listened to k-pop

Otsukararesama deshita~

I managed 45mins of exercise last night ^^ I enjoyed my bath afterwards as it was like perfect temperature. Jack had the bath after me. We watched Inuyasha and went to bed

I actually slept through the night!!! Woo! Of course it meant dreaming of being a wolf in a wolf pack. Of course -_____- I have A LOT of dreams about wolves, sure I must have been one in a former life.

This morning I didnt die once on the toilet, I died twice! course I did. I also had a splitting headache like a fissure down the centre of my head. I felt sick too. I said to Jack "its like being hungover from those strong pain killers" he said "I can believe that" XD

We got to school and school wasn't too bad I guess. People were shocked that we had been asked to come in yesterday and for 3 hours only at that. I got the day done and managed to do some more of the picture for Chris which is coming along nicely ^^ I replanted my sunflowers now so they are in bigger pots and I bought them home too.

Whilst drawing I was listening to K-pop! Yes K-pop, I have no clue what theyre saying, only the english bits XD But it made a change I guess. I chose to listen to Blackpink, I was shocked at how many views their music videos have!! Like over a billion! I had no idea they were THAT big, I had heard of them but I have never actually actively searched for k-pop. But helped get the drawing done I guess :) Might listen to them whilst working out tonight. My favourite by Blackpink is love sick girls. id like to learn the dance but they are so talented in dancing that Im sure I will feel quite crap in comparison, but it might be fun.

Speaking of working out, I said to Jack "I wanna reach the 50% muscle mass"

he said "you need to put actual weight on for that to happen"

I said "I dont want to gain weight I just want more muscle"

He said "To gain muscle you take it away from the fat mass, yours is already at the limit so you would have to eat more to gain weight which you turn into muscle"

I didnt realise this, I feel swindled some how, I told him he always fun police >.>

Im not sure what my target is now. Maybe its still to be in the 50kg section :/ but I wonder if that will make me go lower on the fat percentage. Who knows. Its weekly weigh in tomorrow anyway

at around 3pm I felt sicky then driving home I felt sicky anxiety but had no idea why. What is there to be anxious about when I am going home?

I picked Oz up, I told mum I would see her tomorrow. She had bought me some strawberries ^^

We got home and Jack made me a brew and we sat outside with Ozwald, enjoying the last of the sun as its suppose to pour down allllll weekend....

We came inside and I waited around for Jack to have a shower then I heated up our leftovers but I didnt feel like dinner so I only had about half the portion I usually do. 

Jack cleared up and I laid on sofa. Hes gone to play dungeon and dragons from 6:30pm to 10pm so I am by myself like every friday night. Of course I am with Sir Ozwald. 

Tomorrow

I have Jack's hair to cut, shopping list to write and not sure what else I have to do. I am going to see mum after lunch but not staying hours. Then come home and might do some drawing maybe.

we had to go into school, food picture

 Konbanwa~~

So last night we had a phone call from head of science saying "dept head wants you to come in"

lord knows why, so we were a bit annoyed to say the least. But we got on and did some yoga which Jack enjoyed and did quite well. We had a bath - not together obviously - then had a hot chocolate watching Inuyasha.

We got up for school, I didnt die on the toilet, I didnt need to go at all which i do find odd.

We dropped Oz off and went to school

A lot of staff turned up, we bumped into a TA and said "it sucks having to come in" she said "im just fetching my laptop and working from home"

but wait, shes support staff, and the dept head has asked for support staff to come in?.....

We thought something was a bit off here

But we got on with work, head of science came and ended up talking to me as Jack had gone to have a bitch with Chris. Head of science didnt say a whole lot about the situation other than school should be open tomorrow. To check the labs and prep for tomorrow and we can go at 11am.

Jack came back and we did what head of science asked. I had come in jumper and joggers I wasnt arsed and no one else had come in their school wear. I wanted to be warm but I was still freezing.

Chris told us that only us science technicians and him had been asked to come in. How skank is that. Very targeted and victimized I feel. The DT and food tech technician got to work from home......

We left at 11am anyway, picked up Oz and came home to thaw out. We had a brew then lunch then I went and did some dusting, then I did some work for school, the work for chris he wants a no eating sign to be made. Here is my start, Im doing food escaping.

I had overdosed and thought I could handle it but worked out I had taken 3 times as much as I usually do so I was practically comatose, I had Oz in the living room with me who fell asleep in his basket and I fell asleep on the sofa. Jack checked on us he said and left us to it XD

I got up and put Oz outside, mum came over for a brew and Jack went to continue gaming.

When mum left I did dinner, feeling a bit more human

after dinner I did some more work to the drawing and emailed it to my school computer.

I will go see Sir Ozwald now and then do some exercises I think I feel in the mood to do some exercise too, like I need to move my body.

Tomorrow

school and it is friday! woo, shouldnt be too hard of a day and hopefully I can get more on my drawing done thats if chris likes the design. 

No school tomorrow!

 Konbanwa~~~

I slept a bit better last night as I wrapped myself up in a blanket, good job I did as there was ice on the car this morning! Ice! its may!

So this morning we were up early to do stew anyway, but I had to dash to the toilet and thought

"great got it out the way before breakfast, I will be on time today"

no

just no

my stomach isnt happy unless I am suffering

so I had to again after breakfast! I felt rough afterwards -_____-

we set off LATE for work, but our main road was closed in the village, so we had to divert, and so did everyone else...we did not expect this. So we had a lot of traffic to battle with, then further down the line there had been a car accident! What usually takes 20mins to get to work took over 40mins....

Jack drove and he did so well bless him. Good experience for him.

Got to school and we werent the only ones who had got caught in the traffic

My day was ok, pretty easy and did some digital drawing

nothing special to say really

we left for home and the traffic was fine, mum brought Oz over for us :)

I sat with mum whilst Jack gamed, he says he is looking forward to yoga tho ^^

we had our stew which was nice :D

then I did some jobs like getting ready for school, then chris rang me "drains are blocked, no school tomorrow check your email"

and he was right!!! No school tomorrow!!!

Best news ever ever ever!!!! I can rest tomorrow thank god, I have got to work from home but that is a lot easier on the body than working. 

Tonight is Jo night

we are gonna do some yoga and then face pack then bath ^^

Tomorrow is working from home I guess

Its a week til my blood test

bought my new cacti home :D

14% body fat is the limit

 Konbanwa~~

I did a good 40mins of exercise last night 30mins of it is using my dumbbells ^^

I had a bath and then watched Inuyasha final act with Jack, strong opening start it had!

We went to bed for 10pm which I was happy about

but I kept waking up in the night from Jack pulling the covers and I wake up thinking "Jack is cold and needs covers" So I pass covers over each and every time and fall asleep again but its still disturbed sleep. It must have been a cold night and Im guessing I was robbing the covers to keep warm in my sleep....

This morning we got up and ready for school and dropped Oz off, he came inside for a quick hop round as he wasnt doing much outside >.>

Jack drove to school and the closer we got the more anxious I got....I hadnt died on the toilet so I was feeling good apart from this anxiety. Upon walking up to the school doors I brought up bile. I have no idea why I get so worked up its just fair. I like my job!

My day wasnt even that bad! I dont have to mess with the bacteria this week so thats a massive stress gone for a week. I didnt have much to do anyway so yeah I have no idea why I feel so anxious. 

I was shattered, like my eye lids are red and puffy and I look like I havent slept in a few days. Not sure why to be honest. I was ready for my lunch, been hungry all day ><

I told Julia that I hadnt lost any weight last week but my water percentage was higher than normal. She asked what my fat percentage was and I said "14%" she said "that is the percentage an athlete has, any lower and its not healthy" did not know that. So I am at the minimum level of body fat. Guess thats a good diet achievement? I would like to gain more muscle. she said "at 44% muscle you are in the healthy zone, past 50% is high muscle percentage" hmmm wonder if I can reach 50?

We finished up for the day and had a brew at mums with Oz on the sofa who was falling asleep.

When we got home we had to get food ready which I obviously cooked but Jack cut up everything and everything for the stew to put on tomorrow morning. Then he showered whilst I cooked as he has a raid tonight.

I had stomach pains after dinner so had to spent some time on the toilet whilst Oz waited in the living room for me, luckily I didnt die too badly. Oz was good boy. Its throwing it down again so he hasnt wanted to play out which I do not blame him.

I will do some of my work out tonight :) using my weights then have a bath I think

tomorrow

school really, got stew to put on before school. Mum is coming over after school with Oz for a brew.

Actually did some drawing

 Pyon~~

Last night I didnt have to go to bed alone ^^

I did my exercises with my weights which I enjoyed as it made a change and I could feel I had worked myself. I had a shower and was about to start my pamper and Jack came downstairs at 10pm! He had finished up with the guys, he could have gamed anyway but chose to come and be with me ^^

So I did my pamper anyway, then we watched the last episode of Inuyasha! My god its kept us quiet XD Now we are on Inuyasha final act, which I have never seen so I am excited!

We went to bed at 11pm as I was doing my nails >< 

I woke up at 7:45am but decided to get up. I left Jack in bed and he woke up at 8:30am. 

My parents came round just before 10am, Jack had started his chores but broke off to assist dad who was putting up my lighting in the craft room! Looks really cool and modern :D I want to see it light up tonight. I tried to sit with mum but we kept getting interrupted by ether dad or jack. They didnt stop, literally only came to do his jobs then pretty much left which is fine with me and jack!

We had a brew once they left and saw Ozwald, it kept raining this morning so we bought him inside. 

Had lunch and I kept drifting off to sleep and Jack kept waking me up and I was grouchy. He went to make me tea - needed actual caffeine - and I didnt hear the kettle or the makings of tea. I had fallen asleep THAT fast, why it never happens that fast at night is a mystery. So next thing I knew was Jack shouting me, I woke up and he was like "ive made you tea!" never would have known.....XD

Then I gathered myself and did some drawing! I havent done any for weeks! it felt good to do some again. I knew why I was putting it off and it was because I wanted to try new techniques and needed full concentration for it, something I do not always have time for or have have enough brain function for. I got the hair and eyes done~

I then spent two hours in the kitchen, I baked banana biscuits, cooked my breakfasts and made my dinner too~ Jack washed  up and cleared up. He was disturbed at how much mess there was XD

We had dinner with Oz as he had stayed inside the entire time I was in the kitchen as it is just horrible out there so I think he was happy to be in the warm really. 

Then after dinner I got my stuff ready for school >< 

I think I feel ok about school. Its been nice being off and I havent had upset stomach at all. Sure its school stress. But my head feels noisy so I hope I can sleep tonight, think I will take a sleeping tablet.

I plan on doing my weights exercise next then bath or shower.

tomorrow is school nothing special really

going to bed alone tonight

 Evening

Due to me literally dying last night I didnt get to try out my dumbbells or do any exercise for that matter. My stomach stuck out like I was pregnant. It hurt so so much like my intestines were being squeezed. So painful. I just wanted sleep. I took a sleeping tablet but to be honest I hardly slept I woke up so many times it wasnt fair. So I was quite tired when i woke up at 7:30am but I left Jack in bed til 8:15am.

We got up and I made us omelette with the leftover eggs for breakfast as they would go out of date today so that made a change from meat

we went food shopping, then picked up a few bits from B&M then light cable things from B&Q and Jack let me pick up a couple of baby cacti ^^ I was happy :D So I brought them home and watered them well as they were so dry and it has revived them! I was done in from all the shopping tho. Jack packed away and made me a hot drink. he said I had looked like death all morning.

But I got up and Jack helped me make soup, whilst it cooked I cleaned Oz out and cleaned the bathroom. Then had soup. Then I reluctantly went to bed. I didnt want to but I needed to. 

I got up and we had a brew outside with Oz, I suggested to go for a walk but I was tired, I just felt like I needed to do something but it started to rain so that made the decision for me. I came inside and watched stuff on my laptop then made dinner.

We had dinner then Jack went to go game with Harvey and Theo, I told Jack that as its bank holiday, we have nothing to get up for, the weather is suppose to be crap so if he wants to stay up gaming with the guys he is welcome to, I will be alone tonight and I think I can manage that. He did all his admin jobs today which is bill paying, he manages all the money so it doesnt stress me out. He puts up with a lot so I think hes earned a late gaming night here and there. I just hope I dont get disturbed too bad when he comes to bed >< I cant remember the last time I went to bed by myself actually

I didnt die on the toilet this morning which was nice. I dont feel right mentally tho. Just something not quite right somehow. But I will try to keep going

Tonight I would like to have a go with my dumbbells! Then I might have a bit of a pamper~ do my nails as well.

Tomorrow

my dad is coming over at some point to help with the light fittings. Im hoping my mum comes over to visit me too. I have a bit of cooking/baking to do. Not sure what else we will do. Jack has chores to do such as hoovering and painting the walls were the old radiators were.

Shopping trip with Jack

 Evening

I managed a good 40mins of exercise last night then went to epilate my legs and had a shower as I couldnt be bothered to wait for a bath after epilating. I had a hot chocolate with Jack and watched Inuyasha and went to bed. Slept for a solid 9 hours and felt better for actual sleep. Not being disturbed by Jack

This morning I almost had to run to the toilet, it was that bad. I woke up at 8am and had died on the toilet twice by 9am.....still we got off at 9:15am for shops at attenborough

I drove there and we went to tk maxx, pound shop, pet shop, next clearance, matalan. I was expecting it to be busy to be honest as we got there at 9:45am and its a saturday morning. There was people in the car park but the shops weren't busy. We got a fair bit. Think it was only 1 item of clothing we paid full price off everything else we got in the sales. We managed to get some syrups and sweets for Jack, we checked the pet store but there was nothing for Oz.

So I got 2 new bras, 2 new pants and some dungarees for work. and finally some dumbbells!!

Jack got new boxers, coat, jumper, jeans, tshirt so he did well cus yes he needs clothing -_____-

we went to the nature reserve and went for a walk the weather was cloudy but I wasnt too cold

Jack drove back as I was quite exhausted by this point!

We got home for 12:30pm and had lunch then I went to bed, I was done. I slept so deeply too! Like the house could have been on fire and I wouldnt have known.

I got up and had a drink with Jack and Oz but Oz was hungry so we didnt keep him inside too long. Turns out he hadnt eaten his morning carrot >.> 

We did dinner then I fell asleep on the sofa, just so tired and drained. Jack has gone to have a video call with him friends. I am with Oz who is hungry yet again. I think its cus hes shedding his old coat and its taking more energy for him to do that. So I will take him home and then maybe have a quick go with my dumbbells!

tomorrow

weekly shops, weekly chores, maybe my dad coming over and fitting my light fitting for my craft room. He said he would do it before the carpets are laid.