giving up with squirtle

 Evening

I took sleeping tablets last night, 2 years outta date but meh i was getting desperate

they still worked!

I woke up for a wee at 1am and was all over the place! it was like being drunk!

almost took out the toilet door XD

got back to bed the next thing i knew it was 9am....and what a deep sleep i had had

mum said she came into my room at 8am to see if i was still asleep and of course i was and didnt even stir to her being in my room whereas usually she cant even get in my room without me waking - i always sleep with my door open but am such a light sleeper

so yeah I felt pretty good this morning, bit groggy from the sleeping tablets and my taste has been off all day which why i hate taking them as everything tastes rank

This morning me and mum drove to a village 10mins away if that and when for a walk round the river and things it was a bit breezy but nice to get out. we were about 50mins walking, but its mums slower pace, which i dont mind. Then got back and warmed up with a brew then I did 45mins of yoga as plenty of things needed to crack then had a shower

Jack had his driving lesson and his teacher told him he needed to book his test soon, cus its a long waiting list - thanks to the covid back log - so hes looking at end of december 

he rang me and said hes gonna book it tonight - i will be SHOCKED if he does actually book it

he takes a while to work up to these things

after lunch i decided to go to bed, not cus i was tired, but just because i couldnt bare to spend a long rainy saturday indoors by myself in pain. i needed escapism and to kill some time. good tho as i was sooooo warm. then i got up and sat with Ozwald who went to sleep XD all having a lazy saturday

I brought a few more christmas presents online as more ideas come to mind and i have very nearly done actually, which im glad about. i will leave dad's til december. 

i have finished mia, tara, my brother, jack i have the cushion to make and mum i might get her something extra.

i did try and do a bit more of squirtle but im not liking him, charmander isnt even that good so i might just leave it with bulbasaur and doa background just for him instead of a picture with all 3 as they just look naff really, well i think they do. so i havent done anymore art really

i havent really done anything today

i did do 20mins of dance learning and got the dance finished finally, it wasnt too hard, not as hard as i thought it was gonna be anyway

tonight i plan on taking another sleeping tablet as i want to and why not

tomorrow i have zero plans but i might have to go do something before i kill someone

cabin fever and just having a crap time of it all. i know life could be worse but it could also be better too