We have a new bathroom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Evening

We went to bed around 10pm as I was so damn tired

I ended up waking up suddenly at 2am with awful stomach pains and the need to vomit

not only that but I was cold and sweating. I thought to myself "am I sick?"

I felt really unwell, I left the bed slowly and stayed in the living room for a couple of hours til 4am and when I felt better I went back to bed. I got up at 7:30am for Oz and I knew matt would be coming over.

This morning I felt like death and looked paler than usual for me

I didnt do much at all and couldnt even be bothered to talk to jack, or eat

by 10am I had crawled back to my bed and went to sleep for an hour, felt a little bit better

I kept having Oz in for company and for my mood

Mum came over at 2pm, just when matt was clearing up as he had finished our bathroom!

God the transformation is amazing! I am in love with it and very very grateful 

grateful that we could afford it, get booked in so fast, and for the meticulous matt

his workmanship is utterly amazing. His attention to detail....it amazes and impresses me

doesnt do things by halves anyway. 

But everything is fresh, clean, inviting, warm and ours

it works for us. and helps my health. I am very happy

the ceiling and door needs painting but thats it everything is done. Mum says if she has nothing else to do tomorrow she will come over and clean our bathroom whilst we are at work. We weren't allowed to clean it today due to sealants still setting. We could use the facilities just not scrub them!

So we havent put everything in it yet cus it needs a cleaning down. everywhere is a tad dusty ^^;

I went for a walk with mum we were gone an hour, it was probably a 45min walk but mum walks a bit slower than me. Although she did tell me to slow down today not for her but for me she said my breathing was awful, i hadnt noticed! I think I am so used to weezing! I felt a bit brighter after my walk 

she came in for a cup of tea

then after she left, I ran a bath - not a stupid hot one just a normal one and we took baths after one another then had dinner. I had a leftover from mum - which was safe on my diet - jack on the other hand had some greasy fritters and kieves -____- any chance to have something not home made and full calories and he is there, just like my brother XD He was happy with his food

after dinner we did a couple of jobs, I got my new 60 litre red bin out nicknamed 'postbox' into the kitchen cus god i hated our kitchen bin. youd think a bin is a bin....just no. So thats one less thing in the craft room anyway! slowly clearing that room so I will be able to get it up and running. i suggested to jack last night that we wallpaper the craft room during february half term and he seems ok about that just says it may not be the best job ever XD

So now I am by myself as Jack plays his dungeon and dragons

he wont be done til gone 10pm so I will be in bed before then no doubt. I have however set aside a whole pomegranate for myself. My treat~ so I will eat that after I have had my Oz out for the evening. He is at bunny daycare tomorrow as we are at school doing our pointless babysitting with covid kids XD Jack has a meeting with the head teacher at 11:30am he has already told me he is apprehensive about it. 

first covid test, and testing for asthma

 Evening

Typically I had bad night sweats. Like woke up TWICE dripping with sweat, my pyjamas were damp for gods sake. Typical on the morning I can't use the bath!!!!!!

So when I got up I had to mop my body with a cloth which made me feel marginally better

Jack drove us to school

School was DULL

all the teachers I had bumped into said the same quote

"its baby sitting"

"it's easy"

"youll be fine"

"its boring"

all of the above were correct

I have literally sat in a computer room with about 8 children whilst they did their online learning, I sat and painted stuff for displays. Dull really theres only so long painting grabs my interest

I did however have my first covid test! Jack totally wussed out, he said 'he didnt have time' time out from babysitting? wuss

so yeah it actually wasnt that bad, it made my eyes water but that was all. The set up was more weird. It was the reception staff in the p.e. changing rooms all on their own sector doing different things, then we had to wait in the shower cubicles to keep us separate whilst we waited for the results. Luckily mine was straight up negative :) 

I had lunch with jack and returned to lesson

jack drove us home at the end of the day. We saw matt who said he had not been having a good day. the bathroom had really tested him....still not finished but we all get crap days. 

he stayed til like 7pm tho.....

we left at 4pm to see mum, have a brew with her and Oz

jack waited in my car for me whilst I went doctors

the nurse says it sounds like asthma but to get the correct diagnosis i have to chart my results for a month using a peak flow metre. so yeah. She also took my blood pressure and weight

blood pressure 106/70

weight 68.8kg

thats low bloody pressure even by my standards, and my god i cant remember the last time i weighed that!!!!!!!!!!! glad im going on this diet i fricking need it. bloody chunky beast.

we popped by mums for oz, did dinner but didnt eat til matt left. then I had a very hot bath as I ached like mad from sitting so long in my seat today >< 

then just sat with Oz, painted my draws and did chores. its 10pm i have washing to hang out then im gonna watch inuyasha with Jack

tomorrow just working from home really

Mummy's birthday

 Evening

Didn't sleep to great, kept waking up so I was quite tired when I woke this morning

the snow was still on my car ><

I had breakfast, didnt bother getting changed out my pyjamas, grabbed Oz and went to mum's

She was surprised to see m at 8:25am X3 I managed to see her for half hour before work anyway

whilst she was out I did 20mins of dancing but soo became shaky so I stopped and showered

I got all mum's presents together and cards, made her a cup of tea as she came in and had the girls on the sofa waiting for her. They were all after my banana so I had no choice but to share that with them....

Mum loved her presents from me ^^ I was pleased. I was just sad that i couldnt do much with her. It was raining, freezing and in lockdown.

But we sat and talked and then I said to her that I must do some work. She made cakes and I helped decorate them. Her friends came to the door to drop gifts off. One brought their 2 year old grandson, the first time I have seen him! He is the son of someone I was in class with in primary and secondary school, so seeing his child is an odd experience. But he was very sweet, surprised to say how mischievous his dad is XD I was dreading mum coming away from that and talking about grandchildren but luckily she didnt as children would be in the end of me.

Jack rang before he came over and said that matt had sealed the bath so it was unusable tonight AND tomorrow morning T^T so it meant we both had to shower at mums tonight as we have school in the morning. So he came over, ate cake with mum and had a shower. I sadly had to miss out on cake due to my diet >.> 

We decided to leave Oz there as we would only be bringing him home to take him back in the morning, didnt seem worth it. So I have left him at mum's which always feels wrong to me.

we made dinner when we got in, good job as I was so hungry. This diet is hard. and its only day 2!

then I was painting my dressing table, only painted 2 draws so nothing major.

Jack isnt gaming with anyone tonight so it will hopefully be an early night with inuyasha :D

I miss having hot chocolate whilst watching it tho 

day 2 and already missing things XD

tomorrow

I am going to school to supervise children. I am to be sat with year 7 (11-12year olds) in the computer room and find some work to do. I feel it will be a boring experience for all involved.

I am offered a covid test as well but I will see how i feel about having that done 0.0

then after school at 5:10pm I have an appointment with the nurse to see if I am asthmatic or not. Fingers crossed I am not asthmatic! 

next birthday in the family is me!! less than 2 weeks i will be 29 ><

walking at night, alone in -6c + Diet starts today!

 Evening

So last night....

after being with Oz and then clearing out the craft room, I was set to do exercise

but every time I had been out to Oz I noticed how lovely and peaceful it was everywhere with the several inches of snow.

So it was 9pm and I decided to go for a walk, Jack would be gaming for a while yet and my phone was charging. Couldnt see the harm in popping out for a bit. Didnt think my absence would be noticed.

I walked the streets, my feet slowly going numb along with the rest of me. But I enjoyed it. All the main roads were dead it was silent everywhere. It was so strange but peaceful I loved it. But I noticed my joints were starting to hurt and I was getting rather cold due to it being -6c

I got back and opened the door to find Jack on the other side of it....it was also 10pm....

Jo was gonna get it

So yeah Jack was not pleased ^^; he quietly seethed. He was just worried and said he had no idea where I was and that he'd contacted my mother as he was worried where I was. To take my phone next time. to tell him next time. To not go off into the night by myself...yeah...Jo was not in good books. But he didnt shout at me and soon relaxed. His breathing/asthma wasnt right tho as he had been out to look for me and I thin he had been a bit anxious/panicked.

I ran a bath which caused my body to sting, then have pins and needles, then felt swollen. Was quite odd to feel all that in a bath but jack said it was cus i had been in the cold for an hour and then in a flesh scolding bath. We watched Inuyasha together and I had a milk hot chocolate. My last treat for weeks/months. we went to bed at like 11:30pm

I slept pretty well and when i woke up at 7:45am, the snow was still there.  I txted matt to say we both live in hilly areas and we understand if he doesnt come today. He said his road was bad but he did come at 10am when the sun had been out a few hours which did help with the snow.

He continued working on our bathroom it feels very warm and cozy in there ^^

I was not having a good day, aftermath of walking in the cold at night -_____-

my joints ached and i felt rough so I had a slow start to my day. Not to mention the lack of sugar due to my diet!!! I did 40mins of yoga to try help loosen things along. Jack helped me make my soup for the week. Then once I had eaten my soup my mum came round to talk to matt what she wants ordering for their downstairs bathroom as matt is doing it on monday. Then we both went for a walk it was a short walk as mum finds walking on snow/ice hard as shes very tense, she worries massively about slipping. But I was glad to get out.

When I came back I worked on my picture, made a good dent in the outline

Had Oz in a few times as usual. He is on his diet too and dont i know. He is so food aggressive and throws paddies XD i cleaned him out this afternoon and hes wrecked his cage!! my god. the attitude. 

I had a look at my manga and pulled some pages out to decopauge onto my dressing table. But I realised I need my paintbrushes >< So I need to grab them from mum's so I can start putting colour onto the wood. Jack keeps encouraging me to work on it he says i need to do something for myself. He worries about me as I have been so low and not my self for a few days now....

Tomorrow

IT'S MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY!

I have said I will work from her house tomorrow so that she has company :) I am taking Oz over as well. She doesnt know that am I coming over as early at 8:15am tho! she thinks I will come over after 11am. So yeah I will see her and the sows in the morning :) 

It means whilst she is out I can dance and shower. Matt is ripping out our toilet tomorrow so that will be out of use for a few hours anyway so I am kinda glad I will be over at mum's! Jack said he will come over around 4pm to see mum for a cup of tea and come home with me and Oz. I cant eat mum's birthday cake but I am fine with that. Sick of eating food that hurts anyway. never thought id say id be fine with missing out on cake! But yeah thats tomorrow

my god I have missed biscuits and chocolate today T^T

Start my diet tomorrow...

 Konbanwa 

I slept pretty well last night despite the fact that I bit into my pillow as I dreamed of biting into my dad's hand, Jack told me to "calm down" in his sleep XD

I got up at 8am for my Ozwald

I wanted to get the shopping trip done out the way today so set off at like 9am for the shops, the car park was pretty empty and we got there and the store doors didnt open....yeah what time does the store open? ^^; a security guard saw us and we asked him what time the store opens and he asked if we were teachers or NHS so jack showed his school card the guy let us in! Said the store opens early for school and nhs workers! how lucky was that. But it was dead strange there could have only been like 5 other customers in the whole supermarket! dead weird. the lights were dimmed as well and only one check out open. Weird. but really quiet, we got all we needed dead fast and its less covid chances too.

The shop was a bit more expensive than usual simply because i needed stuff for my delightful Auto Immune Paleo Diet I am starting tomorrow -__________- 

we got back and unpacked and then I had a  bath, proudly announcing to jack that i had been to the shop in pyjama top under my coat XD

Then we did a few jobs really, supported jack with putting up a curtain pole in the spare room so the spare room is pretty much done really. We sorted out a bit of crap in the craft room. Had lunch and stuff

I fell asleep for a bit as I was just fed up with life and had no energy despite there sheer amount of sugar and calories i have consumed today. Making up for the fact i wont see sugar for weeks maybe months!

When i woke up I could hear jack gaming, i looked out my window to see several inches of snow and decided not to go see my mum but to ring her instead and had Oz with me as well

cooked the dinner and cooked all my meat for this week. I also made a tomato sauce just off the top of my head with stuff in it i can eat on my diet so i have something to dip my sweet potato wedges in. tastes ok. and with this diet YOU NEED TASTE as everything is just fruit and veg.

I cleared away then walked into the craft room, i can work better without jack the horder round my heels so i threw out a load of crap and I can actually see floor! he's just gaming so I am just leaving him to it. I sat with Oz for 45 mins the whole time we laid on the floor, forehead to forehead and he just slept whilst i felt his warm breath on my skin. Love my Ozwald. he was happy to be warm I think.

Now I need to do some exercise. Very tempted to go for a walk in the several inches of snow then come in for a bath. Just seems to peaceful and still out there and snow is such a rarity. 

Tomorrow

I start my diet -____- the same diet, the same time as last year. But hey I am looking forward to not having stomach pains after every meal. But good bye to all my beloved treats

I will be working from home, promised jack id ring the doctors to talk about if i have developed asthma. Something I should have got checked out about 14months ago but was being too stubborn about not wanting another condition/label. But sometimes i sound exactly like weezy from toy story 2 and jack wont stop banging on about it >.>

JUst can't be bothered right now

 Evening

I dropped off to sleep around midnight and slept really well ^^

But this morning when I woke up at 8am

I just didnt feel right, I almost felt like I was coming down with something, Just felt off and exhausted and tired despite sleeping well. So all I did this morning was see to Oz, eat a load of biscuits with cup of tea and went back to bed. When I got up again at 10:30am I had a bath and I did feel a bit better. Whilst I was in the bath it had started snowing, it really really came down for a few hours but it was warm out so it wasnt able to settle luckily.

Can't say I did a lot this morning, it soon became lunch time and it stopped snowing so I asked Jack if we could go for a walk. He came with me but his breathing was bad cus of his asthma so we had a quick walk which was probably for the best as my breathing hurt and my legs hurt to walk. I got back home and crawled into bed with Hammington, I just couldn't be bothered to do anything I just wanted to be left alone to be honest. Jack looked concerned but left me to it

I was woken by my mother ringing, saying they were on their way back and could they call in for a brew i said it was fine. So my parents came in for a brew for a good hour. 

Once they left I decided to try and make something with my day and worked a bit more on my Hammington picture

just not in the mood to do anything tho I have to say. Not sure why. Just want to be quiet and sleep.

In about an hour's time we are going over to mum and dad's as we are having take away pizza

its mum's birthday on tuesday so she said we would have takeaway. Cant say I am looking forward to any of it as I wont be able to eat the pizza anyway! It will cripple me without a doubt so I am unsure what I will eat yet...

Tomorrow

going food shopping as usual and we have got to buy in stuff for me to start my diet on monday....cant tell you how much bad foods ive been eating today just cus i am making the most of sugar....ah sugar how i will miss thee. So yeah shopping tomorrow and a bit of housework and admin i think.

cant be bothered with it all to be honest

almost accident with acid

 Evening

Thanks to my selfish nerd, my slumber was disturbed when he selfishly came to bed after he'd finished gaming, honestly. So I ended up getting up with him at 11pm and had to take some pain killers >.>

It made things easier this morning not having to drop Oz off but it did feel weird not having him here, i prefer having him here to drop off certainly.

We got to school and we met Julia in the hall talking to the dept head, stood round was around 15 members of staff. Jack pointed out to the dept head that for the last 10mins a student in the room hasnt had his mask on....bodes well doesnt it when over 15 members of staff are in a room with 10 children and no one can spot the one child not wearing a mask for 10 mins. I couldnt see them from where I was stood.

But yeah Jack is still not happy about it all and thinks the school are operating illegally by forcing us to come into school to ether supervise children or test them for covid. He has asked for it to be in writing and then he will take the letter to his union....julia understands where jack is coming from but feels resigned to her fate as it were. Me, well I think for the sake of a few weeks and 2 days per week, im just gonna get on with it. There's like 10 kids in a classroom all sat away from you, i feel like i have just as much chance from catching covid from my weekly shop :/ besides when we come into school we can have covid tests if we like and the kids are tested every week without fail so theyre probably a lot more safer to be around than the people at our weekly shop! I just hope I have something to be getting on with as a lot my job doesnt really revolve around computer work or class room work so i really hope i can be getting on with something! just take my sketch book and paints in and pray to some god i have something to do! something creative!!!

So today we continued with chemical stock take and chemical make up

i was continuing with the acids, 2 of which i had worked with on wednesday

but a 3rd - Nitric Acid was new to today

Jack got it out the acids cupboard for me and placed it in a tray

later on in the afternoon when I got round to Nitric Acid I picked it up by the neck of the plastic bottle and placed it into the fume cupboard. I unscrewed the top then gripped the bottle to pick it up thats when I noticed that the usual hard plastic bottle containing the concentrated acid had perished. It felt soft whereas the plastic is usually hard it also then cracked...leaking acid all down my fingers. My god I was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad I had gloves on otherwise i would be down the emergency room right now. I just turned to Jack in shock who was several tables behind me

"Jack quick, something is wrong! it's not right!"

he came running over

"what? what?" saw the liquid oozing out the bottle over my hand "shit"

we threw a lot of cat litter down which is great at absorbing liquid chemical and i threw my gloves away. The chemical had even gone a yellow colour whereas i only know it to be colourless. 

What surprised me most was that it was a brand new, never opened bottle. And it had gone like that. We transferred the acid into a glass bottle. Jack told me to leave acids for the day it was 2:30pm and after that shock and drama i was happy to leave it there. So i went to go talk to hannah and luke for half hour til jack finished his stock take for the day.

I dropped jack off home and went to mummy's for a cup of tea, a homemade cookie or two, a sit with the sows who had been bathed so were nice fluffy and soft, and to pick up my lad.

I got back home and did some chores whilst matt was finishing up for the day and then had a bath as i stunk of chemical and acid :/ also I hadnt bathed since last night so felt ready for a scrub

jack had a bath, we did dinner which of course gave me stomach ache. I did 25mins of yoga after we had sat with Oz in the living room. He just wanted us for food, that damn rabbit, hes so over weight >.> 

its 10pm! i had no idea of the time, probably have hot chocolate and watch inuyasha and go to bed

tomorrow no real plans

might dance, might start my dressing table, yeah just see how the day goes really~ 

Whether it like it or not

 Evening

I actually slept really well last night, Jack even got up for a wee in the night and it never even woke me! I was having very vivid dreams tho 

I got up and left for mum's at 8:15 as she was going out at 9am and I was gonna house sit in case the tiles were delivered. I sat with her before she went out tho :) she went out and I took my laptop up to my bedroom and continued to work on Dorothy Hodgekin, which I can say I got finished!!

She looks alright I think, just got 1 more person to draw then I can work on more of the display

at 10:35 I did half hour of dancing which i enjoyed and did quite well, I then did 10mins of stretching afterwards whilst i waited for mum to come home, when she arrived I went for a much needed shower

I had a cup of tea with her then went home at 12:30

I needed to get back

basically yesterday we support staff in the school which is about 10 members of staff, received a snotty email stating the school were after support staff to help supervise children in the school. So Jack replied with "me and my team are classed as vulnerable so I would prefer it if we didnt help out" besides we helped out last year 'shepparding' the children to different classes so its not like we dont want to help. But being asked to sit with children during these covid times isnt great i guess. To be honest I am actually fine with helping out, my 'concern' was being in a classroom all day - 6 hours - at a desk. As I can not sit there that long.

We received a reply today stating the head teacher had been informed and that we were to have our risk assessments updated today by having a teams meeting with the dept head! what a bitch! So instantly my stomach twisted with anxiety as I felt like I was being persecuted for having something wrong with me. Like I was in trouble or something.

Julia's meeting was at 12:30

Jack's meeting 1pm

mine 1:30pm

so I wanted to get back in time to over hear Jack's meeting XD

I sat next to him whilst the dept head video called him on teams, I said hello so she knew I was there. She said - that they need us to ether supervise children in the classrooms OR test the children for covid!! so its gone from yesterday's ASKING for help to TELLING us to help. And Jack pointed this out and said he wasnt happy about it. It isn't in his job description and he doesnt want to be near children, he doesnt want to supervise children, the situation hasnt been handled well, and he was taking it to his union leader.....

I could tell he was angry.....

She then asked to speak to me, so Jack passed me the tablet over and I had my meeting

she asked how I felt on the matter and how I feel about supervising children. I said that I was fine as I used to be a teaching assistant anyway, my concern was sitting all day. But she told I can move around and leave the room and such so I felt better about that and said I would help. She said that Julia was coming in tomorrow morning to see how everything was ran I said I would come in also (i knew it would help with my anxiety) she said I would be put on the rota for next week

we said our goodbyes. Jack looked like he could breathe fire. I left him for a while....then went to go check up on him. He had been emailing his union leader. He doesnt want to do this and cant understand why we cant just keep working the way we have to. That its gone from asking for help, to telling us. And the choice is supervision or testing. He just feels its wrong and they went about it poorly.

I rang my mum and let her know how we got on she said it wasnt good the way the school have handled that. 

I managed to get Jack out for a half hour walk thinking the fresh air would help him as he was very much stewing on it all. 

I had a bit of a rest on the bed in the afternoon and then did dinner which was just reheating leftovers. We do this on a thursday as jack has his nerdery online at 6ish so hes doing that right now. I usually get left for several hours by myself but the bathroom is a bit out of commission so I have asked mum if i can shower at hers, again, tonight then i will plate my hair so it takes the night to dry and hopefully it wont look too crap come the morning!

So I am off too mum's shortly and I am gonna take my Ozwald with me and he can have some fuss and things. Then I will bring him home and I will probably go to bed or something.

Tomorrow

we are getting up for school

jack has said that whilst we are at school we might as well do a full day >.> 

so depending on if julia stays we will ether continue with yesterdays work or i have other things i can be getting on with. Ether way I am stuck at school :/

we are of course dropping Oz off for daycare in the morning and picking him up after school :) 

20 litres of acid

 Evening

I slept pretty well last night

and woke up at 7am for a bath before work which was very nice and i made sure not to make it too hot as it takes me a while to recover from it

We took Oz over to mum's at 8:30am and went to school, jack drove

and basically my day consisted of clearing up the prep room in the morning

then making 20 litres of acid....

i swear i have made enough acid today to dispose of a few bodies...

it meant i was stood up for hours and lifting volumes of liquid

and i kept taking breaks but all in all i found the day very exhausting

i still have more acid and chemicals to make up would you believe

i was ready to leave

i was very pleased with my low anxiety levels but disappointed at my stamina

but jack said its my second day back in almost 2 months and not to beat myself up

on the way back we picked up our new towels from dunelm click and collect

then we went home to go collect mum's kitchen table chair as mum sent us a txt today to say jack's new £300 gaming chair had arrived. so mum's kitchen table chair was of no use to us. we dropped the chair off and picked up his. i say picked up. it did take two of us as the box weighed 30kg....

it was a bloody beast i was like "you ordered a throne or something?!" 

we picked up Oz as well and brought him home

then jack spent the next hour putting his new throne. sorry, chair together

its a beast

i mean it is very very nice but my god its just massive in everyway

hes very pleased and i was happy that he had brought himself something for a change instead of never spending his money really

his side of the study is very pink, i need to take a photo really

the packaging to the chair was immense i havent seen something so well through about for some time, i feel half the money went to the packaging but its all part of the experience i guess. its made by SecretLab and its a limited edition Overwatch one. so its bright pink with a bunny on it...course it is

after dinner which i threw a paddy about as it was taking too long and it was hurting me to keep standing, i had Oz out for a fuss and a play he was a happy boy

now doing diary then i will go have a soak in the bath and chill out a bit i think as i feel quite mental with life right now. then we will watch inuyasha and go bed i suppose

tomorrow i am getting up and taking my laptop over to mum's as i said i would be in the house whilst she out in case her tiles are delivered as we never got any time frame for ours and she hasnt for hers so it could come whilst shes out for 2 hours. so i will work from my old bedroom and then when shes back  i might use her shower :D then just work rest of the day i guess

not going into school til next wednesday

had an actual bath

 Evening

all despite shedding tears as I was in that much pain last night, i did get some sleep

We got up and after I said morning to matt I went over to mum's at 8:45am for a shower

i came back and made soup with Jack who was not feeling so great after his flu jab yesterday 

hes been headachy and off all day :/

after lunch I went for a walk in the rain with mum which i did enjoy and i think she did also

I came home and sanded down my dressing table, did some jobs and rested

in the evening we had our pulled pork on cobs with wedges, it was all homemade and very very good but i was spitting into the toilet 10mins after id eaten -_____- this paleo diet is ever looming on me as I am sick of putting up with my stomach and extra pain

After dinner and after I had recovered, I had my first bath in 6months and it was just amazing

i feel like I have had shed loads of pain relief, my muscles are relaxed and i just feel so much better it was just amazing. that bath really does do what it says on the tin, it retains it's heat! i was very hot, i had such a strong heart beat, my feet were pink and it was the most circulation i had had in months

i am very happy. it feels like christmas, but better

jack had the bath after me and was practically falling asleep in it, hes really happy with it

i will be having a bath before work tomorrow!

yes i am going work tomorrow which i am trying not to think about too much as it makes my stomach flip.

the bath is in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Konbanwa~

Me and Jack managed to watch an episode of inuyasha I even had hot chocolate :D

I got off to sleep well enough but woke up to turn on ether side as my ribs hurt, then jack got up for a wee and it woke me up and then I needed a wee too >< but I actually managed to get off back to sleep much to my surprise!

I got up at 7:25am in thinking we would have the electrician and matt over in the morning

but nether showed up :/

I left at 9am to go for a walk with mia which was really nice and we laughed loads, Rob has just made her a Steam account and shes been playing anime dating games XD trust her

I got back and collected jack so we could go over to mum's for a shower

we sat had a brew with her then came home for lunch, when we arrived we realised matt was over

and so was the bath! and I can confirm bath number 3 is in! thank bloody god. I can tell matt is relieved as well as he said he is 5 days behind where he would like to be

we had lunch, i fell asleep, I got up and did some actual work then took jack to my doctors so he could have a check up and be fully signed in at the surgery, he came back to the car saying whilst the nurse did his check up she gave him a flu jab, he wasnt please XD

we came home and I did more work and matt left around 4:30pm, mum popped over around 5pm on a surprise visit as she was doing her walk so i showed our bath. she was happy for us

also whats good is that shes been able to order the white version of our red tile. 

she left and I did a bit more of my science drawing before i made dinner which was tuna pasta. Which I can safely say killed my stomach off. I was in a ball on the sofa after that one

that diet is ever looming on me. 

jack sat with me, he was txtin his family who sent him a video of a white cat they are thinking of rehoming from RSPCA ^^ they obviously miss queenie.  so that was quite cute I hope they get it.

We sat with Oz who was doing daft jumps round the living room X3 happy bunny. thats the 3rd time he has been inside with us today bless him he loves it. 

Now just doing my diary and gonna do a bit more of my drawing as I did feel guilty not working as much during my working hours, heres how far i am

shes looking alright i guess

tomorrow

I CAN HAVE A BATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my god i can not wait. i heard matt filling the bath up today and I was so happy, my body longed to be in water and i think i would have got in the bath, clothed and all, given the chance

so yeah getting up early in the morning and having a bath before matt comes :D

then working from home really, said to mum might do a walk with her in the afternoon.

acquired my dressing table

 Konbanwa~

Last night did not go well for me

I was alone as Jack was gaming online with harvey and theo which is fair enough, I had my normal night routine and went to bed reading in the cold bedroom. I couldnt sleep tho as I had such awful stomach ache. I mean I had stomach ache from eating my dinner but it just got progressively worse I was just tossing and turning in bed trying to find a comfy position to lay on. It got to 11pm and Jack came down and saw me, said he was having a quick break. I said I was cold and he put the heating on which helped then he went to game again. I got up in the end and took pain killers that rotted my stomach and I just felt like death, laying for an hour on the living room floor. Thinking quite dark thoughts...by 1:30am I got up and then jack appeared. I just walked past him and went to bed. I slept then but it was because I had pain killers and a sleeping tablet. I woke up at 9am so  I was late for Oz

All the morning I had lost the will to live. Lost the ability to care. I just wanted to curl up and forget the day, the world. But I knew I couldnt. So I got dressed and me and jack went food shopping which was nice and quiet. We got back and I let Jack unpack I just crawled up on the bed, i was cold and low.

He came and read next to me, he knows when not to pester me and just let me be as I work my way through it eventually.

We had lunch then went over to mum's for a shower

Mum came back with dad and I told jack he could go home as I would go collect my dressing table with my parents. So he went and i went to lay on the sofa, mum came to sit next to me and I just started crying. Well not crying as such, just tears were flowing. Mum said "is that how you feel?" she hugged me and said "I could tell you weren't right" we just sat talking about houses, relationships, life. You know - the usual XD I just let the tears flow. I felt a bit better.

Then at 3:45pm we set off in dad's van to go collect the dressing table

we found it really easily and the guy was really nice ^^ he helped us get it in dad's van

I was well impressed with it. I havent had a proper look as we came and dropped it off into the garage and it is rather cold in there >< however I plan on working on it in there for the start as I have got to sand it down a bit. I should take before and after photos huh

I stayed home then and talked to jack a bit, he had been working on admin for the house whilst I had been out. We sat with Oz in the living room with a brew. 

Then I made us noodles and we sat watching Shakugan no shana, so I feel a bit more in a routine. Now I am doing my diary whilst jack is gaming behind me. He will be gaming for a while

My evening is going to consist of me doing some yoga with Ozwald and fussing him, then I will do my nails and maybe do some drawing? Not entirely sure about the drawing bit I will see how I feel.

but I certainly need to do stretching as I havent done any exercise. I wasnt feeling it and wasnt in the mood ether to get cold.

so yeah I guess I will pass the evening somehow!

Tomorrow I am hoping to go on a dog walk with mia, I was able to go on a walk with her last monday and it really did me some good actually so i am hoping we can do the same again. Then I will go to mum's for a shower and then I guess do some actual work! I have scientists to draw you know.

I have asked jack if he will make the soup for lunch whilst I am out.

we should have both matt and the electrician over tomorrow. So depending on the noise level i might work at mum's, not sure yet. I cant always leave jack here it doesnt feel fair but depends what I can cope with. After the working hours are up I hope to make a bit of a start on my dressing table :D be nice to do something creative that isnt digital drawing

I hope i sleep tonight, everything is much worse and harder to handle when youre shattered and in pain -_____-

won my dressing table

 Evening

I had a bad night, after I had watched Inuyasha with Jack we went to bed and he cuddled me ^^

which i was glad of as the room was bloody freezing. God that bedroom is cold. The bedsheets actually feel damp when you get in. I cant wait to change the radiator in there!

I kept waking up, a lot of the time to the sound of jack clamping his teeth together and grinding them, which isnt like him, yes he does the odd clamp down but he doesnt grind. I wasnt sure whether to wake him up or not. then at 3am I woke up to it AND needed a wee so I got up and I was up then, pain killers and such followed and at 3:30am jack got up to me. I sat with him I had a cup of tea and cereal XD had my breakfast at 4am really! We put the heating on as the house was just so cold! 

I woke up at 9am, I had had a dream where mia had lost her two dogs and I went out searching for them and turned into a wolf (its always a wolf) and went seeking them out, found them and was having a playful dog fight with them, then a big wolf came over and started to try and mate with me, so naturally i wasnt having any of this and put him in his place. This turned into a proper wolf fight -____-

I always dream about this kinda thing ><

but this morning I felt kind of out of it, like I hadnt taken my antidepressant when I know I had. I kept popping into the bedroom to see how Jack was and he was just groan my name...so I left him to it and went to mum's for a shower. I rang jack afterwards and he had only just got up....really enjoyed a lay in huh. But I was glad I had left him to it instead of getting him up. 

I came back home after I had sat with Ozwald

me and jack had fruit loaf for lunch then went for a walk. I wanted to do a big walk but my body wasnt up for doing such a task >.> 

when we came back I crawled to my bed, but got up at 2:30pm to bid for my dressing table which I can safely say I won! got it for £52! well happy

then I just laid around I felt really down and wanted my Oz who was still at my parents house. Jack was gaming he did come into check on me and tried to motivate me and offer to do things with me but i just didnt want any of it i just needed to be alone in a way. 

Later we decided to pop out to the shop for a few bits but also for some paint so i can redecorate the dressing table as I want it bright colours and covered in manga pages. 

from there I let jack drive us to my parents house as he hasnt driven in about 2 weeks so we both thought he needs to keep the practice up even if it was only a 5min drive.

when we got there jack had a shower, I saw Oz and then I helped with dinner, had dinner, sat with Oz and had some cake mum had made in the afternoon, then we came home with Ozwald. Jack practically ran off to go start his computer up as I said to him he might as well go game on his saturday night as I am never up for much really. Im tired and not in the mood to do a lot at night. I function in the morning and it seems unfair making him go to bed early on weekend with me. So he is up there gaming and I am just doing my diary alone in the living room. fun. its 9:30pm so I will probably take my meds and go to bed.

Tomorrow

think we are doing our weekly sunday shop

then I will go to mum and dad's for a shower, the novelty has truly worn off XD then unsure what we will do the rest of the day really. Nothing planned. Its cold and muddy everywhere, shops arent open to browse round and you cant see anyone. it is a very dull, long, hard winter.

im hoping tomorrow my dad will go with me to fetch this dressing table as i need his van, i dont think it will fit in my car...

Out of date sleeping tablets work!

 Konbanwa~~

Evening all~

Last night I discovered in my parents medicine cupboard a.k.a. my old drug spot, a packet of Nightol it had gone out of date last May but meh who was I to judge. So I decided to have one cus I was desperate to sleep and would literally try anything. I went to bed at 9pm and it didnt take me long to get to sleep. Next thing I knew I woke up cus I could hear noise downstairs and I thought "what could be making that sound in these hours?" I thought it was like 2am. But noticed I could hear the radiator one so it must be pass 6am. I looked at my clock and it was 7:20am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had slept through the night!!! So the noise I could hear was dad downstairs. But it only felt like I had been a sleep a few hours. Must have been a good proper deep sleep. I felt soooo much better for it too!

I caught Oz playing in the remnants of the snow this morning XD

Mum went for a walk with a friend and was gone a while. I had a shower then started to work on my next scientist. I made a good dent in it as I struggled with the start

I was also struggling to sit, i was aching and felt like i needed to move around, I didnt want to leave the house without mum coming back so I waited and when I heard her voice outside I got my coat on and got ready to go a walk with Jack. We walked over an hour in the cold >< I was quite done in afterwards to be honest. It took a while to thaw out as well. I had tea cake and a brew when I came in.

The afternoon consisted of me drawing and also looking online

I ended up buying a fox mosaic mirror potentially for the bathroom, if it goes then it is going in there but not sure if it will go yet cus its a bit unusual. I dont want my bathroom to be traditional but i also want things to go and look good. But this mirror caught my eye and if it doesnt go in there i will have it in my craft room. Speaking of my craft room, i havent designed how I want it yet but I do know that I want a dressing table in there as thats the only place I will have to do my make up and hair - when those days come back as I havent bothered once since corona! 

So I had a look online and I have found a solid oak dressing table in my area for only £18 (current bid) theyre usually £200 new. This one is far from new but I showed it mum and jack and said I would love to do it up and have it all bright colours and maybe put manga pages on it or something. They support it and it comes off tomorrow at 2:30pm I hope  I win it as it will be good to have a project to work on.

Jack came over and we had a brew then I booted him in the shower. We talked a bit and then had dinner. Sat with Oz then we have come home! I have returned home! Without Oz tho, he's coming back tomorrow. Tonight me and jack are gonna watch Inuyasha with hot chocolate and go bed.

Tomorrow, in the morning I am going over to mum's for a shower, as yes I forgot to mention! The 2nd bath turned up today and matt opened it upon delivery and noticed that this one too was marked!!! how annoying and unfortunate is that!? matt was fuming. rightly so as the bath is the starting point he literally cant do anything without that bath. A new one wont be here til monday. meaning we wont be able to wash here for a few more days :/ 

so yeah I am going over to mums for a wash then unsure what I am doing after that it depends on the weather. But in the evening we are having dinner over at mum's so  I am bringing Oz back with me then. 

On other news I believe I have knocked my jaw out of alignment once again. But on the other side. My left jaw is very painful to eat on and to open my jaw fully to yawn. Last time nigel used acupuncture to put it back in which was a huge relief. But nigel is abroad T^T

it might be better tomorrow? who knows

just more to pain to put up with. I still have a bit of stomach ache when I eat and my nails I realised today have got ridges in them. Just like they did when I was really poorly so that somewhat depressed me. 

Finished Mendeleev

 Konbanwa~~

i couldnt sleep last night, despite having a hot chocolate before bed and putting my plushies back on my bed. I just couldnt switch off. My mind was going and in turn that was making my heart beat out of rhythm. So once I heard my parents come to bed at 11:30pm I decided to get up for a bit. I overdosed as I fed up and went to bed just before 1am

Next thing I knew it was 9:30am 0.0 jeez that is late!! Mum left  me a txt message saying "you were sleeping really deeply, didnt want to wake you" glad she didnt actually as it was nice to sleep through the night even if i was late to bed.

There wasnt anything good in for breakfast :/ so i went without

then decided I wanted to dance, as it was snowing outside so yeah I knew I wasnt going to bed getting a walk in today so I danced and did a bit of stretching/yoga. Did this for 40mins. I was dripping with sweat as usual. I video called jack whilst sweaty and when he picked up the phone i shouted "Jo is sweaty!" he was like "I just answered the phone right near matt" XD all well 

Mum came home and I made her a brew then went for a much needed shower.

I had left over spaghetti bolognaise for lunch which was good.

Been working on my Mendeleev picture today and finally got it finished!!!!

Woop another old scientist done. Doing some Dorothy woman tomorrow.

But I am pleased with how it turned out. I used a few elements in the periodic table to secretly spell 'teach'

 

After I had been working on my picture, and the snow wasnt letting up, i went outside with Ozwald for a quick play in the snow. We were outside for 15 mins. He was all giddy and cute and enjoyed himself then sat on the wall and started cleaning his feet then he just stared at me. I took that as Oz having enough of the cold wet snow. I brought him in and warmed him up and I had a hot chocolate next to him.

Later on I walked over to the bungalow, surprising Jack as he didnt know I was coming over. He had cleaned the living room and done a great job ^^ I was pleased with it and with him. The bath was suppose to go in today but it arrived with a mark on it which isnt noticeable really, but I guess when youre paying all that money and looking at it for 10+ years, you want it right. So its going back and hopefully a new one will turn up tomorrow! but matt couldnt do anymore and went home at like 11am must be annoying for him. Jack got his stuff ready and we walked in the snow back to mums, he asked why i didnt drive and i said "i enjoyed the time outside with Oz its nice making the most of the snow and getting some air when youve been in front of a screen so long"

when we got to mum's we had a cup of tea to warm up, my trainers were soaked XD but luckily i wasnt soaked as mum made me wear her coat :3 jack then went for a shower and i helped with the dinner.

after dinner jack left pretty quickly for his gaming night

i went to B&Q with mum and dad to look at stuff but we werent impressed and soon came away. We basically got cold for no reason! and now I just washed my face and massaged my face with my new vibrator XD haha it came today and it really rattles your skull! but i am hoping it helps with circulation in my face and my dark circles. I can try. Mum got hers today and had a go and she enjoyed using it on her face and said it hurt her a bit but maybe she was pressing on too hard? 

I am gonna get Oz now and then go bed. Have my last night here, hopefully.

I dont care which house, just as long as I sleep!! T^T 

Could have a bath by friday!?

 Evening

Once again I didn't sleep through the night! It's so annoying, my sleeping has gone tits up >.>

Woke up at 1:30am and had to get up due to aching and feeling sick and needing a wee

This morning after I showered I got on with my work

I was going to go for a walk with Jack but it has rained ALL day

We popped down to B&Q for something for matt and to look at mirrors

as I was offered to have an LED mirror in the bathroom, I have never seen one in action so wondered if any was out on display. But no :/ showrooms arent open ether to go and view. I have no idea why you cant walk round their showroom but you can walk round their shop? does Covid prefer showrooms?

We got back to mum's and had lunch then I took Jack back over to the bungalow to work. I did 40mins of yoga as my joints needed to move >< then I had a rest and then continued with my drawing. Jack came over for a shower and dinner then I took him home, collected some more clothes and medication. 

Matt has told us we could be using our bath potentially on friday! This friday I could be having an actual bath!! *0* be a dream. My house is a mess. When I went over for Jack this morning I did find him cleaning the kitchen. He cleaned the surfaces, hoovered and then mopped the floor. He is keen to have me back home. He knows its stressing me out. I try not to even think about it but when I see it all like that its hard. My breathing instantly changed to the anxiety breathing when I got back to mums. I got annoyed and frustrated as its not fair, its amazing tho what control the brain has over the body.

As for the mirrors, we had a look online tonight at mirrors and I can not get over how expensive these lit up mirrors are. I havent got my hearts set on one and would be quite happy not to have one as I feel it becomes a feature of the room, when ours will just be placed next to the radiator simply to be used when I putting creams on my face :/ also it said that some are dazzling bright, some dont stop the 'anti-fog' so are constantly warm therefor burning electricity, some are motion sensored so they will come on all the time when you just pop in for a wee. I am not excited by them in the slightest. and someone please tell me why some have bluetooth!?  

I have said to Jack I will probably be back home with him on Friday. Cus then we can bathe there and hopefully he would have tidied up a bit more by then. I think mum has brought enough food in tho to last us the week! so we will be eating here this week. I do want to go back as I think it will help me sleep and its my house ><

tomorrow probably just another day of working really :/ same old

here is how far I got with Mendeelev

Started Mendeelev

 Evening

to say I had my bed all to myself last night, I didnt sleep any better

it took me a while to get off to sleep cus it was weird not having Jack there, guess I have gotten used to having him there. When I did eventually sleep my mum had two night terrors so shes screaming her face off -_____- I got up at 12:30am for a wee. Then woke up at 3:30am for another wee! So annoying! I was aching and didnt hold out a lot of hope for being able to get off to sleep but I did and mum woke me up at 8:45am, I was having a dream about being in a castle with other girls, we were to be ether brides or food for vampires in the castle, i was determined to escape. Mum woke me before I could escape >.>

I showered the sheer amount of sweat off me from the night, then I got to work, started my next picture which is Mendeleev, I have been working on him most of the day and got the outline finished

He's gonna be holding in his hand 3 periodic table squares which will make the word 'teach' Jack thinks I have done a great job, and mum thinks so too she said it made a change for me to draw a guy. I always draw girls! this is true X3

At 11:30am I walked over to the bungalow to go and inspect my workmen workmanship

it was good to see both matt and the electrician there. Matt was doing an amazing job and I talked to him about radiators, toilet roll holders, mirrors, who is getting what, what i need to get. Mum says I am right project manager XD I need to get hold of a toilet roll holder and a mirror. I can have a mirror with built in lights! i mentioned a blind cus i know jack will want one but i dont. so he can source that if he wants one. im hoping he will just forget about it tho.

The electrician was doing well, he said he just needed to get the living room and kitchen done then he would have sorted out all the lighting. But he wont be back now til monday. But we have stuff up and running for now :)

my house is a TIP. it is a sodding mess. I tried not to look. tried not to let it get to me.

me and jack went for a walk after all that and i was struggling to breathe,, i couldnt take a full breath in for whatever reason. I was panting like a dog. I got back to mum's and she commented on my breathing and I told her I just cant breathe, she said that it could be anxiety and stress. I know I get like this at school so yeah it could be anxiety and stress.

we had lunch together then Jack left to be at the bungalow. I stayed here and worked on my picture. i asked jack to put my marie curie picture on the science what's app group and all the science staff loved my picture :D they said how talented i was ^^

Jack came over for food and stayed a bit just for a catch up and a cuddle then I let him go as i knew he had gaming to attend to as I had said to him he may as well game tonight as I am gonna stay here again tonight as I think the stress of seeing the house the way it is, isnt good for me right now. So just gonna have another night here. But we will be showering and eating here for the rest of the week. Mum wants to do this for us so we dont stress. or me stress

So he's gone to game and all i have is my drugs to get me through the evening. I just dont want to think or feel. I just want to sleep. need sleep

tomorrow

probably go down to B&Q with jack for a mirror. maybe go for a walk then keep working I guess. I havent got much else going off.

on the plus side we have had the tiles delivered, the shower, the units and taps. So stuff is starting to come in and matt can get on with stuff

Marie Curie Done

 Evening

I woke up at 12:30am for a sodding wee, luckily I managed to sleep again, cramped up to Jack in the single bed. But woke up at 4:30am covered in sweat, needing a wee and a good stretch cus my god my joints were aching! So I was downstairs by myself, finally falling asleep at 6am and being woken up at 7:30am by my day blasting out videos on the computer as he still hasnt been able to grasp the volume control. Or fast forwarding videos for that matter

 -_____- I was shattered

This morning I started walking to Mia's parents house with Jack and we met her and walked to the bungalow, Jack said as he arrived that the tiles were being delivered which was good timing! He continued to stay there if there was any problems but it was freezing. I went for a good walk with Mia and her dogs which was nice and very much needed i have to say. Need to talk to a female

I let mia get off and I phoned Jack to say I was walking home and asked him what was the point in him being in the house and he did eventually decide to come back to mum's. He was frozen. He said the house is so cold. Poor house. I warmed him up with a mocha and I went for a shower to warm myself up!

We worked from home, fussed pets and things and then Jack had to go over to the bungalow but due to dosing myself up a lot i was not fit to do anything but lay on my bed and sleep. I was so tired.

when i woke up jack had returned from the bungalow and sorted stuff out. I had a cup of tea to try wake myself up a bit. Jack talked to me about the house.

Then I went to work on my picture for a bit for work, determined to get it finished but we broke off for dinner. Jack went to fetch milk from the shop I didnt want to go walk in the cold. When he came back he gathered his stuff and I gave him a lift to the bungalow. As basically power is back on for now. So we have heating. But due to the house not having heating for 4 days in winter it has gotten quite cold and damp and we have crap old radiators so its gonna take a few days for it to feel normal again, plus there will be a shed load of dust and mess. I decided to be selfish and have another day at my parents house as I need to warm, comfortable and not stressed at the sheer amount of mess my house has become. Jack said it wasnt being selfish, that I need to look after myself. He will be coming over for lunch and dinner and a shower anyway. He is simply going over so i can have a decent nights sleep as both him and mum are worried about my sleeping pattern going tits up. So he is alone in the bungalow but its probably for the best that someone is there.

Its just me and my chunk of a rabbit ^^ mummy has me all to herself :)

When I dropped Jack off, I felt bad for not doing all my working hours today so I have worked into my evening and got my first scientist finished! Marie Curie, I drew her holding radiative something

Next i have the old dude who invented the periodic table or something. he has a big beard anyway >.> I shall have fun drawing that -_____-

I managed to order a few things online for my brother's birthday in february. Mum's birthday present has arrived today so I just need to make her a card now :D 

its all guinea pig themed, the scarf with guinea pigs on that came today is so soft! knowing her she wont want to use it!

tomorrow

I will be here working, Jack will come over for lunch and then ether go back to the bungalow or stay with me or i might even pop over. Depending on the state of the bungalow depends if i stay over for the night as well. See how things are first.

Vibrator

 Evening

I slept better, I woke up at 1am for a wee and thought I wouldnt be able to sleep again after that but I managed to! I was much relieved when I woke up but I was also very crippled.

I felt tired this morning but kept going. Went for a shower and then did 40mins of yoga which did help to loosen things up a bit. Then I think I pretty much went back to bed for a nap

When I woke up we had lunch then Jack and Dad went to do a tip run as we had about 30 bags full of old bathroom tiles in our garage to get rid off plus all the old bathroom stuff, old tv cabinet as well. I went for a walk with mum which was nice and we popped into the bungalow for a couple of things and also so she could see my bare bathroom, we had a brew together when we got back to her house.

Then I looked at skin care on behalf of my mum as she wanted something for fine lines around her eyes -_____- so I did that for her and talked to her about vibrating massages for the face and that I was thinking of getting one to help with circulation. I am not having acupuncture treatments from nigel right now so my circulation has gotten much worse so I will try anything to improve it. My face stings when I am out in the cold but Jack's or mum's when I walk with them and my nose drips like a tap. So yeah I will try anything. It made me laugh when we were looking at these facial vibrating massage things online, just me and mum, jack walked in and mum said "jo is just ordering me a vibrator" XD

I also ordered a 60litre bin for £70 which is mega expensive for a bin but it is the same brand as mum's Brabantia,  i think thats its name. shes had hers for like 15 years and its still working and robust its a damn sturdy bin and our kitchen bin is driving me scranny, it does not function well for us at all and its even started to get on jack's nerves! so i announced i was buying a bin even if i have to pay for it alone!!

the cheapest one tho was bright red XD so it will look like we have a post box in our kitchen XD

after dinner I convinced jack to ask theo and harvey if they wanted to game online with him tonight as I dont have anything to do with him tonight and it might help him chill out a bit as i can tell he is feeling out of sorts. So he is currently on my bed gaming with theo and harvey :) 

tomorrow

I am gonna go for a walk round here with Mia and her furry children.

Jack will be going to the bungalow to talk to matt for whatever reason and to wait in for the tiles to be delivered. I have told him that matt can be in for that but he seems to want to be at the bungalow tomorrow even tho there will be no electricity or heating. Dad is setting up a generator for matt to use. thank god. so our bathroom can kinda go ahead right now.

After my walk I will be home working on my anime scientists. 

here is how far i am with my hammington picture

Returned back to mummy's

 Evening

So much happened yesterday.

I was at mum's, working from home with Jack. Dad phoned me to say the electricians would be over for a few hours so not to bother going home as we would have no electric or heating. So fair enough kinda thing. We stayed and worked from home. I was still working on my marie curie picture and this is how far I got.

I sent it to the teacher and she loved it ^^

Later on at 5pm we decided to grab Ozwald and go home. To find all our lights off, apart from a lamp on the kitchen with a child....

We walked in and there was just on electrician working with his 7 year old son. He said he couldnt get childcare since he finished school earlier. I said that it was fine, as it was. I did not mind a child in my house. The electrician said he was finishing up, so me and Jack kept the 7 year company. Which was fine and it was all a bit weird. Talking with a child in my house, in the dark. Time was getting on so we went to go see the electrician and he said it wasnt going well.

We had been warned that our house would need a full rewiring due to the wiring and fuse box being so old. We knew this when we brought the house. However we werent planning on fixing this issue til a few months in. As it costs money, as in a few thousands. The electrician couldnt even get the power on as every time he put on the new fuses they kept tripping out due to the electrics being so badly wired. Basically when our house was built, electricians didnt need to qualified...how worrying is that!? so people did anything with wires. We have several potential fire points in our wiring. It worries jack to death, I on the other hand try not to think too much about it. But being stood in my pitch black freezing home at 7pm last night and being told that, the house needs that rewiring NOW made me feel sick. Actually no i didnt feel sick. I felt NUMB. I couldnt feel the coldness of my house despite it being -2c outside and my heating had been off since 9:30am. I rang my mum and told her all this and she told me to just come home, not to get cold and stressed. The electrician said cus he's immigrating next month, he doesnt have any work in this month so he can do it. and felt awful for leaving us like this. So I am glad we have someone to do it for us, however it is going to cost he said at least £2500. and we are in the process of having our bathroom done, which again, is a few thousand T^T

why!?

so we all left the house, me and jack grabbed essentials and took s few bits out the fridge and freezer we wanted to keep but luckily there wasnt much left in there. We took over to mum's pizza out of freezer to eat for dinner and mum kindly cooked them. Oz was stressed he didnt understand what was happening bless him and that he would have to sleep in a different hutch tonight. his face said it all - pure confusion. I wanted him to be happy and not stressed.

I came into the living room where my dad had lit the log fire, i couldnt feel the heat. not cus i was cold but because i was numb. people were asking me if i was ok and i said i was ok. cus i felt nothing. weird how the brain works isnt it. me and jack set up my bedroom like old times XD and sat with Oz to see if he was ok and he had chilled out luckily.

My dad talked to us both about what is happening as the bathroom and electrics is being sorted by his mates so he is more in touch with them than us really. so glad its getting sorted. he seemed ok about it all and said we were in a good place as we can work from home, we have here to stay, we have money. life could be worse. yes it could. i had only moved out 3 weeks ago and now i am homeless, just seems unfair somehow

we went to bed together and god is it cramped in a single bed

at 3:30pm i woke up and felt crippled from being cramped up all night so i went downstairs to sleep but it was no better on there really. I was up at 7am, so managed to sleep from 5-7am.

I didnt do much this morning as I felt and looked like a zombie so I went back to bed.

we did a big a walk and we popped into the bungalow with a list of where we want plug sockets and such as now is the time to get extras fitted. but no one was there...the plasterer had been to do the bathroom but no electrician, despite jack paying him £500 last night up front for materials -_____-

it best get bloody done.

then I have rested today really as I havent been able to do much more

Oz is fine he happy

Jack, Jack is missing his home but said he was grateful for being able to come here. 

Tomorrow no plans really

suppose it depends how well i sleep

nothing we can do towards the house, its all in other people's hands

just cant believe we have nothing. no electric, heating or shower. 

we got the house to a good standard, to now not be able to live in it.