Didn't sleep well
it was gone 10pm when I slept to be woken up at midnight to the sound of my brother's car thumping his music whilst pulling up home -_____- wasnt impressed
but somehow fell back to sleep
to be woken at 1am as I was having a nightmare
being raped by a shadow...
this is the 3rd night in a row now that ive had to wake up cus a dream is taking a turn for the worst dont know why im having nightmares
at 2:30am i got fed up of aching in my bed so got up had some cereal, painkillers, and did 30 mins of yoga downstairs then came to bed around 3:30 but took a while to get off to sleep
woke up at 7:40am
tired
i had an easy morning of drawing and pets really
by 11am i had showered and was off out into a town by myself naturally
i walked round a few shops all i got was a tissue box for tara's eevee tissue box cover for her christmas present so i could wrap it, then a new car smelly for my car
i dropped my bag off at the car and went for a walk
came home 100mins later XD
i warmed my lunch up which was left over lamb stew
i had a pear and a hot chocolate and thats been the biggest lunch ive had all week!
i was full up
i got stomach ache of course i did
when it subsided i went on just dance for a while and i got 5 stars on 2 dances! ive only ever done it on 1 song before but today i got 2 more done i was surprised and i wasnt actually trying my hardest as i was done in from walking round for 100mins
after just dance i grabbed my wrapping paper, scissors and sellotape and presents and got to work
yeah its maybe a bit early to wrap but i was kinda in the mood to just get it done and didnt know what else to do with my day really
so i got everyone's wrapped! good feeling knowing its all sorted took a few hours anyway
here's part of mia's birthday present which is on boxing day so i wrapped that too
shes always wanted sakura from cardcaptors as a figure, wasnt cheap but hope it brings her happiness anyway
i did some yoga as i was aching then i laid in the sofa whilst dinner was cooking shutting my eyes
im so damn tired i really am
wish i could sleep
and wish my pain would just calm down
dinner i didnt eat much and still got stomach ache
mum says i aught to get looked at but ive been here before with my stomach
and no one can do anything so theres no point really in even wasting my time sitting in a doctors waiting room for hours on end
im anxious about tomorrow
my first full day at work since i quit my job
im hoping i will cope
im going to bed early in the hope i will grab some sleep
its at the same school and class as friday
i text karen to see if she had been well enough to put her decorations up this weekend
she told me and mum on wednesday when we bumped into her at a garden centre that she was putting them up this weekend before her next chemo session
but she replied saying her 22 year old daughter with anorexia was admitted to hospital on friday so they didnt put them up. her daughter is now in the 5 stone boundary can you believe 0.0
mental health is scary
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