Convention Photos!

Good Evening~
It's actually a nice day today huh
first time in like a whole week!

I had yet another nightmare
whats up with me, i dont watch violent things or
play violent games or read horrid stories
yet im having violent nightmares
its doing my head quite frankly as i keep waking up from them!!
and they make me sweat and my heart race >.>

anyway today I had work, but not til 11am I had to set off
so I didnt do much in the morning simply because I was
saving my little energy for the day

When I did get to work the kids were on lunch and it gave
me time to get up to speed with what the kids had been doing 
and what they were doing for the rest of the day
i helped out as usual and it was rocket building today
a lesson we used to teach but no longer do sadly
so it was nice to revisit it all
on breaks i was made to be goalie >~< goalie is dull
i did really well tho haha

I got to leave a whole hour early today so that was nice
gives me an extra hour to rest today in preparation for tomorrow! 
another early start god damn it!! >< got to be there for 9:30am
going to be on stage with Seth apparently
never been on stage and im well looking forward to it
altho Seth said he's gonna make me do more presenting 
cant say as tho I want to with him around so i might try
and weasel out of it XD its werid but i dont like doing things in front
of male teachers or seniors just always been like this
im fine with woman it doesnt bother me

anyway more of my manchester photos
these are all the photos I took at convention~
from having photos with my friends to having photos with random people
purely because i like their costume and/or their character
also a photo of the haul of stuff i treated myself to with my christmas money :3

oh and I uploaded a dance today too
a new dance recorded a good week ago! 
 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mVj21FlHgs&feature=youtu.be

Start of Manchester photos

Yay today is the day I actually have time to start uploading photos!!
^^
Sorry for the wait but I havent had time to breath this week!

These are the dull photos to start with, next ones will be my trips out
but heres a hot choc in a jar! our hotel room and view and the two italian meals i ate ^^

Today I had to be at work for 10am so i left early enough
got there early, usually Seth beats me but he wasnt at the school
in fact no one was...so i rang the office but they said i was at the right place
eventually Seth arrived but told me he forgot the candy floss machine
at the office and could i go pick it up >.> i guess i didnt mind
so i went and at the office they told me we were suppose to be at a college
not a school but it was easy to find and there was actually people there! haha

The event was lovely a real day for the kids
it was set up by the community there and it was amazing
bouncy castle, face paint, craft works and mad science
its only £3 per kid too!!! I was amazed and all the kids were enjoying themselves
no fighting or crying it was just really nice

I was on the candy floss machine whilst Seth was doing dry ice
i think i served up 200 sticks of candy floss
yeah my arm was aching and i could no longer feel the legs i was sitting on XD
i dressed in candy colours and had candy accessories on which were noticed
by a lot of staff and children ^^
was it wrong that i wanted my face painting too? XD
Seth was grateful of my assistance today as he hates the Candy floss machine
i enjoy it, better than any desk job right? except i was getting it in my
hair and on my face and hands =.=

came home and slept it was satisfying alright 
tonight i would like to find the strength to dance
ive not danced in a whole freakin week!!!!
tomorrow I have work gonna wear my new Mad Science t-shirt
i was the only one to have size small and it fits great ^^

Manchester photo for my frame~

Good Evening

Ahhh I've missed yoga tonight T^T
Im too corpse like to go im afraid
and what with an early start tomorrow im just making
harder work for my body >.>

I slept better last night, well better than the night before
the dreams were on the creepy side one point my brother got shot in the forehead
dont know what that was about but that made me wake up
why am i dreaming like this lately!?

I took an easy morning as i knew I had a full scale day ahead
but I set off at 11:00 needing to be there at 12:00
I went off my own decision to hand 2 lesson boxes into the office
i had from summer term on my way to the school today
Nicola-chan was the only one in the whole office and
shes been on her own all week so i decided as i was early
to keep her company for a while we can always find something
to just talk about, i find it easy talking to a fellow 92" baby ^^
I asked her suddenly "whats the time?" "11:50pm"
woops ^^" got carried away talking but the place was only 10mins away max
so i wasnt panicked 
that wasnt until i saw the road closer.....after i was forced to go down a different road
i thought "i know i'll do a U-turn and go another route i know"
nope couldnt do that it had been made a 1 way system D:
shock!! and no diversion!! no warning signs!! nothing!! 
so i turned down a road and turned my engine off
i looked on my satnav and gave Nicola a ring to say i was gonna be late and
to tell who ever was in charge of me today i was gonna be late
apparently this road closer has buggered a few people up
i rang mum whilst i was figuring a route out as my sat nav wanted to take
me down the temporary 1 way system, mum had a route and i had route
2 choices at least none of which a quick 2min journey
going up a hill i was unfamiliar  with but confident it lead to where i needed it to be
it was closed!!! aghhh!! i was cursed today but i got there only half hour late =.=
im never late always stupidly early
it was my first time meeting Emma-san but she was lovely and forgivng
and said it made her late on monday, so i wasnt the only one
turns out Emma-san is a 91" baby she was so easy to talk to i liked her
and i get to work with her again on friday, shes staying with us for a few months
until she finds a teaching job :)

came home and died, but was greeted with dinner and cookies :D
happiness of home life~

I have got work 10:00 - 12:00 tomorrow
2 hours of serving candy floss to children!
fun! im gonna wear pink ;)
and im working along side Seth also :)

I did this photo for my room this evening~

 

I know what i'm doing damn it

Konbanwa~

Ah I slept so bad last night >~< even tho i was mega tired and drained
I had the most incredible nightmare of my life
the kind that if you were a child would make you cry and
wake your parents up, i honestly thought i had had a stroke or
something in my sleep or even died for that matter
i couldnt escape it and it felt like nothing i have ever experienced before
everything was so so dark and spinny then i was in a huge pit like a volcano
holding onto a chain with creatures breathing fire around me
i just remember trying to hit this clock face with the chain by swinging
and as soon as i hit it i woke up with a start, panting my mouth was dry
my heart was pounding i was covered in sweat
it was just terrible i cant describe just how trapped i felt in darkness and bitter memories

anyway so i had to begin my day at 7:00am yes someone up there hates me
i literally shoved tiffin outside, got changed, had breakfast and set off 7:40am
I got to the place i was meant to meet Seth with time to spare and saw him
arrive so i was glad he wasnt waiting for me!
i have been in the car today for agesssss
but Seth is good company never short for something to say anyway

got to the school and we decided to teach in one big group of 45 children
purely because i hadnt done the ending experiment and i needed to
know how to do it safely 
but it means letter Seth take the wheel and somehow im always assistant 
but i get on with it i dont actually mind because i help in my own way
i dont just stand there like a lemon haha altho i do feel that way at times
i clean up, help kids and give/take equipment and keep the room flowing
i went to fetch some water from the staff room and a woman was in there
who was running this children's club we were entertaining
woman "is this your first day?"
i looked at her like HUH?
woman "you dont seem to be doing any presenting yourself"
i just said "oh its Seth hes a control freak he just likes
to present and im happy learning off him and assisting"
and just laughed it off you know
but she took it dead seriously asking questions like
"can you actually present? what else do you do?"
i kinda felt like saying KEEP YOUR NOSE OUT!!
just leave me alone will ya me and Seth work as a team. end of

so we had a break and i went out to play with the kids ^^
I came in and Seth called me over for a quiet word
Seth "Jo im gonna get you to do some presenting. I think
they think stereotypically that im the guy who presents
and your just my glamorous assistant"
i was so annoyed by this, not because i had to present
but because WHAT THE HELL'S IT GOTTA DO WITH THEM!!
So i got nervous stupidly, i just dont like presenting infront of my seniors
as i feel like im just gonna criticized i mean im probably not but its how i feel
and he gave me the worst damn thing in the world to present!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
did he do it on purpose to spite me!?
these stupid drinking straws, cut them in the right way and they make a noise
when you blow threw them, only trouble is I CAN NEVER GET IT TO WORK FOR ME!!!
AGGGHHHHHH!!! the frustration!!! 
so i showed everyone and told them it takes practice
half the class could do it and then by the end of the day they all could do it
i got through the day i just laugh through it and enjoy myself

after a long journey home i was glad to be home
i have just sat round reading, uploaded my photos on facebook
i plan on sorting them out properly tomorrow then going to upload
them onto my blog~
i have work tomorrow 12:00 - 5:30pm 
gonna be a hard slog!
in the mean time look at my baby millie
who im sure grew in the few days i was away from home

she was due a growth spurt 
soon she wont fit in that hay ball of hers XD

Ta-dai-ma! (I'm home!)

Minna~ Tadaima!!!
Im back, I returned to the country of Robin Hood XD
I got back at 2:40pm I think

I have an awful lot to write up about
but i have not stopped since i got in
i like to tidy everything away i dont like mess
and because im like that it means i havent sat down!
i have many things to catch up online with
so please bare with me
and i have a hectic week ahead but i will do my best

I havent even put my camera photos on my laptop yet
but here's 3 my friends put up on facebook

i will show you my photos and all will be explained!

I had a great time i really did
exhausting time to the point were i just wanted to cry
and times of high anxiety and close to panic attacks
apart from that i did ok XD

As soon as i walked through my door i went straight to tiffin
my prince god how i miss him i brought him gifts XD
I opened the back door he was sat in a ball
"TIFFIN!!!!"
his ears pricked up like "wait is that?"
"tiffin oh my little prince" as i picked him up into my arms
*growls*
"have you been ok?"
*growls*
"aw you missed me" XD
our reunion haha

i have spent time with him and i plan on sitting with him
and my guineas tonight

i am busy at work tomorrow but i will get round to uploading photos!

I am home safe and things and would visit Manchester in a heart beat~

bye for now! ><

Manchester Ikimasu~

Ohayou Gozaimasu Minna

Today's the day!!!

Im going to manchester!!!!!

I could scream im so excited!

Altho the journey is causing me some anxiety

i will just be glad to get there I think

Im gonna try sleep the journey away~

I will be back Monday Evening

Then I will be working Tuesday til Saturday

I will be truly dead, so please dont expect much

from me in the way of dances, im just

not going to have the time or energy im afraid!

But I will bring back plenty of photos :)

Im going with 5 of my friends so theyres a good group of us

Mia - Rob  &    Helina - Clinton   &   Dom

Mia and Rob have been to Manchester loads so

I dont have any worries about becoming lost

My only worry is tho...my Prince

leaving Tiffin with a poorly eye is hard

my family has got to give him his medication over the weekend

theyre not confident but i hope they manage

i know tiffin isnt going to be a happy bunny this weekend

I HAVE NEVER LEFT HIM BEFORE!!!

oh tiffin i feel like im leaving my actual baby behind XD

He will be fine im sure, and I know the guineas will be fine

guineas are far easier than bunnies~

Anyway Im going off to finish the rest of my packing

and getting myself presentable :)

I'll blog when Im back in the mean time I drew you

all a very pretty picture and uploaded a dance

(I wont have internet access hence no updates over the weekend)

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTXOkAwXBl4&feature=youtu.be

Im going tomorrow!!!

Good Evening~

This time tomorrow I'll be in Manchester!!!!!!!
both nervous and excited ><
I have just been for a walk with mia and helina talking
about tomorrow and things

My manager called at 9:20am this morning
i was just getting dressed would you believe
so i ended up talking to her over the phone for 20mins
in my pants and t-shirt =.=
i didnt tell her that XD

I got a lot of my packing done today 
just got the final pieces to pack tomorrow like hair stuff
and make-up bag y'know

I had yoga last night and bloody hell did she test us
it was a small class and she used that to her advantage 
she has us up the walls, man that is tough work supporting your whole body
and she had us holding strong positions for what felt like eternity!!
She was talking to the class but looking at me whilst saying
"you have all gotten so strong you should see the difference
to when you first started" i thought I know i am stronger and its a nice feeling
but she gives me what i like to call "special treatment" as I have
hyper-mobility syndrome my joints are too flexible there for im using
my joints and not my muscles so my muscles become weaker
so she put straps round me, just me, when we do certain positions
as she can see my muscles arent working and i need to strengthen them
i feel like trouble to her, i dont ever ask her for her to give me extra help
she just does it, and enjoys it im here only "pupil or whatever" that has
hyper-mobility syndrome so i suppose it gives her a different challenge

my legs bloody killed after yoga i thought "im gonna hurt tomorrow"
when i woke up i got up and thought "im ok i got off lightly"
but then going down the stairs, jesus the pain XD

my plant in my room i watered it today
i came back from a lovely massage making me flexible once again
to find my windowsill had a lake on it =.=
so much for a pot the stupid thing has come undone in the corners
so i had all brown soil water to clean up >.>
ive put the pot and plant in the garden now

i gave tiffin his medicine he was not impressed
and mum had ago giving it to him but i can tell shes not confident
i get the meds straight in his mouth no messing but mum
was hesitant and got it round his mouth not in it
im sure they will be ok over the weekend

right well im gonna go sit with my pets now
i shall blog and upload a dance tomorrow
here's a picture i was drawing
a chibi of the character im cosplaying as on saturday~

   

Tiffin and his poorly eye

Konbanwa~

I slept bad again!!! Ugh am I cursed this week!?
and unfortunately mum had to wake me because I had a doctors appt at 8:50am
I moaned at her half asleep about not wanting to get up
i didnt even do that when i was teenager! XD 
alwell I got up as I need to check Tiffin's eye anyway

Last night we realized he had a sore eye, I had bathed it
and looked in it but I couldnt see anything
this morning it had been weeping and the fur round his eye was wrong
so i picked him up and bathed his eye on the sofa
i had another look but still couldnt see anything
so i rang the vets up and luckily they managed to fit him in today
4:20pm was his appt

at the doctors i had the lovely task of saying i have stupid thoughts in my head
what i thought everyone got day to day was apparently wrong
i told my doctor this and he said "no more medication if we can help it
your on a lot for someone your age, it should go with time
when you start to enjoy life more and get out into the world you
will have more important things to think about than yourself and your weight"
which i liked to believe is true and i was glad i was dosed up with anymore
medication, he offered CBT but i dont feel like talking to anyone yet
im not that mental and it was nice to hear from a doctor that im not mental
my only fear is the day i cant fight it and i go along with the thoughts
he weighed me and i had lost weight

i got home and did my time sheet for work
and wrote down everything i am doing next week and where
i am working 5 days a week as of tuesday - saturday!!!
so as soon as I get home from Manchester im working
which is fine to the "normal" person but im not normal
it normally takes me a week to recover from my holiday
this time i wont get anytime to recover and be expected to
work more hours and more days than i ever have before
i can tell you i am very nervous about how my body will handle this
i will do my best
in that 5 days tho i will earn more than i have all this month
so i suppose it has its good points~

tiffin at the vets, he was such a good boy honestly
i was so proud of him, not a single growl
the vet started to say his tear duck was blocked, and because of his
breed - netherland dwarf - their tear ducks are tiny and are prone to blocking
she was on about knocking him out and flushing them clean
i suddenly felt more panicked and sick then i already did
the thought of him needing an op and i was going away
i dont think i would have gone on holiday!
anyway instead she gave us eye drops, anti-biotic, anti-inflammatory 
to give him once a day for a week

we took him home and i left him chill out in his cage
then after 45mins i got him out and gave him his medication
he wasnt too bad taking it actually i thought he would kick off
so my family have got to administrate his medication
saturday & sunday, they are not looking forward to it!
im sure he will be a good boy tho :)

anyway im off to yoga
tomorrow i have a massage and my god do i need it!

 

what dull day

Evening~

I didn't sleep again
its really annoying i was tired too
dont know why im not sleeping :/

I woke up feeling like id been ran over in my sleep
i hurt and ache everywhere and just feel exhausted
i hate days like this, days when my illness is on top form
it sucks and is boring like hell

so i dont feel like i have achieved much today
I did get a few jobs done tho
I chose what outfits i'm gonna wear whilst i am away
which took a good hour, as i was choosing down to what accessories to take with me
I wrote down a list of things to take with me which i keep adding to XD
I prepared my make-up bag as i can never zip the bugger up
so i emptied it off things i know im not gonna need so i can shut it now
and chose which fake eye lashes to take ;)

I got an email through with what work i have when i come back
i just hope i will be well enough to do the work
i can feel a lot anxiety building up but ive just gotta take one day at a time~

I slept for 4 hours today would you believe?
2  hours i fell asleep then i woke up and couldnt be bothered to get up
i was comfy and didnt want to move so i just drifted in and out of sleep
til 4 hours had passed and i thought "i better get up" didnt do much tho

tomorrow I have doctors appointment at 8:50am
i dont want to go =.= its about my mental state
ive gotta talk about whats in my head and i dont know how i feel about doing that
i guess i'll just get on with it i just hope the doc takes me seriously
but not too seriously that he locks me into a looney bin XD

tiffin's eye is red :( just this last hour his eye is red
i think he's been scratching it so much its been bleeding
im so sad my heart feels crushed i hope hes ok
ive tried to clean his eye, i thought i saw something in it
but he was getting that stressed and hot we had to let him go outside
i'm gonna have another look later 
if its the same in the morning he will be going vets i pray it doesnt come to that tho

yeah so a cruddy day for me :/ 
i hope tomorrow will be a better day~
i uploaded a dance i did last week
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1qC-qsozwA

My Neko Watch

Good Day

Ahh~ today I ache and feel wary
maybe yesterday took it out of me
but if thats how i am after half a day out of walking
around a city, how am i gonna be at Manchester!?
i can already feel my anxiety building 
I just dont like letting people down
but my friends know the score so if i need to rest
at the hotel im sure they will be fine with it
i wont be tho i will be beating myself up mentally
i hope im strong enough for this weekend!

I did manage to make a strap for my watch

It was easy to do
hardest part was choosing the fabric!
im really pleased with it tho ^^
Going to wear it for work :D

at 12:30 I had a hair cut appointment
the lady there who usually sweeps up, was doing a woman's hair
and sitting there i thought "you dont usually do hair" Ive seen her wash hair
but never style & cut hair, all the times ive been going and i never
knew she could actually do hair! she called me over
and cut my hair I could actually see! haha my fringe was so long
the style isnt how i usually get it cut, my hairdresser knows
how I like it ^^ but I was just grateful they fit me and cut it before the weekend

I then fell asleep for a couple of hours
i hate days like this, days im stripped of my strength and energy
but im sure i'll bounce back tomorrow :)

I have been drawing the rest of the day
getting close to finishing my picture
it will be uploaded on friday~

tomorrow i am going to get on with some
jobs that need doing!!
*a list of things to take manchester
*time sheet for work
*choose outfits to take away with me

I was thinking today, i have never left tiffin before
i dont want to leave him!! my gorgeous little prince
but i know mum will look after him

right thats me for today~

Vintage Fair Ikimashita~

Konbanwa 

Last night I woke up a few times due to a neighbour having 
a party to all hours of the morning, i mean how selfish is that? ahaha XD
I was having dreams about blood too which made me wake up
what's with all the bad dreams lately!?

Anyway mum woke me up which i was glad of
as i had to get ready to go out with mia
we were going to the vintage fair in the city - Albert Hall
Ive never been to the Albert Hall before I didnt even know where it was XD

So I got myself ready and attempted the best vintage look i could do

what do you think? not too bad is it? i tried anyway ><

she picked me up and we went and it was great!
so much to look round its like one big charity shop! <3
there was an upstairs and downstairs, many people dressed up
we got a complement from someone about ours looks ^^
there was a few cute things i would have loved to have brought
but i was saving my money for next weekend~

I did pick up this watch
the lady had loads of watches for sale but i couldnt choose
i think too much choice
ive been wanting a watch for work, i only have the nurse watch which is
always on my lab coat, and what with wearing a t-shirt for work now
instead of the lab coat for summer i wanted something else
all i own is necklace pocket watches and theyre not practical for work
so i brought this one simply because its a cat face X3
Tomorrow I am going to change the strap as I hate it
the lady had for sale these watches - the face was on a strap of material
and you tie it round your wrist, great idea i was gonna buy one
but the watch faces were so old, gold and dull and boring
so i thought "i'll do my own" ^^

mia got her hair professionally done by these 2 ladies
it took about 15mins and she was transformed! it was amazing
she received many complements from passerbys whilst she was
on the hairdresser's chair, thats my mia ^^
she was in love with her hair after that i mean it is good isnt it
i did a before and after shot for her

she brought me a piece of cake and tea, my reward
for doing her dress the other day
it was so good i cant tell you how good it was =3=

we left then and went round 2 charity shops
we were in the center of the city and we chose yet more
second hand stuff to look round XD
I got a pair of joggers for £1!!!!!!! with squirrels on! theyre practically new to!
my bargin of the day

then she dropped me off home and i have rested for a lil while
but we didnt get home til 4
my dad had brought a jacket for work
he wanted it altering so ive sat and warily done that  

now i want to rest to my heart's content
i washed my face well, i get worried that i'll get a bad face from wearing make-up ><