we had to go into school, food picture

 Konbanwa~~

So last night we had a phone call from head of science saying "dept head wants you to come in"

lord knows why, so we were a bit annoyed to say the least. But we got on and did some yoga which Jack enjoyed and did quite well. We had a bath - not together obviously - then had a hot chocolate watching Inuyasha.

We got up for school, I didnt die on the toilet, I didnt need to go at all which i do find odd.

We dropped Oz off and went to school

A lot of staff turned up, we bumped into a TA and said "it sucks having to come in" she said "im just fetching my laptop and working from home"

but wait, shes support staff, and the dept head has asked for support staff to come in?.....

We thought something was a bit off here

But we got on with work, head of science came and ended up talking to me as Jack had gone to have a bitch with Chris. Head of science didnt say a whole lot about the situation other than school should be open tomorrow. To check the labs and prep for tomorrow and we can go at 11am.

Jack came back and we did what head of science asked. I had come in jumper and joggers I wasnt arsed and no one else had come in their school wear. I wanted to be warm but I was still freezing.

Chris told us that only us science technicians and him had been asked to come in. How skank is that. Very targeted and victimized I feel. The DT and food tech technician got to work from home......

We left at 11am anyway, picked up Oz and came home to thaw out. We had a brew then lunch then I went and did some dusting, then I did some work for school, the work for chris he wants a no eating sign to be made. Here is my start, Im doing food escaping.

I had overdosed and thought I could handle it but worked out I had taken 3 times as much as I usually do so I was practically comatose, I had Oz in the living room with me who fell asleep in his basket and I fell asleep on the sofa. Jack checked on us he said and left us to it XD

I got up and put Oz outside, mum came over for a brew and Jack went to continue gaming.

When mum left I did dinner, feeling a bit more human

after dinner I did some more work to the drawing and emailed it to my school computer.

I will go see Sir Ozwald now and then do some exercises I think I feel in the mood to do some exercise too, like I need to move my body.

Tomorrow

school and it is friday! woo, shouldnt be too hard of a day and hopefully I can get more on my drawing done thats if chris likes the design. 

No school tomorrow!

 Konbanwa~~~

I slept a bit better last night as I wrapped myself up in a blanket, good job I did as there was ice on the car this morning! Ice! its may!

So this morning we were up early to do stew anyway, but I had to dash to the toilet and thought

"great got it out the way before breakfast, I will be on time today"

no

just no

my stomach isnt happy unless I am suffering

so I had to again after breakfast! I felt rough afterwards -_____-

we set off LATE for work, but our main road was closed in the village, so we had to divert, and so did everyone else...we did not expect this. So we had a lot of traffic to battle with, then further down the line there had been a car accident! What usually takes 20mins to get to work took over 40mins....

Jack drove and he did so well bless him. Good experience for him.

Got to school and we werent the only ones who had got caught in the traffic

My day was ok, pretty easy and did some digital drawing

nothing special to say really

we left for home and the traffic was fine, mum brought Oz over for us :)

I sat with mum whilst Jack gamed, he says he is looking forward to yoga tho ^^

we had our stew which was nice :D

then I did some jobs like getting ready for school, then chris rang me "drains are blocked, no school tomorrow check your email"

and he was right!!! No school tomorrow!!!

Best news ever ever ever!!!! I can rest tomorrow thank god, I have got to work from home but that is a lot easier on the body than working. 

Tonight is Jo night

we are gonna do some yoga and then face pack then bath ^^

Tomorrow is working from home I guess

Its a week til my blood test

bought my new cacti home :D

14% body fat is the limit

 Konbanwa~~

I did a good 40mins of exercise last night 30mins of it is using my dumbbells ^^

I had a bath and then watched Inuyasha final act with Jack, strong opening start it had!

We went to bed for 10pm which I was happy about

but I kept waking up in the night from Jack pulling the covers and I wake up thinking "Jack is cold and needs covers" So I pass covers over each and every time and fall asleep again but its still disturbed sleep. It must have been a cold night and Im guessing I was robbing the covers to keep warm in my sleep....

This morning we got up and ready for school and dropped Oz off, he came inside for a quick hop round as he wasnt doing much outside >.>

Jack drove to school and the closer we got the more anxious I got....I hadnt died on the toilet so I was feeling good apart from this anxiety. Upon walking up to the school doors I brought up bile. I have no idea why I get so worked up its just fair. I like my job!

My day wasnt even that bad! I dont have to mess with the bacteria this week so thats a massive stress gone for a week. I didnt have much to do anyway so yeah I have no idea why I feel so anxious. 

I was shattered, like my eye lids are red and puffy and I look like I havent slept in a few days. Not sure why to be honest. I was ready for my lunch, been hungry all day ><

I told Julia that I hadnt lost any weight last week but my water percentage was higher than normal. She asked what my fat percentage was and I said "14%" she said "that is the percentage an athlete has, any lower and its not healthy" did not know that. So I am at the minimum level of body fat. Guess thats a good diet achievement? I would like to gain more muscle. she said "at 44% muscle you are in the healthy zone, past 50% is high muscle percentage" hmmm wonder if I can reach 50?

We finished up for the day and had a brew at mums with Oz on the sofa who was falling asleep.

When we got home we had to get food ready which I obviously cooked but Jack cut up everything and everything for the stew to put on tomorrow morning. Then he showered whilst I cooked as he has a raid tonight.

I had stomach pains after dinner so had to spent some time on the toilet whilst Oz waited in the living room for me, luckily I didnt die too badly. Oz was good boy. Its throwing it down again so he hasnt wanted to play out which I do not blame him.

I will do some of my work out tonight :) using my weights then have a bath I think

tomorrow

school really, got stew to put on before school. Mum is coming over after school with Oz for a brew.

Actually did some drawing

 Pyon~~

Last night I didnt have to go to bed alone ^^

I did my exercises with my weights which I enjoyed as it made a change and I could feel I had worked myself. I had a shower and was about to start my pamper and Jack came downstairs at 10pm! He had finished up with the guys, he could have gamed anyway but chose to come and be with me ^^

So I did my pamper anyway, then we watched the last episode of Inuyasha! My god its kept us quiet XD Now we are on Inuyasha final act, which I have never seen so I am excited!

We went to bed at 11pm as I was doing my nails >< 

I woke up at 7:45am but decided to get up. I left Jack in bed and he woke up at 8:30am. 

My parents came round just before 10am, Jack had started his chores but broke off to assist dad who was putting up my lighting in the craft room! Looks really cool and modern :D I want to see it light up tonight. I tried to sit with mum but we kept getting interrupted by ether dad or jack. They didnt stop, literally only came to do his jobs then pretty much left which is fine with me and jack!

We had a brew once they left and saw Ozwald, it kept raining this morning so we bought him inside. 

Had lunch and I kept drifting off to sleep and Jack kept waking me up and I was grouchy. He went to make me tea - needed actual caffeine - and I didnt hear the kettle or the makings of tea. I had fallen asleep THAT fast, why it never happens that fast at night is a mystery. So next thing I knew was Jack shouting me, I woke up and he was like "ive made you tea!" never would have known.....XD

Then I gathered myself and did some drawing! I havent done any for weeks! it felt good to do some again. I knew why I was putting it off and it was because I wanted to try new techniques and needed full concentration for it, something I do not always have time for or have have enough brain function for. I got the hair and eyes done~

I then spent two hours in the kitchen, I baked banana biscuits, cooked my breakfasts and made my dinner too~ Jack washed  up and cleared up. He was disturbed at how much mess there was XD

We had dinner with Oz as he had stayed inside the entire time I was in the kitchen as it is just horrible out there so I think he was happy to be in the warm really. 

Then after dinner I got my stuff ready for school >< 

I think I feel ok about school. Its been nice being off and I havent had upset stomach at all. Sure its school stress. But my head feels noisy so I hope I can sleep tonight, think I will take a sleeping tablet.

I plan on doing my weights exercise next then bath or shower.

tomorrow is school nothing special really

going to bed alone tonight

 Evening

Due to me literally dying last night I didnt get to try out my dumbbells or do any exercise for that matter. My stomach stuck out like I was pregnant. It hurt so so much like my intestines were being squeezed. So painful. I just wanted sleep. I took a sleeping tablet but to be honest I hardly slept I woke up so many times it wasnt fair. So I was quite tired when i woke up at 7:30am but I left Jack in bed til 8:15am.

We got up and I made us omelette with the leftover eggs for breakfast as they would go out of date today so that made a change from meat

we went food shopping, then picked up a few bits from B&M then light cable things from B&Q and Jack let me pick up a couple of baby cacti ^^ I was happy :D So I brought them home and watered them well as they were so dry and it has revived them! I was done in from all the shopping tho. Jack packed away and made me a hot drink. he said I had looked like death all morning.

But I got up and Jack helped me make soup, whilst it cooked I cleaned Oz out and cleaned the bathroom. Then had soup. Then I reluctantly went to bed. I didnt want to but I needed to. 

I got up and we had a brew outside with Oz, I suggested to go for a walk but I was tired, I just felt like I needed to do something but it started to rain so that made the decision for me. I came inside and watched stuff on my laptop then made dinner.

We had dinner then Jack went to go game with Harvey and Theo, I told Jack that as its bank holiday, we have nothing to get up for, the weather is suppose to be crap so if he wants to stay up gaming with the guys he is welcome to, I will be alone tonight and I think I can manage that. He did all his admin jobs today which is bill paying, he manages all the money so it doesnt stress me out. He puts up with a lot so I think hes earned a late gaming night here and there. I just hope I dont get disturbed too bad when he comes to bed >< I cant remember the last time I went to bed by myself actually

I didnt die on the toilet this morning which was nice. I dont feel right mentally tho. Just something not quite right somehow. But I will try to keep going

Tonight I would like to have a go with my dumbbells! Then I might have a bit of a pamper~ do my nails as well.

Tomorrow

my dad is coming over at some point to help with the light fittings. Im hoping my mum comes over to visit me too. I have a bit of cooking/baking to do. Not sure what else we will do. Jack has chores to do such as hoovering and painting the walls were the old radiators were.

Shopping trip with Jack

 Evening

I managed a good 40mins of exercise last night then went to epilate my legs and had a shower as I couldnt be bothered to wait for a bath after epilating. I had a hot chocolate with Jack and watched Inuyasha and went to bed. Slept for a solid 9 hours and felt better for actual sleep. Not being disturbed by Jack

This morning I almost had to run to the toilet, it was that bad. I woke up at 8am and had died on the toilet twice by 9am.....still we got off at 9:15am for shops at attenborough

I drove there and we went to tk maxx, pound shop, pet shop, next clearance, matalan. I was expecting it to be busy to be honest as we got there at 9:45am and its a saturday morning. There was people in the car park but the shops weren't busy. We got a fair bit. Think it was only 1 item of clothing we paid full price off everything else we got in the sales. We managed to get some syrups and sweets for Jack, we checked the pet store but there was nothing for Oz.

So I got 2 new bras, 2 new pants and some dungarees for work. and finally some dumbbells!!

Jack got new boxers, coat, jumper, jeans, tshirt so he did well cus yes he needs clothing -_____-

we went to the nature reserve and went for a walk the weather was cloudy but I wasnt too cold

Jack drove back as I was quite exhausted by this point!

We got home for 12:30pm and had lunch then I went to bed, I was done. I slept so deeply too! Like the house could have been on fire and I wouldnt have known.

I got up and had a drink with Jack and Oz but Oz was hungry so we didnt keep him inside too long. Turns out he hadnt eaten his morning carrot >.> 

We did dinner then I fell asleep on the sofa, just so tired and drained. Jack has gone to have a video call with him friends. I am with Oz who is hungry yet again. I think its cus hes shedding his old coat and its taking more energy for him to do that. So I will take him home and then maybe have a quick go with my dumbbells!

tomorrow

weekly shops, weekly chores, maybe my dad coming over and fitting my light fitting for my craft room. He said he would do it before the carpets are laid.

Radiators are changed!!

 Evening

So last night me and Jack did 30mins of yoga. I am not joking when I say the first stretch we did and Jack's body cracked 3 times....his body protests against exercise XD He has had enough at 30mins tho, whereas I could keep going if I wanted to. Its not even a work out or challenge for me but we need to start off small with Jack as his fitness isnt good and just not used to yoga ether really. He does do well in some respects tho and in others he is incredibly stiff....

I brought Oz in after the exercises and Oz and Jack watched 'trash TV' as we call it. Something he used to do whilst he lived with Theo. So he watched with Oz "dinner with my ex" and I had a bath whilst that was on as no way was I sitting through that. I came out and asked how it was, Jack had groomed Oz whilst watching this program and said "my god some people, and our relationship looks amazing in comparison" He sometimes likes seeing these programs as it makes him feel like a better person XD

 I sat with Oz whilst Jack had a bath, we watched Inuyasha and went to bed. Of course I was going to bed with stomach ache cus why not really. But Jack cuddled me and it did help with my anxiety. I fell asleep and slept a bit better.

This morning I died on the toilet. 25 sodding minutes on the toilet. I made us late by 10mins! awful.

Jack tells me to not to stress as it makes me worse and he says its me who suffers no one else. Its awful. I actually felt like weak and dizzy after it, almost like when you're poorly you know? Fed up with it. So my journey to school was plagued with stomach pains.

School was ok really. I mean I was on the floor for an hour just cus I felt awful. My body was so cold and numb and weak. Jack made me a hot drink and warmed my chips up which did revive me a bit. But it was a rough start to my day. I said to Jack today "not sure if I have lost weight this week but I feel like I have I feel like I have nothing in me like im wasting away"

I didnt have to do anything with my bacteria today anyway, no one came to talk to me about it so I didnt do anything with it. Theyre all stressed with marking GCSEs so I left em to it.

We left school and arrived home to find matt just finishing up our radiators!!!!!! he has done an amazing job as always. We have new radiators!!! ones that dont have all colours building up on the piping.....it was worrying. So I spoke to him and he said he would do our kitchen for us ^^ as I think we would like it doing next year :D I am so grateful for him doing our radiators. He said that he couldnt have us ripped off like we were gonna be. Mum had arrived with Oz so she sat with me and had a brew as Jack went for a shower when Matt left. Mum said that dad had been over and with the help of matt had got rid of a pipe in the study which went through the wall to the floor into the garage, we wanted it gone before the carpets came. So that was nice of him :)

Mum left, she had given me my medication for the month ^^ strawberries :D and made cupcakes but only jack can eat those, hence strawberries for me.

I did us dinner. I had gotten two stew looking containers out the freezer last night and heated em up and from looking at them when I got them out the microwave one wasnt stew...one was  my fish soup! Jack would have had it but I had already cooked him rice so he ate the stew one and I had fish soup - the same meal I had at lunch. Strangely I didnt get any stomach pains. So we joked saying I have eat soup for lunch and evenings XD

Jack went to play dungeon and dragons and I sat with Oz, gave him a good grooming, that 2021 coat is showing through and its so cute! I put him home and doing my diary then I will do my workout :)

Not looking forward to it but I would like to manage maybe 40mins? then bath~~

Tomorrow

Jack asked if there was anything I wanted to do this bank holiday

and its hard isnt it as you still cant visit people or do much really. So I suggested travelling to Attenborough nature reserve. Which is a half hour drive away. On the same bit of road is a retail park with quite a few good clothes stores and Jack NEEDS clothes. We dont really want to go into the city centre just yet. So I said we would go there and pop into maybe 4 stores then go to the nature reserve for a walk then go home for lunch. So I would like to get off earlish tomorrow before it gets too busy. 

Probably sleep after lunch, thats the plan.

Also got my weekly weigh in first thing in the morning