Konbanwa~~
i finished Kyoukai no Kanata
it was alright but the last 2 episodes were weird i have to say and hard to follow
So yesterday I went into work
julia and jack were there
i mainly sat by myself in an air conditioned room
it was soooooo cold my skin was freezing
jack was like "you can turn it off you know"
i said "i know cus i was the one who turned it on"
just wanted to feel cold at work for a change
i got a fair amount done as i was by myself listening to my ipod
i saw luke he was in too i told him id probably feel anxious n my first day back
he said "it will be chill we'll get through it"
monday doesnt look too bad as its a slightly shorter day, no students and free lunch
me and jack went to his family's house where we fed the bunnies and cat
it was good to see his pets theyre so damn cute those bunnies
and the cat took a treat from my hand i felt her sand paper tongue
from there we went to his house
we had pizza and stuff and went for a walk
and.....we got my laptop!!
yup i picked it up and prayed everything was alright with it
this morning was hard to motivate jack out of bed
that guy sleeps like the dead
i for one couldnt stay there any longer so i left him and came back later
my hips killed from sleeping in that bed
id also had disturbing dreams to say the least
i stabbed a rat with a pen i felt it pierce its squishy warm body
i also dreamed another dream of finding a dead body
it had been in water so it was bloated, the eyes had been removed and sockets sewn up crudely, it had bites marks on its body and the mouth had been melted to blend in with its face
disturbing
god knows where i get this stuff from as i dont view or read anything horror related
i woke jack up 40mins later he asked for 5 more mins but i was like
"jack i gave you 40 more minutes"
he was like "oh sorry, really? ill get up" and eventually he did
i was so knackered this morning tho
and he said it was like id withdrawn from life
without knowing i was curled up on his bed cuddling his snorlax plush staring into space
i do it at home but i guess its not a normal scene for him
he'll get used to it
i left his after lunch
we couldnt go out til he'd had a delivery
so i was a lil bored and i wanted my own space if im honest
i just needed alone time
so i came home to an empty house
and i went to bed i was dead
i got up and spoke with my brother
we opened my laptop packaging together
its soooo nice and new looking
my current one looks well old XD its like double the thickness of the new one
i then sat with oz outside with a brew and went for a walk
had a shower and made food
been drawing since then
my brother has taken my laptop into his room to sort it out
no point in me doing it
i havent even seen it on yet XD
got loads of time to go on it really
tonight i plan on taking a sleeping tablet
need to get into sleeping
tomorrow think im meeting up with jack and his friends
here is a face acid i got from korea
it has great reviews for having the max allowance of acid korea will sell in a skin product
it says to use once a week and to moisturise afterwards
my god
it has stripped my skin off
its strong stuff and my face is sore!!! i will be careful in using it in the future
i did moisturise but this was days ago and its still sore and flaking!
Evening~~
Once again didnt sleep all that great
I did some dancing this morning
but my god hayfever has been bad today so i was literally wheezing so I stopped
then had a shower and got ready to meet jack
mum's foot was swollen and bruised today
i felt bad for leaving her but she told me not to stay in just for her
i met jack and we walked round the shops a bit
i picked up a really cut silver lizard earring for when my ears are ready
for a change of earring, theyre small and thin so should look good on the end lobe piercing
i got a new mascara and that was it
we went for food at a noodle place it was good actually and we got so much in such a small box we did fortune cookies too
jack's said "dont hold back and make that big step"
mine was "meeting up with old friends leads to new adventures"
i said "ive been trying to see my friends for weeks!!"
jack said "hmm maybe its saying i should propose to you, what do you think?"
i said "thats suicide thats what i think, its a life sentence jack, think about that"
we went back to his flat
and we used his tarot cards for a reading
i got a really positive reading
my question was "can i hack this academic year?"
my reading said how i have a lot to learn but its all in my favours and will go well~
i said to theo "you ask the cards a question"
he said "im not sure what to ask really, i cant think of anything appropriate"
i said "what do you mean appropriate?"
he said "come on Jo where do you think my mind wanders?"
i said "oh come on theo just ask it"
he said "will i have a three-some by the end of the year?"
i burst out laughing
guys are so gross but funny XD
i left jack's at 3:30pm as he already had plans to play D&D tonight
such a nerd
i didnt mind as i got to go back to see if mum was alright
i spoke to the doctor today
hes reduced my pain killers and said its best if i can get off them all together as they have long term effects. thats two medications ive taken for 8+ years that have long term effects
never told that when you first go on them
so im even more determined to be rid of them
but it has to be done slowly he said
yeah yeah i know >.>
i got home and sat with Oz and mum
my brother phoned from work and said he'd look at laptops with me in the evening
so that was nice of him
and thats what we did when he came in
i showed him the one i liked that was like £750 down from £999
he said it was good and would certainly do me
so i sorted out the money and i ordered it
luckily jack lives a 2min walk from the store so i can pick it up after 5pm tomorrow~~
ive actually ordered a laptop
ive actually spent that much money
sickening
but theo said he'd ordered a new laptop last night and hes paid of £1200 so i kinda wondered what i was worrying over especially as he said his old one cost £850 and is 8 years old
mine is 9 years old and i paid £450
i guess im just not used to spending money
my brother said to me "jo you spend like three quid on clothes, i spent £8 at mcdonalds the other day, treat yourself, youve earned it and it will feel so much nicer when youre on it"
i know hes right
should be good
hes prepared to put the time in and put the software on that i want ^^
what would i do without him at times
i made tara a birthday card
as i might see her soon and id like to make sure she has her birthday present
tomorrow
i am going to the doctors at 8:30am to pick up a prescription for pain killers
then im going straight to work
where i shall spend a lot of my day there -____-
me jack and julia are going in to just get bits ready really for monday
then im going to jack's family's house to feed the bunnies - the bunnies are cute
then were going to his and gonna get my laptop then were having pizza and watching an anime film together, its just us two as theo is going home so it should be nice and room on the sofa ^^
not sure what i will do saturday i know i will come home at some point
i drew this for jack the other night as a surprise
only took an hour or so
he thought it was really good :3
soon i will be blogging on my new laptop!
tempted to go for a walk tonight
might take a sleeping tablet too
get me into the rhythm of sleeping again before school
Konbanwa~~
Didnt sleep great
couldnt get off and then at 12:30 i felt quite sick
so got up for a hot chocolate
then I woke up at 3:30 for a bit
then I woke up at 6am feeling like id been ran over so i had to get up
so i started my day at 6am! i shouldnt be starting at that ungodly hour
til monday damn it!!
I did half hour of yoga to help matters
watched an episode of anime
This morning I did a bit of dancing
I was gonna go back to bed once id dosed myself up on pain killers
but I had to take mummy to the hospital to have an injection in her foot
she said the needle was 3" long 0.0
she asked me if i wanted to go in the room with her but knowing she was having a needle
and that she was tense as it was i said id wait in the waiting room
knowing me id pass out -___- and i want prepared to add to her stress levels
she came out pretty well
but since she's come home she literally cant put any weight on it
so shes like hopping/limping
so i have been mums legs today
i have only let her get up for use of the toilet
everything else i have done for her
so i have been on pig duty~~
i finished a drawing i did for jack as a lil surprise for him
i cleaned my bedroom - something i wanted to do just before i went back to school
i took some more pretty photos
more normal this time round huh
strange how sometimes i cant bare to look at myself and sometimes its just bearable
its been cooler today thank god
and even rained :/
i cooked dinner we had pasta
it was nothing amazing but mum was grateful of it
not sure what i will do tonight
might draw, watch anime or walk
i did want to walk but it keeps raining!
i got my face acid in the post so i might have a go with that tonight 0.0
tomorrow think im seeing jack
Yo~ho~
I actually slept pretty well last night
i came to bed and realised just how stifling the upstairs was...
i came downstairs and asked if i could have the fan from the kitchen
oh my god what a difference 0.0
i never have a fan usually as i worry the noise will keep me awake
god it saved my butt last night
i dont think i could have slept without it
i tried to dance this morning but god it was hot
i was starting to feel unwell so i stopped after 20 mins
i was dripping
truly grateful for a shower
i didnt much for a while it was just too hot to be honest
but i think after today its cooling down again
pets are hot we put the fan on them too cool them down
i did a bit of photography today
just messing around really but its something i was in the mood to do
so here we have my creation XD
look gothic
and look nothing like how i usually do huh
tomorrow i have to take my mum to go have an injection in her foot
she wont be able to walk on her foot all day
so i am being mother tomorrow
but all shes making me do is get her drinks and make the dinner
so not a hard ask really
i think im gonna clean my room and make tara a birthday card
thats two jobs id like to do tomorrow
i may even play with photos again :3
Evening
its sooooo hot
like stupidly hot
yesterday was too hot for everyone involved i think XD
today tho was quite nice
i hadnt fallen asleep until 3am and got up at 8am so i was quite tired
but me and jack were gonna go out today so i was determined to see the day through
we were off to sherwood pines which is basically a stones throw from sherwood forest
minus all the robin hood rubbish
so i picked him up at 10am and we got there just before 11am
we went for an hours walk around the forest which was nice
then we grabbed the picnic blanket and our food and sat under some trees
eating lunch
we lazed around too i was about falling asleep i was so tired
then he had an ice cream and i had a tea
we came back to my house i wanted to check on Oz
as he had upset tummy this morning but i think its due to the heat to be honest
but he seemed fine
then jack looked at my laptop basically what spec it is
and we went to his house and walked to the shops
i had a look at laptops but didnt see anything really
my laptop is getting on a bit but i'll be sad to part with it
but i know its something that looms on the horizon - a new laptop
i dont want mine to die and be left with nothing
i got home and had dinner and a much much needed shower
then read manga outside in the garden
to say i walked in woods and wore SP 50+ i have caught the sun a bit ><
my skin tans so damn easily
i dont burn i just tan some would be envious of this trait
but ive gotten used to being white and pale looking XD
then i had a brief look online at laptops
but if im honest
i need help -____- im out my depth
i sent a few i liked to jack and hes taking a look
cus quite frankly it all means sod all to me
tomorrow not sure how i will spend the day yet
think its suppose to be warm again
this is my last week off work as well!! D:
god i best sleep tonight
but its sooo hot in my bedroom its not looking good
and im in pain >.>
but in a months time i could be off pain killers
Yo~~
I woke up at 2:30am feeling like I was gonna be sick
so I had to get up
and I couldnt get back off to sleep >.>
so i was tired and late getting up this morning
I did 20mins of dancing but I was panting and dripping
just far too hot today!!
so I went for a much needed shower
i havent done a lot today if im honest
ive watched some anime, read some manga
took photos of my steampunk hoodie
yup its done
i guess its alright considering it started life as a blanket
just gonna get ready to go out
gonna wear a dress
as its hot!
Evening
I hardly slept last night at jack's
like seriously no sleep
i was knackered when i got this morning
and man did i have to get up
i killed!!! i ached so badly
so i left jack in bed for another hour and listened to my ipod
upstairs eating candy XD
i came and woke him up after an hour tho cus i was bored
it took ages to motivate jack -___-
honestly that guy does not do mornings
it was warm as well and yeah dont think it helped matters
but we got showered and dressed eventually
i didnt suggested golfing to him as frankly i couldnt be arsed to drive in
the heat and be stood outside with no shade playing mini golf
so we went round the city instead
i got some cream to try and sooth my skin
ive been scratching my skin to death lately
and i have noticed its since i upped the pain killers
so im trying to reverse the damage
jack kept stopping me from scratching
i dont even realise im doing it!
its like a stress thing to
i do it when im in pain or anxious or even in my sleep
i also picked up and antique hand fan! oh my god its soooo fluid
its really ugly but really good and makes the proper sound too
amazing value at £4
i will be using it for dancing
we went back to his flat
and i asked him to show me the game he is always on about
and always always playing
elder scrolls online? i think
it was good to finally see what he was going on about anyway
but no way could i sit and play that
not my thing at all
i came home for dinner and to see Ozwald
i did some drawing of senko-san
not getting anywhere with it ><
jack was creeped out my psychotic kitty picture
said it would give him nightmares XD
it was such a lovely sight to come home and see in my subscription box
that monogatari had released a song i like 'for me' so im well happy to be
listening to that
wonder if i will be learning it soon~
i ache so much
but i am wheening myself of my pain killers
probably too fast but im not telling anyone how fast im ditching them
as i know its wrong but i just want it over with
i will suffer from withdrawal ether way so might as well just get rid
see how i go
tomorrow im at home all day til the evening
going out with the lads which hopefully should be good
Evening
Could not sleeppppp
so annoying when I just can't sleep
the night goes on and on
but here is the picture I spent an hour drawing before bed
psychotic kitty isnt it
cant believe how sodding long it took me
this morning i did some dancing
i managed half hour but i had had enough to be honest
so i went and hit the shower
then i did some sewing really
been sewing a lot today
i did fall asleep cus id had enough of life really
needed a break for it all
i did how ever eventually get the hoodie finished
it gave me the run around a bit as the neck line was tricky but i got there
i will photograph it in better light
yoga was good
did some work on the butt which is gonna hurt tomorrow i think
but good to go anyway
going to jack's tonight
i never sleep well on a yoga night so i figured whilst im off school
i will go stay over after yoga
as i dont wanna stay over friday night as theo has his woman over
and im not listening to their sex noises all night
hopefully me and jack can actually do something during the day tomorrow
maybe the final round of mini golf...
Yo~
Didnt sleep too bad
didnt have to get up or anything at least
I danced for 40 mins this morning
my god i was just dripping and i got fed up of mopping sweat from my face
also i was exhausted so i called it a day with dancing
it was good tho
i think after my shower i fell asleep
just feel so god damn tired last two days
very annoying
i got up and had lunch
then i got my sewing stuff out
did a fair bit of sewing today
the bodice is together
all thats left to do
sew sleeves on
make hood
sew hood on
sew little cogs on
done~~
so not much at all and could probably get it done tomorrow
i went out for a walk with mum and had a brew in a cafe
came back and sewed
and read a manga
as i had done a walk today i didnt feel the need to go for another one tonight
so instead i sat drawing a cat a psychotic cat with a pen
took a sodding hour i had no idea it would take me that long
tomorrow
i plan to dance in the morning then sew really
i have yoga in the evening~
Evening~~~
Yesterday I went to work
did 4 hours
it went ok, I got the displays done in the prep room so its all fresh for september
jack was with me and it didnt feel too bad working
afterwards we went to pain clinic
my god i did not want to be there
my usual therapist called me through and she was with a nurse
i talked about how things were and stuff
and both she and the nurse recommended i ditch my pain tablets
i have exhausted all avenues of medication basically
and they dont want me back on morphine at my age
so they said to cut it out as its obviously doing more harm than good
i went into panic as they were taking away something ive had for 9 years
that 1/3 of my life ive spent taking some sort of pain relief
and they were not going to replace it with anything....
so we talked about weening me off it and stuff as its got to be done gradually
i want to be off my medication but i always figured it would be done
under my terms and when i felt ready, not someone taking it from me
so yeah i have that to go through
also when i go back to work i am not allowed to sleep when i come home....
that is gonna be hard
life is gonna suck so badly
im gonna be at work, tired and in withdrawal
my god how will i get through it
as a way of saying thank you for coming with me
i gave or sent jack a photo of me, hes wanted to see pictures of my past for ages now
so i sent him this one
cus its me with short hair
i got him and theo to guess my age they both joked saying "it was taken last week right?"
i was like "im 18 there!!"
they were like "jo you dont seem to age"
vampire~~
we went back to jack's after that
and theo was there
we all went food shopping
we got pick and mix ^^
in the evening me and jack made a monster of a dinner
it was loaf tin inside was layered bacon, mashed sweet potato, baked beans, cheese
jesus it was good
i didnt sleep that good jack's bed isnt comfortable really
then today pretty much done bugger all
i had a bath, a very hot bath i was a bit pink afterwards and could strongly feel my pulse afterwards so i sat down then i got changed and went to bed
i came home and didnt do a lot i was just tired and drained today
i went for a walk in the evening tho
tomorrow i plan to sew my jacket
i want to work on it
but in the morning i have the house to myself so i plan to dance!
looking forward to it actually
i might start another dance maybe
Evening
I was up til 3 -_____-
could not sleep at all
i had music on and everything
and yeah just sucked
so I got up late
this morning I sat with millie on my knee she was so soft
then i had molly also on my knee
Oz on the sofa with me
he came and licked molly's ear
he loves the guineas
I cut out the jacket on the kitchen floor
makes such a mess cutting up blanket so i have to hoover afterwards
but its done now
i spent a while working on the jacket
i got the sleeves done
and the back i stitched on some clock hands
its looking good
ive got to work on the front panels next then i can begin to sew it up~~
i did 45 mins of dancing and got Monogatari's re:born finished
just need to practice it a fair bit to improve it
i was sweaty afterwards
i think fell asleep today at some point too
in the evening i went for a walk in the woods
ive been doing it now whenever its not raining and not at jacks
think jack wants me to stay over tomorrow but i will see
basically we're both going to school tomorrow from 10:30 - 2:30
at 2:50 I have an appointment not far from school
and its pain clinic
most depressing thing ever
he's on about coming with me but ive told its not necessary and that im fine by myself
and that i wont put him through something so dull
so if i do sleep at his tomorrow it means him coming to my appointment and im
not 100% sure how i feel about that really
but yeah i will see anyway
Evening
Yesterday marked the milestone that me and jack have made it to 6 months
6 months without killing one another!
i hope he sticks around for another 6 month ><
I stayed over at jack's last night
I went over to see him around 3pm
we went to his mum's house for his sister's birthday
we were there til like 8pm when jack decided to fetch my shoes
as his younger sister was getting out family photo albums XD
ahhh ive seen cute little pictures of jack
i like seeing people my age younger as you can tell a 90's child
i like see what toys and clothes they had as i usually had the same XD
so yeah to say he was keen to leave was an understatement
and he now wants to see photos of me as a kid or any photos for that matter
he has seen nothing of my past and i plan on keeping it that way!
we picked up food on the way back and had that when we got to his place
to find theo james and brandon there ready to start the night out
as it was a rainy day we opted out of the suit and dress code thing
later harvey joined us and we played some random german card game of brandons
i didnt find it enjoyable but then i dont enjoy board or card games
we went out and jack brought me a non-alcoholic drink
theo saw me drinking it and took it off me thinking it was alcohol XD
think everyone is a bit scarred from me that night
we had a drink in a bar then headed for a club....
i have never been to a club before and nor do i want to repeat such experiences
it was awful like just awful
so loud and full of people
i coped at first
but after midnight i just couldnt hold it together any longer
i felt mental to say the least
any longer in that place and i think i would have changed as i couldnt hack anymore
jack took me outside for air but it didnt help so we went home
i felt so bad and stupid taking him away from it all even tho i never actually asked to go home
and i said i could go by myself but he said he hates clubs anyhow
on the way home my head was a total mess
i had had enough
every little sound i was alert to and yeah i just wanted to change and not feel or think
jack made me look at him and told me i could do it and get home as myself
and i did
we pretty much went to bed after we got home
i was shattered
in the morning as usual it takes some time to motivate jack
but good job i did as we had to go meet his dad and his family
we met up and went to a chinese
im not particularly fond of chinese but managed a bit to eat
it was his dad, step mum, 17 year old step sister and 8 year old half brother
half brother didnt have an issue with and his step sister was kinda ok
his dad was nice actually
but im guessing his step mum didnt like me as she never once spoke to me
and when i looked at her she looked away
ive shown my face now and proved to his dad that jack is not gay
and i pretty much am not in a rush to spend time with them again
definitely prefer his mum's side which he does too
we came away and i went home
id had enough of noise, people.
i just needed time alone
in the end i went to sleep
id had enough
i pleased ozwald before i went to sleep bless him he was happy to see me
mum has bathed the pigs so theyre soft too
cus my god they stunk like farm yard pigs
i got up and went for a walk
then had a shower and dinner now here doing diary
im gonna sit with oz and go to bed
not sure how i will sleep
i have come to conclusion that upping my pain relief has not helped and that i need to reduce it back to how it was as its messing with my antidepressant far too much
im going pain clinic on monday so i will see what they say
tomorrow id like to start the jacket as i pretty much have all i need :3
Evening~~~~~~~
Didnt sleep too bad
I went straight to bed with the tablet on really
and found it helped I didnt need to get up during the night
In the morning I spoke to mum and basically got off the hook
with going to the hospital as we both think it will be a waste of time
so i rang the hospital and cancelled that
i rang the doctors to see if/when id be due a tetanus booster
turns out ive had 5 during my life time!! i couldnt believe id had that many
3 as a baby, 1 as toddler and 1 at age 15
so the lady said i was covered for life
no injection for me :3
i did some dancing
i didnt get as far as i wanted as it was hard to see the dance at parts
so it takes far longer to work out the moves and how they flow
i need much more practice too
i went for a shower and was at work for 11am
i did some tidying up and some other bits
then i sat and painted
no one was around at all so it was so peaceful just listening to my ipod and painting
i got a fair bit done too
i came home and had lunch this was 3pm
then i went to bed as i just wanted to
i went for a walk after dinner
and that was my day really
tomorrow
i was meeting jack's dad for the first time but its been cancelled
so that is one less thing to do tomorrow which is rather handy
as we have his younger sister's birthday meal
then im dressing up in my black dress for a night out
so should be a nice day and im looking forward to seeing jack too
dont know what time we are meeting up
im gonna dance hopefully in the morning
might do my nails tonight too
Evening~~
I didn't sleep great
It took ages to get off then I woke up at 4am taking the
tablet to bed with me and fell asleep listening to a concert
i woke up at 9:30 -____- far too late for my liking
I had breakfast and wanted to dance or to go to work
as it was pouring it down but mum wanted to go out
not that we needed anything
I did manage to get the blanket fabric im gonna use to make this jacket
i went for a light bluey/grey
I got home and had some lunch and went to bed
id had enough of feeling like crap
I got up and attempted a bit of dancing
then showered and sat with Oz with a brew
I got a phone call from the hospital i ended up in a couple of weeks ago
they said i could come to the neurology department tomorrow to get checked out
on what happened to me
i cant be arsed but i know if anything else happens it looks bad on my part that
i didnt get the help offered
so im going hospital tomorrow at 1:30pm
jack offered to come and the hospital did say that the witness would be great as they can tell us exactly what went off but i said he'd already given me an account of what happened
i dont need him involved as he has a friend from sweden staying over at his
and his friend hasnt come all this way for me to steal jack from him
it isnt fair
so i will go alone
i dont want to go tho
speaking of jack's friend, my god he and the rest of the guild they play with must think highly of jack as they pitched together and got a computer complete with monitor and keyboard shipped over to jack! and a pair of pink cat ear head phones! my god some money worth and like christmas to jack it truly is. so that was really nice of them. to say he has never met them before
i have been designing my hoodie
and ive gone for a different approach this time
i have gone for a steam punk kinda look
so ive been ordering cogs and stuff online which has been different
im ready to make it i just need the stuff to come in the post
i did some painting as well
just stuff to pass the time
it is 8pm and just stopped raining
it actually hasnt stopped raining allllll day
so im tempted to get out for a walk for some fresh air
tomorrow i was gonna go into work as i didnt go today
but this hospital appointment has now taken the day from me
so im gonna dance hard in the morning then set off for the city centre and go do that deed
so not looking forward to that i do have to say
and im sure i am fine anyway
i have no idea what is involved tomorrow
just got to bring a list of my medication
wish me luck
Evening~~~
Yesterday I did quite a bit really
I did a whole hour of dancing
learning a dance I have wanted to learn for like a whole year!
Monogatari's Re:born
i showered and had some more cereal then jack was texting me
hes been missing me and wanted to see me so I thought id make the effort
and go see him
we actually went on something that resembled a date XD
we havent done anything much together for a while really
so we went mini golf and i lost but still fun
then we went for ice cream
oh my god mine was good but made me cold and i felt sick after it XD
we brought pick n mix as well
i havent done pick n mix for probably over 15 years
but jack is a pro at it XD so he let me pick the majority of it as he aint picky
whereas im not a fan of sweets, i will eat chocolates but not sweets
i was gonna go home and he asked if i would stay over
he had missed me and said it would be friday til i could see him again
so i agreed
he came home with me to pick up my stuff and we went for a walk in the woods near me
then we called in a shop and picked up soup and bread and ate that when we got in
whilst listening to theo as he told us grim sex stories XD
theo showed me photos of them all from friday night in their black tie gear
they all looked really good actually
then said on this friday that theyre going out into the city at night for drinks whilst dressed in black tie and if i wanted to come, but i have to wear a dress
jack has never seen me in a dress and i would have to ether wear a long dress or cocktail
i was falling asleep on the sofa at around 11pm
so tired
so we went to bed but i didnt sleep great and woke up with crippling back ache
literally reaching out for pain killers
i was at jacks til midday we hadnt done anything
he takes a while to motivate out of bed
i came home to an empty house and did a bit of dancing
i felt better for moving but i still ached
then i went for a much needed shower
i went tk maxx with mum
i didnt need anything but found a skirt reduced to £1.70 they cost more from a charity shop!
then i looked at dresses, i mean i do have a long one i could wear for friday with the guys but i kinda just thought id see what was in the clearance
and i did come across a dress, not my usual style i have to say
as it shows more skin than im used to but its hardly indecent im just not used to showing any skin
so i took it in the changing room with mum and got her opinion and she said how amazing and fitted it looked on me, i on the other hand felt like a duck out of water
as i know this sounds weird coming from a 27 year old female, but it was a woman's outfit, and i dont wear womanly clothes so i felt like an impostor, like i shouldnt be wearing that kinda thing
but mum assured me i looked good in it
its a black off the shoulder dress and was suppose to be $119 i got it for £7
its amazing quality i have to say as its lined in silk
it is a nice dress im just gonna feel so weird wearing it
i dont wear dresses often and certainly not a womanly dress
but yeah good find and buy, its size 6 i didnt know i could still fit in size 6 :/
i came home and sat with Oz and a brew
who has apparently been sulking since i left yesterday
honestly
like torn between him and jack
then i went to bed
ive been in pain all day and id had enough quite frankly
i tried to do some design work when i got up
but im still not 100% certain i want to make a jacket yet
or what i would make it out of
so not sure what to do on that one
tomorrow
its suppose to rain like allllll day
a part of me is tempted to go into work for a bit
but mum has the day off and i dont know if she will want to spend any time together
everyone wants jo's company ><
i will see tho
id like to do some dancing if i can tho
i did some drawing of senko-san yesterday
finally done the bloody outline
took ages and its suppose to be chibi but its slowly got more and more detailed -___-
