holiday other than decorating. We said we would do face packs, a bath, massage one another and watch anime. Actual time together. Should be nice

Tomorrow

Maybe going for a walk with mia and the dogs tomorrow morning I am unsure how she has time off work but I will ask her. Shes also having her house valued tomorrow! I hope she lives even closer to me ^^ as of now she lives a 25min walk

Then after lunch my mummy is coming over to help me clean the house :D

Finally went shopping and Oz's cage photo

 Konbanwa~~

I was grateful to be in bed last night on time. I was done in, even the simple exercises took it out of me. I only did 25mins and I was just exhausted. I went to bed and slept til 6am then 7am which is when i got up, I thought I would have shed loads of time before I would need to go over to mum's but I was wrong...

I went to see Oz and half his face was wet and my heart sank as I thought "hes got an eye infection or has he got a blocked tear duct?" so I woke jack up and told him and he was like "could be from his water bottle" but that felt to easy. I decided to get ready and give Oz's face time to dry - if it would dry

Upon leaving the house I thought I would check him,he was stuffing his face in the garden, came running over and had a treat from me - all normal happy healthy bunny behaviour. His face had dried a bit. I studied him, looking in his eye lids and noticed round the back of his face towards his ear was wet rather than the eye area. I told jack to ring me if he thinks Oz isnt good but it was looking like a wet face from a water bottle.

I went over to mum's and was lucky enough to catch the girls still inside so I had a quick cuddle then we went off to TK MAXX we were both prepared for queues and to even come away if it looked too busy. But we got in the shop just fine and it was just dead inside like no one in there it was quite strange and not what we expected. I picked up A LOT of bargains as they had stuff to shift as the seasons has changed, I picked up bunny things as easter has been and gone and the shops remained closed. So both me and mum spent £190 however about £50 of my spending was on Jack which he will pay me back for.

We got back and had a cup of tea and then lunch, the we put mum's purchases away and I did a couple of little jobs but it got to 2pm I was tired, I had heard from Jack at lunch time saying Oz's face was dry and his water bottle was dripping a bit....I was worried again for nothing Ozwald -____-

that rabbit will be the end of me one day!

I am relieved and very grateful as he is my life, here's his repainted cage~

I came home at 2pm and brought my bags in then went straight for Oz, bought him in for a fuss whilst I showed jack my purchases.  I was so tired tho after putting it all away and sorting a few bits out that I went to sleep next to jack for 45mins. Did dinner then had Oz inside again. My brother rang me and we talked a bit about stuff and now doing diary. its like 8pm and I have some form of exercises to do.

Jack and mum said I need to take it easy I am always tired and burning myself out. I need a few easy days I just find 'easy' days difficult >< 

my mum enjoyed today tho I can tell. She enjoys quality time with me and we havent been shopping together in months so it was nice. and I finally got some new things i wanted too.

Tomorrow

We are going into work for a couple of hours. Just cus I said I would not because I want to. I still have 4 hours to do on my time sheet so yeah doing 2 now and 2 in june half term then I finish with like 2 days spare XD but it will be boring going in tomorrow >.> and mia has txt to say if i want to do a walk so thats typical.

actually going shops tomorrow

 Konbanwa

I slept well but did take me til midnight to settle down. I woke up at 8am but left jack in bed for a little while. We did get up and ready tho and picked Oz up from mum's at 9:30am as we both missed him. We got back and I did some chores, whilst waiting for Mia to turn up.

She came at 10:30am with my dad's birthday card I ordered off her etsy account - lazymonkeydesigns

Looks really good I am pleased with it and said I would leave her a review

I enjoyed my walk but from the moment I woke up I have been pale and tired today, just dead energyless and my heart feels like it is working harder to keep up with the average day. So I was quite shattered when I came in. 

I had lunch then jack looked at me and said "why dont you have a nap" thats jack's way of saying 'you look like death and need rest' however I still had many things I wished to do. He talked me through things like things that dont NEED to be done today. And hes right. So I went to bed. I stayed there for 2 hours and woke up to jack gaming. He has done things today, he did some legal stuff for the house, changed all my sockets and light switches in the craft room, hoovered and tidied the craft room and moved my dressing table into there. So he has helped me a lot today but I think some of it was because he could see how dead I was today

This afternoon I sat and worked on my canvas. Its coming together a lot more and seems to make us laugh as well. Its such a smug Wooper XD which calmed me down a bit as I just ached so much it was starting to stress me out. I think what has made my condition so bad is that I was outside in -1c for almost 3 hours doing Oz's cage in all positions. It does look amazing and like a new hutch so it was worth it and it protects it too. If he cage ever goes outside again XD

Oz played outside til 8pm whereas usually i bring him inside for his evening play between 7-8pm but he was so happy I didnt want to disturb him. I bought him inside at 8pm but it was just so hungry so he only stayed in side for 10mins but he has been inside today and Ive sat outside with him twice so hes had fuss today.

I have got exercises to do T^T but I am not doing an hour because I feel dead. Also I have already been for a walk. So I have done something today. So I will do a couple of easy chloe videos and go for a bath. Jack isn't gaming with anyone tonight so he can leave his PC any time I ask he says ^^ that means I can have an early night :D 

I was quite shocked yesterday actually, I came out the bath and was doing my skincare, I could hear jack finishing up his raid on elder scrolls online - a game hes played since its launch which was about 10 years ago. He was asking the leader of his guild if they could find someone to replace him as hes getting very bored! It shocked me. I hope I havent influenced his decision as I have, on several occasions, slagged it off. I do not mind him playing that game or playing with others but he does the same raid over and over and over again. For what? to get new gear he says. But then they have updates a few times a year which releases new gear so they do the raid again for new gear. I told jack that I honestly see it as a waste of life. I feel he has been disillusioned with it and I have broke the spell as he has started to see it from my point of view. However I did not want to give it up, I just wanted him to enjoy it and get something more out of it. It all seemed pointless and neverending in my eyes. So yeah soon on a sunday - until they find a replacement - jack will be free to do something else. I said he can still have a gaming night but maybe ether with harvey and theo or with me.

We shall see

tomorrow

mummy has taken the day off work tomorrow for me! She wants to spend time with me.

So we are getting to TK MAXX for 9am, the shops in britain opened today and we said we would go tomorrow, I just hope theres not a big que to get in. We said if there is a big que that we would leave it. I plan on taking soup over to mum's so I can have lunch with her. I dont need much from the shops, jack however NEEDS clothes and underwear. So I am going more on his behalf. He has given me permission. I had to almost blow the dust off my handbag as its not been used in months! not been round shops since early decemeber or maybe late november.

Day of chores, and introduced to Pui Pui Molcar

 Evening

So last night I set my laptop up in front of me and just let it run through jpop music video whilst I did 40mins of yoga, I then spent forever in the bath, and even when I came out I was treating my skin to products. At the end of it I actually looked healthy and refreshed it was quite a shock. jack even commented on how well I looked. He then spoiled it by saying "you look almost...clean...wont last long tho" >.> damn him. He knows I sweat for britain and make mess. I have practically worn a paint bucket this week T^T

I was grateful of the early night of 10:30pm. I slept til 6am, rolled over grabbing hammington and slept til 8am! 

This morning we went and did our food shopping which wasnt too bad.

I went outside and started cleaning Oz's hutch, disinfectant, scrubbing tools, and a stick. The layers of wee and sawdust were so thick in areas....if I didnt use newspapers and clean him out at least once a week I would hate to see the state of it. It still smells tho Im disappointed to say. Just reeks of bunny wee. 

I got really cold doing it as I was just in tshirt and joggers and it started to hail. Today we have had sun, hail, snow sometimes all 3 at once. The weather has been whacked out today.

I came in bloody frozen and used detol on my hands I just felt very unclean after that job. Oz came to help but didnt make the job any less grim.

We had lunch which helped to warm me through.

Then as soon as I finished my last mouthful I was out the door going to my mums (quickly stripping the bed and putting it in the wash) I took Oz with me, who did not want to go! Got out my hands putting him in the carrying case. But he was fine once he got into mum's garden. I then spent the next 90mins doing things with my family. Quite tired when I came away from there. Best bit was sitting with my mum and brother whilst he put on TV something him and mum have been secretly watching Pui Pui molcar....if you have never seen it, see it! only 2mins long each, its unbelievably cute. I can tell my mum and brother like it as its just guinea pigs basically. I was glad to have truffs on my lap to stroke whilst watching it as it was just so damn cute!!! I have since come home and ordered a key chain for my mum :) cant wait to surprise her with it.

I came home and decided to get Oz's cage done as I want it dry for him tomorrow morning.

That took me 90mins!! And I did get cold doing it. 

I came in and assisted Jack who was putting up my curtain pole in the craft room. I then went to go clean the bathroom before dinner. I could have quite easily not have done it as I was shattered but I didnt want to do it tomorrow it needed doing. Then when I finished I was doing dinner, no time to sit down on this job T^T I was cooking for an hour as I had to do my meat breakfasts for the week.

I ate dinner and fell asleep after I ate, jack waking me up as I wouldnt sleep tonight otherwise so he let me sleep whilst he did the pots. So I am shattered T^T just so tired and I have my exercises to do yet 

Not sure how much I will do tonight tho. 

I was happy when my stronger brother weighed himself today on my scales and I have 5% more muscle than him. He was like "just cus you have a higher muscle percentage doesnt mean youre hench it just means how much muscle your body is made of" yes I know >.> 

Tomorrow

I am hopefully collecting Oz early morning as I know he wont want to stay over night tonight and I want him back I miss him. Then at 10:15am mia is coming over and we are going for a dog walk. After that I have nothing planned. I would like to do some more of my canvas. Get the craft room finished but I need to wait for Jack to finish changing plug sockets and light switch. Then move my dressing table in. Think I have found someone who makes desks in the next city, dad said he would collect it for me.

The new scale results

 Evening

Man I was not feeling the exercises last night, I didnt start til 9pm!!! Latest yet, so as I did an hour I didnt finish til gone 10pm, I had a bath then jack wanted the bath after me. The night went on, of course we watched Inuyasha so yeah it was like 11:30pm by time we were in bed -______- 

I slept well but woke up at 7am which felt really unfair, I left Jack in bed for another hour but I went to see Oz and just enjoyed the quiet

When Jack woke up I asked him to look at my new scales as they didnt come with instruction and I couldnt work it out. We weighed ourselves. I had put on a whole kilogram so I am 63.8kg jack is 78kg! I was quite shocked he weighed that much as he doesnt look that heavy. He has a normal BMI it said my BMI was 23. Muscle was what I really wanted to know! jack has 37% muscle, I got 43% have it!!! damn right. I missed how much fat percentage I have as that was the first to pop up and I didnt really pay attention but I will find out next week. Just because I have new scales of my own doesnt mean I will increase how much I weight myself. once a week just to see how things are. I wasnt even that bothered that I had put a kilogram on actually. Just numbers. Its how I feel and look thats important.

Jack was not arsed about his results XD said he was healthy, end of XD

We went to assess the craft room. Jack said he was prepared to give under the stairs another coat. The job that took me like 2 and a half hours to do yesterday.

We waited for our radiator man - plumber - to come at 10am and he was punctual. Nice bloke actually and knew he stuff. Got straight to it. Literally only here for 5mins. measured up, said he would send us a quote by monday/tuesday. He would supply the raditors. So yeah yeah, quite surprised how painless it was to be honest. Just hope his quote isnt horrific! feel like its been too easy....

Jack suggested we go for a walk as we havent done that in ages. So I agreed. It was quite chilly out, it was the wind it was just so cold so my ears started to hurt. But I enjoyed it and we were gone an hour. We got back and had a cup of tea - an actual cup of tea which was amazing after getting cold. Then we started painting. Didnt take us too long as jack used a roller instead of a paint brush so it was a much nicer finish and quicker. But it does help having the 1st coat. 

We had lunch then tidied up all the painting stuff. All our decorating stuff has been in the craft room since we moved in last december and now they are in the garage, the room is clear apart from my stuff I cant put away until the paint is dry. it looks so good! jack said "looks so much better, doesnt look a shit hole anymore" XD the real transformation will come when i am able to get everything I want for the room and set it how I want it. But it looks amazing already. 

Then the rest of the afternoon I spend pretty much taking it easy and painting my wooper canvas which is looking good actually. At first i hated it and even thought about binning it but its coming along well. We had dinner and then jack went to game. I got Oz in and fussed him and watched youtube etc

This evening however will be different

I am not doing my exercise videos! I have not had a day off since I started them at the beginning of february. I can feel my body needs a rest. I have walked for an hour. But tonight I want to put some calm music on,(tend to use mami kawada) and I want to do some slow easy yoga, have a bath where I will give myself a pamper - bath bombs, hair oil, body scrub you name it. I also want to be in bed for 10:30pm I need an early night

tomorrow

we usually do our food shop at 9am as we used to get in as a key worker but they have stopped the scheme. its no longer NHS and schools its just NHS >.> so its 9:30am for us with everyone else :/ but shouldnt be too bad by then anyway, I hope.

Then I am doing something I am looking forward to doing - decorating Oz's hutch! He is having his minging hutch scrubbed clean then I am repainting it ^^ I am also seeing mum as I need to take Oz over for a sleep over, his cage will not be dry inside and out for him to sleep in. So he needs a sleep over but it should be fine for monday night.

In that cupboard for hours

 Evening

I managed - somehow - an hour of exercise again last night, it was a slog. Just wasn't feeling it

I enjoyed my bath and massager tho X3 and a new tea - orange and camomile its really good!

I slept ok too, I woke up needing a big wee tho XD

Climbed into bed to wake Jack up and was pouncing all over him, he said "what time is it?" he looked up at the clock, I did too....only 6:30am...I buried my head. He said "is that really the time!?" 

I said "sorry sorry jack, I didnt realise, I will let you sleep" and went with my tail between my legs and left the bedroom. I had got to go see Oz tho as usually its Jack who lets Oz out. I had breakfast in peace and then woke Jack up at 8am

I got started on painting at 9am T^T I've been in that room almost a week!!!

I was doing the white work whilst jack painted the walls in the cupboard. 

We stopped at 11am for a cup of tea. I looked online for lighting - again - for the room. Found one I liked, Jack said he was ok with it but wanted me to ok it with dad - fitting wise.

We had lunch then Jack went to game, I went to paint. And thats where I stayed for almost 3 hours......

3 long long hours under the stairs.....I have a headache from the gloss fumes.

But it is done. However I think some of the white work in the room may need another coat -____-

I came out and dad rang, he said the lighting was fine, so I ordered that. never paid so much for light £120.....eye watering. But I need good lighting for my craft room other wise whats the point. Still cheaper than paying someone to put spots in then paying for spots.

Mum came over at 4pm and jack breaked off to have a brew with us and made us tea too which was nice of him. He stayed with us whilst mum was over. I sat talking the whole time with paint on my face and up my arms. I scrubbed my hands raw but didnt fancy scrubbing everywhere else til I was soaking in the bath. My hands got sore but gloss does not come off.

We had dinner and watched the last episode of season 1 of digimon, bring on season 2! cant remember ether of them! made a change to watch tho.

Then jack had a little bit of stress at me as he saw the state of the kitchen sink....so much paint and mess....he only cleaned that sink the start of the week >< I was sorry 

He went to go play dungeons and dragons. I watched some interesting youtube videos like a japanese mom (kimono mom) found it randomly and i quite liked it. Oz was inside with me and I was fussing him and making him dens and giving him treats. Happy boy. I decided to make Jack an alcoholic drink to say I was sorry, so I mixed a gin and rum together and put lemonade and frozen cherry berries in it and gave it to him. He was grateful but said he wasnt mad or anything. the sink just needed scrubbing ^^; but i hope he likes his drink, god knows what it tastes like

now I must do my exercises as its almost 9pm and I havent done them! getting later and later with doing them but its cus I can not be bothered!! I am tired >< I am having an easier day - exercise wise tomorrow >.> 

Tomorrow 

it is weekly weigh in - get to try my new scales see if they even work!

do a bit more in the craft room i guess and anything else I wanna do

right I shall crack on then go and wash my face!

clearing out the craft room cobwebs

 Evening

I was quite reluctant to do my exercises last night, I was tired and had just had enough!

But I managed an hour, Chloe Ting had bought out a new exercise video which was 20mins long and I couldnt resist the challenge basically. I managed 60mins of exercise once again without stopping, I did get through 2 litres of water tho XD I had a bath and stuff

we got into bed just before 11pm I told jack I was aching, it was 1am and I couldnt sleep still, so I got up and Jack got up with me, made me a hot chocolate - so that was more liquid!

I didnt sleep great and woke up at 4am to jack breathing in my ear, I had to go to the toilet for a wee tho which is no surprise but when I got to bed he had crawled over to my side so I didnt have much space >< but all well I was destined to have a bad night. Got up at 8:20am. I would sleep in longer if it wasnt for Ozwald. Jack said he didnt sleep great ether

So this morning we cracked on with the craft which did in fact need a 3rd coat -____- jack did that whilst I had the rather grim task of getting rid of live spider, dead spiders and dead flies, cobwebs from the cupboard under the stairs....it was so gross. I cleaned it all and then realised just how bad it looked in there, so I ended up patching up a load of cracks which was everywhere basically. Then I painted the front and inside of the door which needed 3 coats all in all. I also painted the little bunnies going on the front of the door and inside of the door :3 its going to look so different!

jack helped me make my soup for the week after we had a pit stop brew at 11am

we had lunch, then kept going with the room

Mum came over at 3:30pm but jack had gone to game at this point, i still made him a cup of tea as I didnt want him to feel left out.

Mum bought over a load of parcels for me! I got my curtain pole and curtains. Oz's treats and tunnels. My new scales which I will have a go with on saturday morning, gonna get Jack to have a go too. so yeah a fair few things I told her more tat is on the way! We also got our outdoor seat cushions which are quite cute. Jack is pleased with them.

Mum left and I made a start on dinner whilst cleaning up the craft room, I told jack there was 5mins til dinner, he didnt even realise - or smell - that dinner was on. He said he would have helped but it was simple and didnt want to disturb him.

After dinner I bought Oz in, hes enjoyed playing with his new toys I have to say ^^ although he hasnt been out too much today as it is rather windy. He is currently snoring in front of me, his little mouth goes in his sleep its so cute. Tired bunny obviously >.>

I have not taken extra pain killers today or had a sleep as I want to get back into the normal pattern again, taking extra pain killers and having a sleep in the day isnt doing me any favours. I just hope its worth it and I sleep tonight as I am bloody tired!

Tomorrow

it is the white work of the craft room so the door frame and such, the inside of the cupboard needs doing so I need to sand down where I filled in today then paint....ahhhh so much to do yet! But its a project I guess. Jack says he will put up the curtain pole whenever. It will get there. I am still stuck for lighting in there. i did find some unusual shelves today from germany, wasnt cheap but I think they will look great ^^