Didnt sleep too badly
woke up at midnight for a massive wee then fell asleep after half hour or so
then woke up at 6am and been awake since as my god did I need to get up 6am
felt crippled, so I sat down stairs with my kindle and cereal
Took me ages to get going this morning
I was so stiff and tired for some reason
and it was hard to find the motivation to get going
but at 9:30am I grabbed my ipod and went for over an hours walk!
i was so slow at first but got going after half hour
it was chilly this morning and i hoped the walk would get me awake and motivated
id gone out the house without brushing my hair
cus sod it the hat and scarf cover it any how
i came home and put pigs out and went for a shower
when i came out i looked for jobs but couldnt find much
there was one for a cafe you had to take a CV physically into like the good old days
then another school one online
so i sat and did the online form took ages as they usually do
i had my hot chocolate for lunch and sat watching an episode of anime
then at 2pm me and mum went food shopping
i dropped my CV in too
got home had a drink and went to psychology
which i feel was a waste of time
he doesnt think i need medicating as he thinks i just need to accept myself more and stop being so hard on myself. also he looked at my notes from over the year from when i was on anti-depressants and to be honest things werent that much better when i was on them! and he was kinda hinting that it would be better to stay away from medication if i can
i came back and had dinner
which only gave me stomach acid i didnt get too much pain thank god
i did some drawing after dinner
drawing a christmas card for my hair dresser as i usually do her a card and realised i forgot to do her one and im seeing her on saturday!
mia rang me up to announce that helina is pregnant so we talked about that
i dont see helina anymore but still
i made this for rob to give to his secret santa
he'd requested id make it and gave a fiver for doing it
think it looks ok
tomorrow i have got work at a school 10mins away just for the morning
yay morning only work!!
its in year 3 so a decent age
but last time i was in that class i got lumbered with the special needs kids and i told agency this but they seem to think its down for being just classroom assistant not one to one
but theyve been wrong 100 times before so im not holding my breath
im there thursday also
i should be seeing tara in the evening tomorrow
but we will see
not seen her since september would you believe
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