already corona cases rising

 Konbanwa

I can't believe it's only tuesday T^T

Last night was my first work night at home

I struggled to sleep I felt very restless and a bit anxious

I woke up at 1am for a wee and felt sick with anxiety but eventually got off to sleep once again

but woke up at 4am and kept waking up loads, a part of me didnt trust my alarm to go off for what ever reason, even tho its never failed me before. I got up at 6am, I was amazed how much of my routine came back naturally to me to say I havent done it since March. It's harder being alone tho compared to having Jack with me. its just lonely cus no one else is awake. Its made better by having breakfast with my Oz.

I got to work a few mins early and saw Jack coming in so waited for him

he said "mornings arent as good without you...I havent even had coffee! I got up later than i wanted to"

this is what happens when I am not with him, he lays in AND faffs then ends up running around. Whereas I boot him out of bed and keep bringing him back on task and motivating him when he starts faffing. Honestly what he would do with out me. I get everything ready in the morning - breakfast, drinks, the lunch, and stuff to take into work >.>

Work was so tiring i cant tell you how tiring it is

we are all saying the same thing tho, all staff are tired

and through the grape vine we found out that parents of sibling children have got corona virus - that was day 1. And schools in this county have already been closed too. Its just crazy.

so we give it til the end of the week til we have more cases

we were told today by the head teacher's PA  that

"we are following government guidelines. Children are allowed into school whilst their corona test is happening, once the result is positive they will self isolate and we will inform the health board and ask what action needs to be taken, like if a year group needs to stay off or close the school"

so jack said to her "so you want the children in who could possibly have corona to be in school. But to self isolate once they are confirmed to have the virus, by which point its too late for the rest of the school?"

she said "thats what the government are advising as anyone of us could have corona now and not know it anyway"

yeah does very much feel like we are delaying the inevitable here to be honest

i get kids have got to be in school and life has to continue but yeah its not gonna work. kids arent even wearing masks. we are advised to wear them but that doesnt actually protect us from the children and they out number us staff quite a lot. we shall see

i left a few mins early as it was hurting me to walk and i turned up early any how

i had walked a lot and stood a lot so my joint hurt

as soon as i got home i applied heat packs to my knee joints and sat with my legs on the sofa with Oz and a brew, then me and mum did a slow walk. It was so warm out, if it was cold out i dont think i would have bothered. then i did 20mins of yoga, had a shower and now i am packing my bags as i am staying over at jack's tomorrow straight after school, so that breaks the week up :)

i shall be back thursday, just hope i get some actual sleep tonight 0.0