Deathy morning

 Konbanwa~~~

After our walk I did 15mins of weights and went for a bath, after I asked Jack to come off his game early we watched fruits basket and went to bed

I woke up for a wee in the night which annoyed me. But then I had a good dream about being a vampire.

We got ready for school and all was well in the world, we even got up 10mins earlier as I keep making us late due to stomach issues. However my stomach thought I was trying to get away with it al and went nuclear on me. Literally died on the toilet. I felt sick, it hurt and it would not stop....

I felt so utterly drained after it all. Its not fair. After all that all I want to do is crawl into a ball and lay on my bed until the pain goes. But no I have to dash out the house with a painful stomach and then the journey in the car makes me feel sick cus my stomach is unsettled. My life SUCKS

We got to school and Jack heated my hot bag and I lay on the floor in a ball until the pain subsided.

When I could I got up to do my jobs and I walked in head of science's room he asked if I was ok

I automatically responded with "yeah im fine"

he said "really?"

I said "yeah"

he shut the door and said "youre not your usual bubbly self, whats up"

where do you start?

I know he genially cares and isnt just asking cus he feels he has to. He mentioned about the meal and I said I couldnt eat out right now im too anxious and that I have been struggling with food lately but I was going doctors soon. He asked if anything can be done at school for me. Everything is good at school honestly. He said to take breaks and if I need to go a walk to chill out then thats fine. And maybe ideas on what to do next time if eating out wasnt my thing.

All morning people were asking me "you ok?" so i said to jack "do I look like death or something?" he said "yeah...you look quite deathy" chris saw us and said "you two alright today??" looked at me "youre obviously not" >.> guess I must have looked like death.

I continued my day finding it hard til about 2pm as I would have had some food in me by this point

but I did my bacteria and such. and cleaning up and other practical prepping, I went to the shops for stuff for my practicals too. it was nice to go out in the sun :)

I txted mum asking if she wanted to come over for a brew and so she bought Ozwald over and we had a brew with her. Oz was snoring on the floor X3

I did dinner which was so damn good as I marinated the meat at 9:30pm last night

I will go do a bit of a work out and then bathe, Jack said he will spend time with Oz whilst im in the bath. Then I can pretty much go to bed anytime after that as Jack has asked if he can have a late night. I wanna go bed early so yeah I will give it a go. 

I want to try be in bed early, I will take a sleeping tablet.

I will write my cousin's birthday card too so I can give that and her present for mum to wrap tomorrow as I will go post office on saturday and get that off.

Tomorrow

its school, its also a stew morning so we need to get up and get that stew on! 

I should also have my doctors appointment. However I rang up today and asked if my blood tests were back and the receptionist said no....but it takes up to 3 days. They said "they should have come back on friday but theyre not in" Im gonna ring tomorrow and see if theyre in cus if theyre not then theres no point me in going to the doctors. So we shall see what happens there.