Konbanwa~
I didn't sleep well
I had a dream that I had to tell a load of people that I am constantly in pain
and what the pain has done to me over time
I was some sort of dragon monster thing
My pain had turned me into a monster
Last night I had spoken to Ed on the phone for almost an hour
it was good to speak to him although I felt I didn't have much to tell him
but it was still good to talk to him
I got up at 7:30am
I spent my morning doing some more work on the black bird picture
simply because I wasn't in the mood to sew
I also did my pumpkin! it's a simple design nothing amazing
I sat with Oz
I got ready to see adam not that I bothered applying make-up
or doing a lot with my hair
I couldnt be bothered today
and I still couldnt get my head round what we were gonna do today
In the end I picked him up from the gym and we went into a town
we went pub for lunch i had soup
i didnt really feel like eating
we walked round some shops and charity shops
I picked up some new leg warmers reduced from £8 to £1.59!
I picked Oz up some treats as I haven't brought him rabbit treats in such
a long time i've just been giving him dried fruit and veg
and he loved the treats
he also loved seeing adam honestly he was so excited and licking him at every chance
im almost forgotten about!
We played pokemon downstairs
I was so cold I can't get rid of these hot and cold moments
i was sweating earlier in the day then mid afternoon i was a corpse
this morning i was so cold my hands like ice
dont know whats up with me
mum says it could be my thyroid
another reason why im getting my blood test done i guess
We went for a half hour walk to see if that would warm me and it
eventually did thank god
then i took adam home
suppose to be seeing him tomorrow i believe
he says i need to relax and calm stuff down
im stressing too much which i know i am
seeing as my brother wasn't happy i decided to draw a picture for him
this is 'Cock Cat' from the series 'Fresh Meat'
its drawn on the wall in one of the student's rooms.
I paused the DVD and sat and drew it downstairs on my lap
then went over it in pen in my room
I do hope he enjoys
cus I must say I felt bloody dirty drawing this thing XD
An idea came to me today
ive been wanting to give adam something a lil extra at xmas
but couldnt think what as guys are so damn hard!
but I thought about doing a drawing for him and getting it printed on a phone case for him :D i think that has real potential the question is now
what do I draw for him? /:
Tomorrow I have stupid dentist
ugh
don't want to go but it cant be helped i guess i need to get these things done if i want to keep my teeth my whole life. i just dont enjoy it. but theres charity shops next to it so that will cheer me up afterwards im sure :) then see adam at some point
Evening
Jeez have i been in a mood today
it's not even time of the month but I could quite easily have a massive
go at someone over nothing
Yesterday
I woke up at 8:00am and by 8:30am I was up outta bed
and leaving adam's house
i told him to stop in bed as I was capable of seeing myself out
but his dad was up and was going out so he saw me out
I got home and sorted the pets out
I also cleaned, tidied and aired the house well the downstairs anyway
ready for my parents to come back
and as I had barely slept that night due to shivers and sweats again
I went to bed for 2 hours and woke up by which time my parents were home
I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with my afternoon
I was getting a lil annoyed as Id do nothing for myself all day
by 2:30pm I went over to adams and we went for a walk
we picked him up a glass jar so he can start his collection saving for holidays
we came home had a brew and played pokemon
had dinner and I came home
Today I did sleep rather well
but I felt done in
I was mentally not good and my body was drained
I have done a little work on the cushions but if I was better
I could have gotten A LOT further
but there's no rush anyway i guess
I got to a point where I was able to clear aware the fabric from my room anyway
I fell asleep during the day
I didnt want to get up I wanted to sleep the day away
I had rung the doctors for an appt to see the GP and an appt for the nurse
for blood test -___- just seeing 'blood test' on my calender sickens me greatly
I also rang up the benefits office as I requested a form to fill in to see if im entitled to claim anything as I barely work and if i didnt have my family, it certainly wouldnt be enough to live on. heck i got more when i student at 17!!!
worth a shot I had to talk on the phone for 15mins i did really well
i also ordered an NHS exemption form so I dont need to pay for dentist or eye checks
every little helps, Ive had one past few years
i also did my nails which turned out so unbelievably crap that i took them off
they smudged and just looked terrible
im gonna have another go tonight
that was my mega exciting day!
tomorrow I am unsure of what to do
a part of me is tempted to go to the city centre by myself
but then i know id chicken out i think
i just dont know what i want to do with my day
adam wants to see me i know he does
he wants to see Oz as well who is doing really really well
id say he was back to his usual self! <3
Here is a cheek cream blusher i got from japan
ive tried it but its quite strong against my pale face
so i really look like im blushing haha
dont know how much i'll use it but it was only £3
might do some beauty treatments tonight
bleach eye brows
facial scrub
facial mask
nails
might boost my mood hopefully
Konbanwa~~
I slept terrible
I was shivering with goose bumps everywhere
but I was sweating at the same time
I think thats called fever?
all through the night
I was shattered come morning
didn't help waking at 7am -_____-
I went put the heating on as dad never puts it on in the morning
dad isnt here is he :D
Then went to check Oz
he hadn't eaten :(
well he had eaten the grass I'd cut for him so that was something
I brought him in for a fuss and a look at his wound
which looked good
Pinks came out for a trot she didn't give me too much hastle
she does stink tho
Then I got girls out and I cleaned them out
I was finished by 8:30am and usually on a saturday I havent even started by that time!
the girls were good and I had Oz outside whilst I cleaned their cage
I watched him eat manky old rotting leaves...
all the lovely things I have offered him and he insists on eating that!!
but I didn't mind considering he was eating
I had a shower as I felt gross from my night of sweating
and got ready to go adams for a few hours
I used the new lip balm/stick I got from Japan
I fancied red for a change and its really good I am impressed
but its not overly red as i wouldnt look right XD
I was leaving when my brother asked
"you staying out tonight?"
"yeah maybe I need to talk to adam and see how Oz is"
"I just might bring someone over or we might go to dinner"
"who?"
"Ellie"
"who's Ellie?"
"a girl in the year below me"
"ok"
"yeah she's well bang-able" 0_____0 I did not just hear that from my brother it did make me laugh
"woah I did not just hear that!! But I don't know what Im doing tonight"
"I'm trying to bang her here" 0___0 good grief!!! XD I laughed
"well in that case I am certainly staying out!!!!!"
and I left
bloody hell. just what goes through male minds 0.0 not sure I was to know
I got to adam and talked with him and his family 15mins then we went to go get lunch I got sweetcorn chicken and tomato sauce on a cob the lady said it was an odd combo i told her dont knock it til you try it.
she told us it was 'national chocolate day' so when we went shops we used it as an excuse to have chocolate XD I had white naturally ;) we brought his parents chocolate too
we ate when we got home
then played pokemon Im doing X
I left at about 1:30 just to check on Oz and put girls out
which I did and Oz had eaten some of the treats I had given him :D
I sat in my room and made Lynn an xmas card
my brother came home with Ellie
Ive barely spoken to her I just thought Id leave em too it
theyve been in the living room the whole time watching crap
doesnt bother me im happy out the way and seems to cheer my brother up
amazing how good natured he is when he has a friend over
I got Oz ready to go for his vets appt
He was really stressing in the car
and he was holding onto the vents looking out of them which he's never done before
i ended up waiting a lil while at the while
i kept moving so i wasnt sitting next to dogs
it was busy everywhere so the noise and stress wasnt good on Oz
we got seen and the vet was pleased with his progress and said his wound looked good
I have to take him back on friday morning for his final check up
I got home and realized Oz had done a HUGE wee in the carrying case
it made his blanket soaking I threw it straight in the washer
it came out still stained so i put Vanish on it then gave it another wash and it looks alright
I decided Id go to sleep as I felt I wouldnt survive the night
I warmed my left over pasta up
and ate it in my room with Oz
He helped me get stuff ready for my sleep over tonight
he's nosy like that
Im going over to adam's around 10 and his mum is taking us down to his work at 10:30pm
im gonna go in and see if I can find him if not I'll go back to the car
then were coming home and he'll unwind and i'll ether go bed or sit with him which ever he wants to do really.
then im gonna come home around 8 - 9am for the pets
not sure what im actually doing tomorrow tho
I keep trying to think but nothing comes to mind /:
Evening~
I slept pretty well last night
but god I am exhausted I really am
I'm so going bed early tonight
I almost fell asleep a few times today
My parents went away today
mum didn't want to go for a few reasons
me (mentally not brilliant this week)
oz (had his op yesterday)
dad (annoyed her like hell last weekend)
but i told her to get gone
after she'd packed half the house's contents she went with dad
I spent my morning starting the cushions
it was hard work actually and then I had pigs to tend to
and feeding Oz round the clock
cus he still hasnt eaten by himself
he looks more awake today and his wound is clean
but he wont eat
the vet said no to him playing outside
i let him out for 3 hours
it was going to be 30mins but he was so happy i didnt want to take that from him
he was laying in the sun, had the odd strand of grass, laying in the shed, hopping round
I left him and the girls outside and went for a walk
its been a while since ive done a walk and the full walk of going into the woods at that
all was fine until i walked into the field which borders the woods
i saw 2 women and 2 dogs
1 border collie and 1 grey hound
well as soon as i walked through did both dogs make a bolt to me
the grey hound stood back but not the collie
the collie decided to come charging and leaped up at me his front paws hitting my chest with ease. he then went round my back i looked up to see its owner coming (slowly i may add) she shouted "don't worry she wont hurt you" by this point the dog had grabbed hold of the back of my hoodie with it's teeth and gave me a pull, I span round. the woman said "i can tell you dont have a dog" HOW IS THAT RELEVANT!!! IF I DID HAVE A DOG IT WOULDNT BE GOING ROUND BEING AGGRESSIVE TO PEOPLE but my brain was so focused on the attack i couldnt speak. the dog came back to my front, leaped up and grabbed hold of my arm i felt my arm in its mouth, only 1minute before did i think about taking my hoodie off as i was hot im so glad i didnt as i dont want to think the marks id have now. the woman came at this point "bad girl eva, I am sorry."
I was severally shaken. I just said "forget it" and walked off as quick as I could
there was a million things i could have said to her and looking back i should have got her details and reported the dog as a dangerous dog. cus im sorry but if your dog is like that it should be on a lead at all times and maybe a mussel too. stupid stupid stupid dog owners!!!!!!
I got out the woods and after a few tears dropped (i was coming down from the adrenaline and shock) i rang mum as luckily i had my phone on me. i just needed to speak to someone. i got a lil teary on the phone but i was ok. i mean really i was ok.
i got in and chucked my clothes in the washer as i felt dirty in them after that thing had me in it's mouth but on inspection i had a lot of mud on me from it's paws.
I got dressed and had a tea with two sugars
bloody needed it
checked on my girls
did a bit more sewing but i knew i needed to stop as i was pushing myself
so what did i do? i pushed myself a bit more
i danced -_____-
i really need to talk to myself sometimes
i then had to make myself dinner
i have been feeding Oz as much as I can, my brother keeps going out and i need his help to feed Oz but i really did think Oz would be more better than what he is
he is worrying me.
I'll keep him in as long as i can.
tomorrow he has got vets at 3:45
tomorrow its saturday
my usual saturday routine is cleaning pets out and having lunch with adam
but i feel a bit uneasy about leaving Oz so im not sure what to do really
might see if adam wants to come here or something i just feel i'll be away from Oz for too many hours. unless i literally go up and have lunch and come home again.
we'll sort something out.
my nails for this week
got adam's mum's nails to do
she wants halloween nails
Evening~
Didn't sleep great
I was in a whole lot of pain
got I ached and ached
Mum woke me at 8:30am
I got ready and spent as much time as I could with Oz before
I had to take him to the vets
I arrived at the vets on time
Oz was being good boy he was panting a little bit
my favourite vet saw to us
Oz was weighed and they said he was the correct weight
which surprised me
he then had his name on a sticker put on the carrying case
and a little paper band round his neck with name on
It was hard to leave him but I knew he'd be good
he was very good whilst having a post op check up
I left the pet shop and went TK MAXX
i did very well in there
only buying the reduced stuff i spent £21
i got:
thermal leggings
thick tights
x2 compression tights
3x socks
x2 netting socks
shiny nail varnish as mine is running short
base coat for adam's mum in mind as the nail varnish is drying out her nails
a bra
hand cream for mum for xmas
bargins
I did start to feel a lil panicky from being out in the public
by myself...
doesnt happen very often and i feel i could be losing confidence in going out by myself
usually i have someone with me
but I carried on and forced myself to drive to Tesco
I picked up 2 pumpkins - one for soup - one for carving
and i picked up adam this brand of beer he likes but can never get
I came home and sat with mum a minute before she went out again
put stuff away
washed a bra
hung washing up
drew out halloween nails
adam came
made us both a hot lunch
stripped my bed
made my bed
put the girls out
god i hadnt stopped
I had a mini break down today
i was very hard
i had been suffering today as it was and to have adam and mum over and i was struggling to make my bed and mum was nagging a lil
i just wanted to explode and have ago at people and it would have been over nothing
i was beating myself up for feeling like this as it's not 'normal' way of thinking
beating myself up that i was struggling to make a bed
i was in pain as well
i was tired as well
so i was in my room doing my bed when i started crying
mum shouted upstairs if i was ok cus both her and adam was in the living room
i told her i wanted to be left alone
after the bed was made i laid and cried
about 10 mins later adam and mum came into me
i re-assured them that i was ok i had just had a moment and it was best i was left alone
they both knew that was the case
but adam picked my spirits up and i came downstairs
for extra pain relief, tea with two sugars
it picked me up
we think the stress with Oz added to all of that
I went over to adams for 90mins as i needed a change of scenary
he offered to take me for cake but i didnt want to be around people
he offered to go a walk but i was tired
so we were just on his bed really
when i said "i have to leave to go get Oz"
he got up and went to make me a quick drink id asked for
i popped for a wee
came down stairs to find adam bleeding...
i freaked out a bit
it was a nose bleed
he doesnt usually have them and he was so cool and collected i was more upset than he was it was the first time i had seen him bleed and i didnt like seeing it even if it was just a nose bleed
it made me feel a bit weird actually a bit sicky and shaky
i came home for Oz
we were waiting about 10mins for him
and he was quite awake and as soon as the vet opened the cage door
Oz came straight out trying to jump up me
i had to control him so he didnt cause an injury to ether of us
he calmed down
brought him home and put him in his hutch for re-assurance
I ate dinner quickly and brought him straight inside my bedroom
the vet said he has eaten and passed poos i havent gotten him to eat yet but he has passed poos and eaten some so he seems to be ok
i might syringe him water before he goes bed
but for now hes under my bed where its dark and warm
I have to take him for a check up on saturday at 3:45pm
Thats been my day
bit of a wasted day but i knew it would be like that
cus i just needed distracting really
and i couldnt do anything creative as my head was else where
speaking of my head im loads better now
i hate being so up and down
feel bloody bi-polar
tomorrow my parents go away for the weekend
im staying home doing crafty bits and looking after Oz
so glad he's ok tho
Evening~
i didn't get off to sleep til gone 1am
at 12:30am I was doing yoga for half hour
it did help as I was aching and a bit stressed out mentally that I couldnt sleep
Adam had sent me a txt saying I could sleep over if I wanted to on saturday night
but my parents are away this weekend and that would mean leaving my brother home alone
hes never been home alone at night before
i feel bad to leave him but he he doesnt seem arsed
and it would mean id have company during the night :)
Mum woke me at 7am
I got up for a shower and such
I did not want to start the day that early I was tired
I put a jumper and skirt on today sod the dress i wasnt feeling dressy
I spent my morning with my pets and talked to mum about mia's house
which i was so impressed by and happy for her
then at 9:30am - the time i said id pick adam up for derby
i was knocking down his front door
where the hell was he!?
he answered the door by standing behind the door...
i got in a realised he had been taking a shower whilst id been banging his door down
he was in his boxers and had spiky wet hair
i just wanted to take him to bed and cuddle him to death and role in his scent
im a bit weird like that
I behaved but I did sit on his bed watching him dress XD
he'd watch me if it was the other way round
he was tired I could see he was, he doesnt do mornings
so even tho we were getting off later than i would have liked i insisted he made
himself a coffee and adjust to the day a bit
cus im nice like that
we didnt do well for buses we missed both of em but cant be helped
we did get to derby
i was so hungry when we got there and he hadnt eaten ether
so we went to lunch at a random cafe
i had beans on toast he had lasagna
then we started shopping!!!!
I saw a Pink Stitch in disney store her name is Angel and I have never seen her in plush form before I really really wanted her. i didnt NEED her I just WANTED her
and adam offered to buy me her but I said mum would kill him if he did that so he was even more keen to do it but he didnt i steered him away knowing he wouldnt go in disney store by himself anyway and also i feel bad him spending money on me.
I picked up the bits I needed, the fabric I had originally went in for I didnt choose I chose something really quite different but im happy with my choice. the cushions will link together and be subtle.
I picked up some bunny fabric and sausage dog fabric too X3
I got 3 nail varnishes from that awesome store that sells top brands for £1
i got white (cus my new one is terrible) a sparkly pink and a red glitter one.
I picked up a rabbit xmas decoration, yes i know christmas, but i have to pick these things up when i see them and i LOVE rabbits on my xmas tree ^^
I also picked up a duck tea light candle holder for mum for xmas present its so different looking and i saw a rabbit in the same style which adam ended up buying for me ><
I got Oz his treats I spent a massive £1.51 on him 0.0
haha thats soooooooo ridiculously cheap seriously
I went to a retro store and they had second hand manga but they were practically new
I picked up each for £3
pokemon adventures
Twin Star Exorcists vol 1,2,3
I have never read that series and i loved the look of it when I picked vol 1 up then I realized they had vol 2 and 3 so i was sold and picked them up
i know I shouldnt have brought any more manga but it did look cool and it was cheap
we came back to Nottingham and did a few shops that adam needed which was fine
then we came home here and had a brew and saw Ozwald
We sorted out our bits and pieces as the bags were a total mess
the we scooped Oz up and took him to adam's house for an hour
I didn't get to sit with Oz last night as I came home too late
so I missed him then and I hadnt seen him much today
I wanted to spend time with him and make him have a happy day
as tomorrow will be his big operation bless him
so tonight and tomorrow morning he can have to eat anything he likes
as he needs the energy
he was well behaved at adams he kept running upstairs to adams bedroom XD
he's obsessed with MY boyfriend!! never had a rabbit to like guys before!
those two need a room sometimes
I took him home when he laid out panting
then Ive just been sorting my bits and pieces out
might have a run through my dances then shower
i am shattered tho
Tomorrow I am taking Oz for the snip at 10am
bless him i feel awful doing it and im doing it by myself too
then I might pop in some shops who knows
i do need to pick up some pumpkins~
then adam said he is coming over at lunch time after his work shift
i asked him to distract me the whole day til I can have Ozwald back
I have yoga as well in the evening
gonna be another tiring day i can see.
Here was me today id used on my eyes my new Etude House Play Eyes wine party
I had pig tails and cat ears
some 25 year old I am XD
Evening
ahhhh it's so late!!! it's 10:15pm ><
Im usually in bed for now but Ive just got back from Mia's house!
I didn't sleep wel I was up between 11:50pm til 2am
Eating cereal and drinking hot chocolate
dad woke me at 7am mum woke me at 7:25am
as I still hadn't got my tired butt outta bed XD
I had acupuncture I hated it and moaned all the way through
poor guy
Came home had the girls out and had a brew
then I worked on the black bird picture
had lunch with mum and did some cards for both Karen's
broke off for first therapy session which was a total complete waste of time
came home and finished cards and had a shower and got stuff ready for tomorrow
went over to mia's new house at 6:20pm
she had pasta and meat balls on for us
it was very nice
we had a tour of the house
i can not believe the size of the house! shes done well
and shes decorated bits but shes done a fantastic job
it already feels homely
we talked til 10pm ><
Id write more but I gotta go!
Here is the house warming stuff I made and gave to her she loved them ^^
Tomorrow I am going derby with adam ^^
looking forward to it
I want to wear make up and dress and look like a girl~
Evening~~
Something Saturday night disturbing and not totally unexpected happened
Oz humped my arm...
Now my little boy has been not himself for a week now
some evening hes been charging up to me on the sofa
grunting at me and thats sign of hormones building
but saturday night he started jumping and grunting round my arm on the sofa
then all of a sudden he tried to mount and hump my arm
so at least I know why he hasnt been himself
its because he's come into his hormones!
quite a few months late too!!!
which is surprising for rabbits as usually theyre still babies and wanting to produce their own babies!
Im a late bloomer too trust me to pick a fellow late bloomer
He's booked in for thursday for 'the snip'
So yesterday I sat and made a couple of cards in the morning
I thought afterwards I only had 2 more to do but today ive realized I forgot to add both Karen's to my list so I have 4 cards left but still im getting there :)
I txt adam to see what we were doing as the weather was chilly
he said we were gonna golf so i got ready then he said his dad didnt want to go
so i had to think of what to do, got to his house to find out his dad did want to go golfing
so we went
and it was the opening weekend for the mini golf course
but there was hardly anyone there! it was brilliant ^^
actually the course was really good it was well worth coming
and guess who won!!!! :D
wooohoooo im just awesome despite the fact my head was a total mess yesterday
we got back and i drove us straight to my house to see Oz and to allow myself to get a few bits ready for when id get back from adam's later
Oz was over joyed to see adam
we got to adams house and I fell asleep on adam on the sofa
i was shattered i really was
we then played pokemon
had dinner
played some card game i wasnt playing cus his mum played on my be half
i was so tired i hadnt got a clue what was going off
then we had a competition who could squat the longest
and i thought with all my yoga i should be able to do this
so the scores
adam's mum - 9 seconds
adam - 27 seconds
adam's dad - 1.11 seconds
ME - 1.51 seconds
'AVE IT!!!
I won that bugger
I came home and mum said I looked shattered and i was and my head was a terrible mess
adam could tell there was something troubling me but i didnt want to go into it as i felt it would have upset me and i wasnt prepared to be upset
i had a shower and took my meds
i talked to mum in the kitchen and eventually the tears fell
so we went to talk on my bed for 40mins
i felt so bad for her as shes always picking up the pieces
everyone sees the happy normal facade i put on
then i shut the door and i break and mum is there witnessing the broken side of me and picks me up and puts me together again
she said she doesnt mind and will always help me but its always tough on her
which i imagine it is as she has no one to talk to about me
i fell asleep and woke up once or twice but waking this morning i was tired
my face was puffy too
I sat doing some more of the black bird drawing and its slowly coming alone i think
I went to bed and two hours later woke up
i had sweated a lot in my sleep due to having a nightmare (during the day!) about being raped
adam arrived 5mins after i woke up
i was in pajamas and sweaty i looked a state
so i went and had a shower and like a gentlemen he waited downstairs for me
we played pokemon and at 4pm we went to a cafe
he had a burger i had hot choc
we went to his and he cuddled me on his bed
i asked him what we did for valentines day this year if we saw one another
so i said i'd check my diary
i got home and danced a lil
then checked my diary
i read about 18 days worth between jan - april 2017
i couldnt read any more it was too upsetting to read
i cant bare reading what i write here
cus all i see is the negatives and my illness and how difficult and messed up i am
tomorrow I have acupuncture at 8:30am
im gonna ask him what he worked on last week as this week i dont feel like i had any benefit from it
he massaged my shoulders which are still bruised and have ached every single day this week to the point where i end up taking my bra off. My mental health has totally sucked too this week
then at 2pm i have my new therapy
psycho dynamic therapy
mum knows someone who works there and told her who im seeing
apparently its a 61 year old lady 0.0
she will assess me then the assessment will go to a board of professionals and theyll pick someone to work with me.
just want tomorrow out the way if im honest
Evening~~
I didn't sleep that great
I didn't get off til almost midnight then
I woke up a couple of times with shoulder and back ache
I woke up at 9am then drifted off to sleep next thing I knew
the doorbell was ringing at 9:45am
My brother got the door luckily
I was glad it woke me as I knew I had to get the girls out as mum
was doing her park run
It was so windy again today
I had the girls to clean out and its not easy in the wind
saw dust flies everywhere trust me
but got the job done
originally I had said to adam yesterday i'd be over to his for 11am
at 10:50am I was still in my pajamas!
I didn't get to his til 11:40am
He had been to get us lunch which I was grateful for as I hadnt had breakfast
struggling to eat breakfast past few days
So I sat with his parents and we talked about stuff
adam came and we talked til 12:10 then had lunch and my cob was amazing ^^
I took some biscuits up and they were appreciated
I did his mum's nails, they were a leopard theme this week
and next week will be halloween nails!
We played pokemon and he gave me plenty of cuddles on his bed and he was stroking me he laughed as I was enjoying being stoked like a cat XD then at 3:30pm I left
Before I left him I told him that last night Oz was tired and lazing around on the sofa next to me and I said to mum "adam got to finish work an hour early tonight" Oz at that point got up and was dashing around almost like he was looking for adam it was a lil weird as if he recognised adam's name!
I got home and saw to Oz he had a bit of fuss on sofa with me
he looked shattered XD
Then I went to my room where I sat and made another 3 cards
Katey's xmas card
Mia's 26th Birthday
Steve's 60th Birthday
theyre slowly getting there I think
not many more to do I don't think
Then tonight I plan on dancing once again
just these dances are difficult and last night I started a halloween dance as I realised I hadn't done anything for halloween yet!
Tomorrow - weather permitted - me, adam and his parents are going to check out a new mini golf that has opened if the weather sucks then im not certain what we'll do
theyve invited me for dinner ether way
I was well happy as this week I got my new eye shadow set!!!
Etude House - Play Colour Eyes - Wine Party
I saw a Japanese girl use it on KawaiiPateen
The colours looked so pretty, Im quite into peach and orange eye shadow
I thought reds could complement these colours
I went to order some etude house eye shadows as their eye shadows are so soft and vivid they are amazing but each colour was £3.99! The Play Colour Eyes was £11.99 it was a no brainer really cus look how many colours I got!
Also I got some freebies! I got a cucumber face pack sheet and I have no clue what the other two things are I have to say!
I had ago with the eye shadow today and it was brilliant it really was
gives a very mature look
I will wear it again tomorrow ^^
Otsukaresama desu~~~
I didn't sleep well
I went to bed at 10pm
It got to about 10:30pm and I could feel a similar panic attack
coming on like the day before
but luckily I was strong enough to talk myself out of it
and distracted myself with my 3DS until I felt like sleeping
unfortunately for me I didn't feel like for quite some time
i was reading until 1:40am -_____-
I was woken at 8am by agencies
guess they didnt read yesterday's email -___-
I got up cus I wanted to go shops with mum to check for fabric
we set off about 9:20am
I had a good look round but didn't find anything I needed
so I had to make the decision whether to order stuff online or whether to do a derby trip
I haven't brought this type of fabric before so it would be helpful to see it in person
rather than on a screen
we got back and I sat in my room looking at stuff on my laptop
but got bored very quickly so I went downstairs and put my ipod in
and made cookies!!!
Theyre in the shape of bunnies, stars and hearts
I havent baked in so long probably not since march
it took me quite a while from start to finish but I was pleased with my achievement
adam asked if he could try one so im gonna take some to his house tomorrow
his parents can try them too if theyre feeling brave XD
I had lunch which was left over yesterday's pasta
it was alright actually
i sat in my room starting to make xmas cards
yes I know its only october
and it is not because I feel festive its simply because I wanted something creative
to sit and do. I managed to make a total of 4 cards all unique for who they are destined to go to.
I don't enjoy christmas stuff but I did enjoy making the cards I think I am improving
so far I've made
my cousin sarah
mia & rob
Tara's
adam's parents
I will photograph them tomorrow :)
I believe I will make cards for
Adam, Ed, parents (but they usually have a photo for their card), Katey in america, Lynn & Den
so not got many more to do
me and mum went for a walk in the afternoon
my shoulder still hurt a lot
so i didnt walk far and its day 2 of not wearing a bra XD
Sat with Oz a few times today just cus I like giving him attention
Stuff came in the post today which I had ordered
I brought mum for xmas a guinea pig coloring book its an adult one dont worry!
I got my new eye shadow set and it came with free samples and a face pack sheet!
I can not wait tomorrow to have ago with the eye shadow :D
Going to do some dancing tonight as I didn't get a lot done last night
Tomorrow I am going over to adam's around 11ish
we'll have lunch together and then after that who knows!
