Alice had me worried

Evening~

Today I woke up at 8:45am
good to have a bit of a lay in
ive been having some werid dreams tho
last night I dreamed I was a vampire but I wasnt in control
of my body, It was like outta body experience thing.
I ran away from my parents, i was in a carpark and saw houses
I went to this house, went by the patio window and saw a dad a mum and a child
I caught the woman's eye so I hid round the corner. She came out
I got her and bit her neck!!!! I didnt want to then I could feel blood
in my mouth, the vampire wanted to swallow but i didnt want to
then I woke up. disturbing. the last 3 books ive been reading havent had vampires
in so i cant blame the books XD
And last night I dreamed I found a guinea - pink like they are in dreams- it was sick
so i nursed it to health and kept it X3
Mum always says id make a good veterinary nurse

Alice this morning wasnt well...
i thought "jeez not another one!!" i couldnt handle another poorly pet
she was holding herself, she was in pain
and squeaked when she went toilet
so we made an appointment at the vets for a few hours time
in the meantime i gave her some of lily's pain medicine.
got her out 2 hours later and she seemed fine
she was walking round, eating, playing
i was watching her for 30mins straight and she seemed fine
so we didnt take her vets no need to stress her out
im sooooo relieved as i think id have a breakdown if i lost another so soon after lily.

Me and mum went town, I got a rabbit jumper from charity shop ^^
a note pad for college which i have been decopauging the front cover XD
and some pink hair dye!!! scary!! ><

I fell asleep for 2 hours
its just crazy how much i have slept in the last 2 weeks
im not sure why ether
i have a suspicion its my depression. sometimes i dont want to get up and face the day
and thats not me. i dont like to waste a minute of the day
yet im called to be asleep and tune off from the world.
its exhausting frankly.

wrapped my brother's presents
its going to be his 21st tomorrow!
we have plans in store for him so it should be a nice day.
he got the option of takeaway or eating out tonight
so my family have gone pub for a drink then bringing home takeaway pizza
i could do without eating it. its my mind. it hates takeaway
so im not gonna have a moments peace tonight from my head.

and thats my day
gonna go see how alice is again now~
oh my nails this week
but i wasnt happy with them

 

Manga Folder

Good Evening

When I got up I went to go check on Pinky
she seemed to be ok :)
I got ready to go school~

School was alright I was quite tired tho
we did english, maths, maths on computers, geography, french
then whilst they did PE I went and did some other stuff like talk to the head mistress
I came home for my lunch as usual. Mum had got soup ready and had baked cookies :3
When I was talking to the head mistress, she owns the school guinea pigs
and I offered to look after them should they need it.
So come Easter holidays we will have 2 boars to look after for 10 days!!!!
I managed to get some of papers signed for college
I was suppose to read loads of forms like fire safety, safe guarding children, security etc..
I didnt get through it all. For each one I read I needed a signiture
The temptation to just tick them all as 'read' was strong but then I didnt want to
its dishonest and I want them to think I am bothered and trustworthy
So I have more to do next week :)
I took my college folder into school, its got my work in.
Originally I got it at a store for like £1.50 but when I went to college on tuesday
I noticed someone had the same folder D: so I paper mache/decoupage it XD
front and back

and the front, i tried to pick school related pictures for the front

Cool isnt it X3 much more me than the butterfly design it was originally~

Pinky has been coping well without lily
we did feel like she was looking for her today tho
We are going to have ago to try and get the 3 of them together
but I cant see pinky having it to be honest. We can only try
be good for her to have company and good for us to just have 1 cage!

I got my brother's birthday present done today
just needed about 20mins more work on it so i got on with it when i came back
from school. i am so shattered but trying to keep going
this week has taken it out of me for sure

Tomorrow me and mum may go into the city
we need a tombstone for lilykins
we're gonna bath pinky as well i think

Lily

Evening

This morning when I got up I went straight to lily

we kept her inside the house over night - with out pinky

I really really thought she would have passed away  in her sleep

but surprisingly she was still with us

Last night she looked terrible and brought up every bit of medicine

we attempted to give her.

She was clearly not well and in pain

This morning we had a vet appointment at 9:45am

the vet was surprised that lily hadnt picked up at

he felt her tummy and said over night a mass had formed in her stomach

He said the kindest and best option was to let her go

the other option was to open her up and operate

but we all agreed it would be cruel and selfish to do that to her

not to mention she probably wouldnt pull through such a procedure

So we let her go. I cried. But in a way it was a bit of a relief

as I knew she wouldnt be in pain anymore

She had clearly had enough. bless her

we tried for her but we were fighting a losing battle

Mum is gutted we lost her. Lily and pinky are like her babies

but she too felt it was a relief and kindest thing to do.

Lily was well loved every single moment of her little life

she was very very spoilt and had everything.

we will always love lily, she was a loving, pretty, sweet and sometimes bossy piggie

she was a pleasure to have and will be sadly missed

Pinky is left behind. We are giving her extra special attention so she doesnt get lonely

but so far she seems to be doing alright

We are left with precious memories of lily, the guinea who liked to pose for the camera

rest in peace lilykins

 

Poisoned Pig

Evening

Today has not been a good day
its been a bit horrific if im honest
This morning we got the pigs out as usual
we first noticed Pinky had a wet side. We thought "bet lily has peed up her"
went to pick lily up she was soaked...
we looked at her and she looked like she rabies
of course both mum and myself freaked and were shocked

We rang the vets immediately and they werent open yet
so we got her together in the carrying case with pinks
and drove down to get there as the vets were opening up
they very kindly saw us straight away despite being fulled booked

The vet was very kind and persistent, we hadn't seen him before
he gave lily the full check over
her lungs, teeth, stomach were all fine
he said it was like an acid re-flux she was suffering from
she had an injection to help her digestion and we were given this food to mix
into a paste and syringe feed her. he said "if there no improvement in 6-12 hours bring her back"
this was at 9:15am

So we got home and tried her with the food
but everytime we gave it her she would bring it straight up through
her nose and mouth. it was awful to watch. it couldnt have been nice for her.
by 3pm we decided she hadnt improved so we rang up and got the last available
appointment for the day which was 5:15pm

The vet this time put a tube down her throat to her stomach. bless her
to make sure there wasnt any blockages. luckily there wasnt any
He gave her an injection of fluids, a hunger stimulant and a pain killer
basically dosed her up big style
we were to keep trying to syringe feed her
we are taking her back at 10am tomorrow for the same injections if shes improved
if she hasnt improved it wont be a good outcome

we were surprised how trying this vet was and very calm
he was quite optimistic that lily would make it
he came to the conclusion that lily had been poisoned by something
could have been anything, stuff on the grass, moldy foods or hay
we'll never know (not that we give her moldy food dont worry!)

So now lily is downstairs by herself all wrapped up warm
she will be staying indoors over night by herself
to keep her warm as she soaking wet, shes a mess.
Im praying she pulls through. mum has cried a lot today i dont want ether of them to suffer

the little piggies had their first bath today
now theyre fluffy, soft and nice smelling
they were very good ^^

I plan on going school tomorrow
but all depends on lily how she is
if shes unwell i cant leave alone to put her to sleep
oh lily pray you pull through!     

 

I'm Officially a STUDENT again!!

Good Evening Minna-san~

This morning was so hard to get up!! Not like me at all

im such a morning person but I couldnt get up and I pulled such

a face at mum when she woke me. I moaned at her "oh I dont wanna get upppppp"

So she left me for 15minutes then woke me again. I couldnt believe I had

fallen back to sleep!! How can I fall back to sleep so fast then and I cant do

it in the middle of the night!? >.>

So I got motivated and left the house at 9am

I got there with 5minutes to spare ^^

We were called through and followed a member of staff to room 108

There was 16 of us in total, apparently more was suppose to show up

all woman - no surprise there - and there was about 3 of us in our 20's at a guess

but I did look like the runt -__- where ever I go im always the runt huh

We sat and did some paper work for the enrollment process

I had to show my DBS check, driving license, qualifications and say how I was paying for the course.

As I was one of the few people paying for the course out my own money - not through a loan

I went downstairs to go sort it out. I saw a couple of members of staff from when I sat my exam

so I was chatting with them which was nice :)

Then I went to the reception to get an ID card, little did they know that I already had one

from the other campus. But another cant hurt right ;)

I could see the lanyard in a basket, there was 1 PINK ONE LEFT!

damn it I wanted that pink one, or it was blue or purple.

But with 2 people already before me, I couldnt take the risk so I did what any other child

would do at this point...I pointed "THERE'S A PINK ONE!"

The 2 ladies before me smiled at me like I was some kinda werido

the guy doing the ID cards smiles and asks the lady being served

"would you like a pink lanyard?" 

I said "ahhh thats just mean" and pouted XD

Very kindly both ladies left the pink lanyard to me ^^ my childish antics worked XD

I dont care, its the little things in life that make me happy and i entertained 3 people

so yeah i dont mind what people think of me

I went back to the classroom and we were given a few booklets

we need for the course and told we start Tuesday 9:30 - 12:00

which is good because I dont like going into school on a tuesday cus they have P.E.

and its dull sitting there whilst theyre playing around

I made my way towards home but stopped off at the florist and brought

mum a bunch of flowers which I hand picked ^^

I brought them to say 'thanks for looking after me when I was poorly last week' kinda thing

So I got home, put pets outside and did the flowers. Had lunch and recorded a dance.

In the afternoon I went for a short walk with mum

then I went doctors by myself. he was running late by 30 minutes

i dont know why I bother attended there on time cus theyre always late :/

I was so nervous as I didnt know what to say about my mental health.

So as I sat down infront of him and he asked "what can I do for you?"

I just said "ether up my current anti-depressiants or change me to another"

and thats what he did, he increased my dose...

he never asked 'whats up?' 'would you like to see someone?' 'what thoughts you been having?'

'Have you tried to harm yourself?' NOTHING

now how unprofessional is that. for all he knew i could have tried to commit suicide and he

wouldnt have known. i dont think he takes mental health seriously.

disgusting really. but saved me the trouble of explaining myself

on the way out i saw a notice about support for mental health so i jotted the number down

just in case. in this world if you need help you have to get it yourself.

So thats my day

it feels good to finally be getting somewhere :)

Tomorrow Im having a crafting day~

Molang Doodle

Evening all~

Today I got up at 7:15am
unsure of whether to go to school or not
i really wanted to, ive missed there, ive being outside the house
and it does me good to show my face there

So I went and I was met at the entrance by the headmistress
i noticed in one hand a sack of guinea food and in the other
the guineas in their carrying case!
I went straight up to her "would you like me to take these round for you?"
she was like "of course"
mum says im gonna be known as the 'guinea pig lady' there soon XD
So I sorted em out in their cage and stuff :3
great first job of the day huh!

I spent the morning taking down a display of work
then it was maths, which im embarrassed to say, i couldnt do -___-
I was struggling to keep up with the day
i was running short on energy and couldnt wait for lunch time
I told them I had an appointment to attend in the afternoon but wanted to come in the morning

I got home and crashed out basically.
i was shattered. after i tended to the pets i went to sleep for almost 2 hours
i didnt sleep properly last night so i wasnt shocked

In the afternoon I went and finished my Molang doodle

Here's the tag I took a photo of originally

Tomorrow I am gonna enroll at collage!!!!
I will be officially a student ^^
i told a lot of the teaching staff today and they were happy for me :D
Wish me luck~
Then I have stupid doctors appointment to talk about my mental health >.>
not looking forward to that. the guy is an arse. told me last time
that "id grow out of it" yes cus we grow out of mental health
i can see it being a total waste of time~

Manga Decopauge Shelves Finished!!!

Good Evening all~

My shelves dried over night so they are officially

FINISHED!!

and whats more is...

THEY'RE UP ON MY WALL!!!

I took quite a few photos of them~

This what they look like with my junk in em

I actually want something decent to put in the 2 small

ones but im not going out my way to buy something

as Im sure something will come up

I then sorted out draws of manga and stuff

I have 2 empty draws now but not sure what to fill em with ><

I counted I have:

Manga book x114

Coloured manga book x1

Japanese Manga x5 

making a grand total of 120 manga book *gulps* thats an awful lot...

I dont want mum to know she will hit the roof!

Id love to see them all on a book shelf one day in my own house :3

I havent done much today as Im still nakerd

I did sleep for almost 2 hours during the day and I slept like a log

Im gonna paint my nails tonight :3

tomorrow I hope to be at school even if I just do the morning

I just need to get out the damn house!!

I did do a bit more of my Molang picture~