up from 2:55am

 Evening

Its only 4:40pm but I wanna get this outta the way

I played on my switch til 9:30pm but I was so tired. I didnt know when Jack came to bed

Last night I woke up at 2:55am as my stomach was not happy. I sat on the toilet but nothing happened - just pain. I was then sat in a ball on the sofa with the hot bag on my stomach listening to explosions happening in my intestines. God knows what was going off in there. My own WW3 I think. It was not pleasant. But because I was up for so long, I got hungry and had pain killers too, before I knew it I was no longer able to sleep - I did try going back to bed but I was just too awake by this point. So I got up and did some drawing. Got Oz in at 7am and woke Jack up at 8am. He said he went to bed at midnight.

This morning I cleaned my Oz out, cleaned his poos from the lounge, inside and out the garage. Jesus Oz theyre sodding everywhere >.> 

At 9:45am we went for a walk down the river. Which lead to a little forest trail too. It was soooooo quiet you could hear everything! It was really nice and enough of a walk without making me feel shattered.

We came back and had a cup of tea. Then we went outside with ozwald, I kept Jack company whilst he sorted a few bits in the garden. Oz was so interested!

We did lunch and had it with Oz, then I died with stomach pains. I laid on the bed with my hot bag and actually fell asleep an hour. I woke up and decided what nail art I wanna do tonight, I cleaned the bathroom and made biscuits. 

Going to start dinner soon~ Think Jack might garden a bit after dinner. It got really warm today but its cooling down now. 

Im gonna do my nails tonight and do a hair pack. 

Tomorrow

is weekly shop and bit of food prep and a work out. Think thats about all I gotta do. I have been for a walk today so Im not gonna work out. Body needs a bit of a rest. I am also quite tired now!!! Need actual sleep. I have no idea whats going off with my stomach lately tho.

glad its 3 day weekend

 Evening

I couldnt be bothered with this yesterday

yesterday was a long day, my stomach was off before school and it made me feel drained for hours after. Jack was late coming home, mum came to see me around 4ish for a brew. 

Today it was another morning of dying on the toilet. Maybe I've been more stressed than I thought I was, there has been more things happening lately, more stresses I didnt need.

I couldnt be bothered with school, wasnt in the mood for the pointless practicals and looking happy for people and talking to people nicely

I just about got through school. I was exhausted. I came home and mum came over with the girls. We had lunch then she gardened. Oz helped - of course he did. I talked to mum and I watered the gardened I also did odd things round the house. She had a cup of tea and left at 3. I then sat with my laptop then eventually started my next drawing. Starting is always the hardest part with me. I procrastinate so much but on day 4 of putting off I finally made a start XD

Jack came home and I did the dinner. then did a work out and had a bath, he hasnt got gaming tonight but is playing with Theo online instead. He did ask me and I said he could. So ether way I spend friday nights by myself I guess. Im never up to much in the evenings so I always say to him if he gets a better offer than me he should go. I am with Oz, he can keep me company

tomorrow

its a bank holiday weekend woop. It means you get an extra day off but also means everywhere busy! as saturday looks the best day weather wise, we said we might go for a walk down the river then we have bits and pieces to do. We may go for a walk and go for cake and have a picnic outside

Shiny Slush Puppy Haunter

 Evening

Forgot to do my diary til late last night so I left it

But yesterday I hadnt slept that great so all day I couldnt think straight. I had to get up and stuff cus I was aching and stressing about work. The day actually went fine. I came home and started on outlining my painting and making a card for Jack's nan who is having an operation on thursday.

I woke up drenched in sweat. Jesus. I had to peal my pyjama bottoms off to go for a wee when I woke up. It was bad. I had dreamed about my dead aunty. God knows why. Never think about the woman. So I felt grim this morning I have to say.

School was ok really nothing special. It feels to good to be getting bacteria out the way I have to say. Slowly classes are getting ticked off. Bacteria is growing too. I have done a good job!

I came home to find mummy gardening. She had done so much she is like an actual machine. we need to pull our weight with gardening this weekend! 

She said Oz was really helping her, scurring the mud and eating weeds and sitting on her spade. She says its such lovely company. He is lovely. He kept checking on the girls as mum had put them in my garden pen. I finished the card for Jack's Nan, I think she will like it. I finished my painting to which mum said she would like it X3 thats fine. I had no plans for it and wasnt that fussed about it really. so she can have it next time I see her.

I did a few jobs this afternoon and had a half hour nap on the bed as I was so drained. Jack was home late again. Yesterday he was late as he popped in a shop and got chatting to someone he knew there. Tonight he just did badly with buses. I had brought him some fake grass for his warhammer models as I surprise. Just cus I thought they looked cute and I want to show I support his hobby even tho I have no clue about it!

After dinner I did yet another work out. Then had a bath. Not sure if I will do any drawing or not. I did finish my Haunter picture the other day. Its quite funky. I had found out shiny Haunter has a blue tongue and it reminded me of when you had Slush Puppy as a kid and it turned your tongue blue so I did a Haunter holding a Slush Puppy. Random I know!

tomorrow is school and it looks like it could be a quieter day - do I dare say??

Mum isnt coming over cus shes got an appointment. So it will be a long afternoon by myself but thats fine it will give me time to work on Jack's birthday painting. He will be late home AGAIN tomorrow as science department is getting together 3:45pm to have tea and cake to say goodbye to a science teacher - a chemist - so hes going to that. Im not as I will be long gone by that point!

massive anxiety before monday morning work

 Evening

I slept pretty well last night and woke up 10mins before my alarm so I laid there a little bit then cuddled Jack to wake him up. He says its a great way to be woken up ^^

My anxiety was through the roof this morning

good god

I had to get rid of my stomach content so I was stuck on the toilet just before leaving the house which made us 20mins late for work :( I was dying and sat with hot bag on my stomach on the drive in.

At school I was shaking and felt sick. Amazing what school does to me!

I was stressed out as the door keeping my bacteria in, the battery had gone on the automatic door lock. Meaning I couldnt get in. Meaning I couldnt get on with my day and start growing new bacteria. I didnt need all this and was on the verge of tears.

head of science came in and asked how stuff was going. I said "its horrendous as Im trying to fit 8 hours in 4 hours" he just said "well I have a meeting with Jack in a minute so Ill talk to him" hes not bothered.

I ended up being to talked to by a lot of people today. Time I couldnt afford to give to people but i gave it and ended up not being able to finish all my tasks today. I think I would have got them done if not for the huge delay in getting into the room. Julia had tried the door several times throughout the morning as its next to her prep room. She managed to get in by fluke and gave me a ring so I went up for my bacteria! the door has been fixed but it just offset my whole morning. It was good to see people.

I came home

exhausted

my mum came over to have lunch, she had brought us yet more garden plants and my parcels. We sat and had lunch with Ozwald. I seem to have all my meals with that loaf.

I tried to not go to bed but I felt so drained. I hadnt had the best starts to the day what with anxiety. Then stressing and rushing at work. I think I just had nothing more to give. So I was in bed for 90mins. I got up and did a bit of painting but I didnt feel very productive with my time off. But I have to accept I am poorly and I will get days like this and this why I am part time. I cant think of as not being productive enough I need to think of it as rest my body clearly needs.

I started the dinner as it would take 40mins to cook and I knew Jack would be home shortly

dinner was good and after dinner I did a 20min work out another grow with jo. It was enough. Jack told me not to push myself so I didnt do a 30min one just 20min but yeah it was enough

I had a bath now doing my diary.

Might do some drawing not sure yet

probably watch anime and switch in bed

tomorrow is school and yet more bacteria -____________________-

Jack's warhammer pics

 Evening

I was so shattered yesterday

I was in bed at 8:45pm, Jack was gaming online with Chris and friends

I fell asleep at 10pm after playing on my switch an hour.

I woke up at midnight to feel eyes on me. It was Jack coming to bed. I had fallen asleep in my usual position on my side of the bed. How the hell did I end up facing the other way totally sprawled out like Id been hit by a car!? so Jack could actually get into the bed XD he said he came in, realised what position I was in, and gonna go sleep on the sofa. But I had woke up. So I let him into bed.

I then woke up 45mins later and yeah, couldnt get off again. I was up til almost 2. I had pain killers and a biscuit. 

I woke up at 7:45am. I was shattered but needed to get up. Jack made me breakfast which was fruit loaf XD It was good ^^ been having yogurt and cereal for a while now.

We had a lazy morning with Ozwald then we went and did our food shop we were like ninjas! 

We got back and had a brew then I prepped meat and made biscuits.

we had lunch on time then after lunch we both went to do painting!

I painted a picture of flowers and cacti its still not finished. Jack did warhammer painting. He finished one person the other day and I offered to take photos and edit them a bit as Jack sucks at taking photos and he took me up on the offer

I  did some digital drawing.  then did the dinner. I then did a 40min work out. I feel like I have done a good work out. I have been eating so much chocolate from easter each day. So doing a work out doesnt make me feel 100% guilty for eating bad foods. I had a bath and now just sitting with a sheet mask on whilst I do my diary. 

I might get round to doing some more digital drawing before bed.

Once Jack is out the bath we will watch anime and go bed to play on switchs. 

I might need to water the garden as well actually :/ 

tomorrow

is school T^T soon comes round doesnt it. I will be able to see if my bacteria has grown or not. I still have bacteria work to do as well. I cant tell you how many hours it takes me. Mum says she will see me for lunch.

Didn't do my CV but Jack did his

 Evening

Jack came to bed at 10:45pm. But didnt matter all that much as I was enjoying playing on my switch. I slept through the night and woke up at 7:30am

I had a slow morning as I was bit like death from reflex. However I seem to be coping much better this time round on my new inhaler.

I cleaned Oz out and was about to wash my face when mummy pulled up out front!

she had bought us a couple of cheap garden plants and some flowers for me ^^ she stayed and had a cup of tea with us then left

Jack went upstairs to do his CV I did go to start mine but word was playing up and wouldnt save so I gave up and I havent found a job I want to apply to anyway. Jack said he would type mine up sometime.

We had lunch then I laid on my bed an hour

I think I would have wasted my day but Jack said we would go for a walk but I didnt want to take him away from his CV. He said fresh air would be good

We did a good walk and I was exhausted. I was glad I did it and meant I didnt need to do any exercise later on. We had a cup of tea then Jack went to finish his CV and apply for the job.

I rang my brother, cleaned the bathroom and did the dinner. Then I watered the garden with Oz. I could see he was hungry so I bought him in for food as I knew he would just savage plants >.> hes so happy hes just ate, drank, and flopped on plush pad. What a life.

I had a bath, Jack is in the  bath then hes going to play online board games with Chris and crew. They couldnt meet up this time so everyone said to play online

so friday and saturday night I am alone

i can cope

I will do my nails later and play on my switch in bed

tomorrow

got food shop then a lot of food cooking to do!

Think we'll do CVs tomorrow

 Evening

I slept ok once I got off. It was the getting off that was the problem. 

Jack was a bit flat this morning, said he didnt want to go school, wanted to call up sick, didnt want to game tonight. He just hates his job and its getting him down. I can see it is

We got to school and I was once again trying to fit 8 hours in 4. I did so much. I was exhausted. Its impressive how much I can achieve.

I came home to find mummy gardening. She had done 2 hours of weeding T^T shes amazing.  I hope her back is ok tomorrow. Shes done a fantastic job! She came inside with me and Oz and I ate my lunch and she had a brew before going home for her own lunch. she had brought Jack a Pina Colada cider to try,

When she left I got my painting out once again, its slowly coming together. I then did a work out for 35mins which was good and then I had a bath, Jack came home and had a quick bath, we had dinner then I had to go for reflex at 6pm. Jack had the cider with dinner and really enjoyed it. Reflex was so relaxing. But charlotte said the whole time I was laid out my lips were pale. But over all I am improving by the look of my feet anyway! She said I had a lump in my stomach which is mostly caused by stress - work im guessing

I came home and got Oz out. Having some quiet time with the lad before I go into bed on my switch. I think I will just play quietly in bed. I am too tired to do much else!

tomorrow

weekend woohoo! Not having to wake at 6:15am!! 

think were both gonna do CVs, gardening,  got Oz to clean out and shopping list to do.

starting my new inhaler again tonight.

first week back after easter had been awful

Cried already at work even tho Im part time!

 Evening

Last night we found out that Jack didnt get the job he interviewed for during easter holidays

I could tell he was disappointed. I feel bad for him but getting a new job is NOT that easy. Yes his current job has been his only job and only place he interviewed for. He practically walked into it. Hes never experienced how job hunting truly is. Me on the other hand - Ive had shed loads of interviews! 

I did feel for him tho as I could he was disappointed

I laid awake in bed thinking about careers for us both and money

im quite stressed out if I am honest

I had anxiety on the journey to school

I broke down in tears around 9:30am at school

I am expected to some how do 8 hours work in 4 hours

i mean we are already doing the work of another person due to school being to tight to high more technicians. We should have 2 more technicians to match the amount of hours of science practicals we do. And now cus of me we have got to do even more work

I broke down

I feel more miserable, unsupported, exploited and stressed than I did before becoming part time. The amount of work  HAS NOT CHANGED and yet I am expected to it? I am gonna make myself so sick in not much time. Honestly today, if I could afford it, I would have handed my notice in then and there. Jack was cut up about it all. Its obviously not nice seeing your loved one so upset but he also feels a bit responsible as hes my line manager.

So we sat down and said that the amount of practical hours has got to match with our technician hours. Julia had 16 washing up bowls of washing up on her prep room floor as she had refused to stay hours late after her shift (no over time paid)  to wash up, she usually does stay and we say GO HOME! but she says "yes but who will do it?" we said today if she sticks to her actual working hours and goes home and leaves the washing up then one day we will run out of clean equipment and maybe people will see how much extra time is needed. Head of science had agreed that if we dont have enough technician hours to fill practical hours then some practicals would need to be cut - he agreed to this when I was off work sick. But I feel it still needs to hold up now.

so Jack emailed head of science as I was leaving saying we are cutting back practicals as we dont have enough technician hours. Head of science hasnt responded....

I broke my back leaning over doing all the micro biology work

I went home exhausted, had a grouch at my poor mum waiting to meet me here

she went home, I ate lunch and went bed for 45mins. I decided not to sleep and to get up and do some painting. I enjoyed myself actually. I needed that tune off time. I also had a look at jobs. Jack has another - better - job to apply for at the weekend. It would be a dream if he got that job!!!!!

I picked Jack up from the chippy he had got a chippy tea and I warmed some korean noodles from the freezer for my dinner

after dinner I did another grow with jo mood boost, brought Oz in for some fuss as he looked like orphan all day. He has loved fuss. He definitely enjoys being inside >.> I had a bath now doing diary. Probably watch anime and go bed.

tomorrow its friday thank god.

i hate my job. I am so unhappy there. so unappreciated. The sooner we both leave the better

I worked out for the first time in months!

 Evening

Last night, well 6:30pm I got up and did my first work out in months!

due to being so sick and fatigued I have been unable to do work outs, heck not even been able to play just dance much! I have missed working out and I have been waiting to feel well enough to start back up again. I do not want to lose my fitness, stamina and muscles!!

So I did a 30min GrowWithJo Mood Boost video! I actually really enjoyed myself

yes it was hard

yes I sweated for britain

but I enjoyed myself, I felt better for doing

I actually think it helped me sleep too

I would like to do another workout today if I can

it says on her channel if you stick with it for 30 days you can lose 5% of your body fat

I AM DOWN FOR THAT!

I want to feel better about my body as I know and can FEEL I have put weight on (still not gonna weigh myself to find out the true damage) 

This morning 

it was school, and I started to panic a bit at the sheer amount of bacteria work I have got to do. Jack wrote out a 'to do' list for the bacteria. so much to do. I had other pracs to do as well. I got a lot done today and felt knackered when I finished I couldnt wait to go home

mum came over and had lunch with me, she also brought the sows which was nice so they played out with Ozwald

the nurse rang, i had waited 10 days for a 1 minute 45 second phone call, all to ask "can I use this inhaler?" as it was giving me so many side affects. She said to stick with it, should calm down and could take a month to get used to it. So I will start it up on friday. See how i go. I want it to work as its amazing and I lucky to be on it.

After mum left I laid on my bed an hour, I was so shattered

I got up and did a bit of drawing, ordered a few things online, looked at anime to watch, I made egg mayo for Jack's wraps tomorrow, made biscuits. Yeah I did bits a pieces which is nice. It still doesnt feel that productive with my time but I am still recovering...

we had dinner when he came in and twice I had to go out - whilst eating - to Oz who was savaging my plants....in the end I brought him in as he was clearly hungry and I didnt want to keep having to go out to him. So he came in for kibble and a drink and a quick lay down. I managed to finish my food in peace.

I am gonna go water my garden - I have to do this every night lately T^T - then I will do my work out

tomorrow is school

60th, Easter eggs, return to school

 Evening

How many times did I forget to do this TT^TT

Basically sunday was my dad's 60th Birthday we went over and I cooked the BBQ for the 4 of us (brother went out instead) and mum had baked a cake which was amazing. I took Oz over to play and he did entertain us. He was very busy. and we too were also very busy - making sure he didnt eat mum's plants...

I bought him home and he snored in the lounge. Tired bun X3

Yesterday I dusted and tidied and so everywhere is clean~ Jack did some gardening

his parents came over and bought over a load of easter goodies for us. It was good to finally see them and they told us about their holiday

Our easter holiday was good and needed. Even though at the start of the holiday I had wrote a list of all things I want to do and Jack had crossed 90% of them off I glad he did that. As yes I probably didnt 'achieve' as much as I wanted but I enjoyed what I did do. And didnt end up killing myself

I couldnt sleep last night as I was anxious about school despite the fact I knew it was only 4 hours to get through. I was taking pain killers and up til midnight.

This morning Oz gave Jack the stink eye "what ungodly hour is this!?" face

I didnt feel too bad about going school in the end. Knowing its only 4 hours helps me get through but it is enough. I will probably only earn £550 per month now. Wow, cant live off that!

Jack talked to me about bacteria and I started to have an anxiety attack, he fetched the inhaler from the car.

I went home and had lunch and went bed for 90mins I was so done in!! I felt better once I got up tho. I sat and did some painting for a bit and then I looked for jobs but couldnt really find a lot to be honest. Then I rang my  mum just to tell her my day back went ok.

Jack came home and I let him unwind with tea then we did dinner, after we prepped for stew tomorrow morning. Now I am doing my diary whilst I bloody remember!!

I will do a work out soon then have a bath

Oz is playing outside, hes happy bun. We had him inside before school as I felt I needed to fuss him.

tomorrow is school and also hopefully the nurse will ring me about my inhaler and if I should continue to use it.

I didnt go out last night

 Evening

Kinda forgot to do this yesterday!!

In the morning we did our weekly shop early as sunday shops are close for easter

later morning me, mum, Jack and Oz did some gardening

mum went home and I had lunch with Jack then I rested up for the evening ahead

I was anxious and all day had a fast heart rate

I was by myself all afternoon as Jack gamed for 4 hours with Harvey and Theo

I rang my mum, I was lonely and needed to talk to someone

I told her I didnt really want to go out, I didnt want to socialise I wanted quietness, I didnt have the energy to look happy for people and give them my best energy

she told me not to go. That if I am not feeling it, Jack would only be looking out for me all evening and not enjoy it fully himself and I wouldnt be enjoying it ether so whats the point

I told Jack I wasnt going. He seemed disappointed to be honest. But I need to stop pleasing people and look after myself. 

I took him, Theo and Harvey to Matt and Brandon's house. I drove back it was a round trip of 40mins

I felt better for getting home, locking the doors and getting set up to do painting

I did 90mins of painting. I enjoyed it, put anime on the background I was a  true social recluse!!

I had txted Jack to say doors were locked and Id set him a bed up on the sofa

I texted mum to say I was home, I was fine and going to do some painting

I couldnt sleep. I ached A LOT from gardening. so I ended  up taking extra and falling asleep at midnight. I heard the door go at some point in the night and dropped off to sleep. Knowing if Jack wanted me he would wake me.

This morning I woke my Jack at 8:30am. He said he got in just after 1am. I made him an amazing breakfast. It was a baguette with 2 hash browns, 2 eggs, 6 slices of bacon. I made him fresh coffee and poured him fresh orange juice. I gave him paracetamol too

I revived him

he helped wash my hair then I left for my hair cut at 10:30am

like my massage - my hair cut has gone up by £5. Id love to be able to put my wage up >.>

I went to mum's and I WAS going to dye my hair pink. However I got there today and I had back ache and couldnt be bothered to sit in the chair and have my hair dyed and then have a shower etc.

I helped cut raw meat up, I sat with the girls, and I had my lunch I had taken over

I came home and I have been making a card for mum and a card for Jack

both just to say thank you for all they do and how much I love them

Its good to be appreciated

I dont need to wait for mothers day or valentines day. I will show my love and appreciation whenever the hell I want to. I will give mums to her tomorrow and Jack's I will give to him tonight ^^

That has kept me quiet all afternoon it was nice doing traditional art 

tomorrow 

tomorrow is easter AND my dad's 60th birthday

yup my dad is gonna be an old fart. He already looks 60++

I have put together an alpaca walk with my mum and brother as his birthday present which is in May.

We are going over around 2pm for a BBQ that I may end up cooking. Mum is making cake ^^ in the morning I have bathroom to clean but thats it really. I can probably do some art

didnt need pain killers in the night

 Evening

I struggled to get off to sleep despite being shattered

I woke up at 3am, cold and tummy ache but nothing came of it despite bothering to sit on the toilet. Usually by this point I am taking pain killers to help me get off to sleep but last night I thought I would actually TRY and get to sleep without taking anything.

much to my surprise, I did in fact, fall asleep without pain killers

I told jack in the morning he gave me a hug and said he was proud of me ^^

So this morning, we took a walk to the post office as I had missed my Boohoo parcel. Which was a light weight trench coat with a hood! Looks so cool

when we walked back we had a cup of tea

We then went outside to do gardening

Jack put some of the new plants in with my help and i was repotting the cacti, however I could do all of them much to my disappointment as I couldnt reuse the stones they just wouldnt sieve out from the old lot of cacti. I tried several methods too. So I cut my loses and ordered some more stones later on

id had enough anyway as we did an hour.

I came in and jack made his lunch whilst I pan fried some chicken for my lunch

after lunch I laid on my bed for an hour, I didnt sleep but after an hour of rest I was aching so I got up. I went on my laptop looking at stones - boring task it was

at 3pm I went over to my mums, I cut Truffs fur for her outside. She had almost 2" off her fur length!!! God she was ready. I had to do her as mum sent me a photo of truffs this morning with a hair clip in her fringe....poor truffs.

I then sat talking to mum til 5pm

about various things, one thing was my mental health. How I view doing art and stuff and how I put it off and that I need to break it down into my manageable tasks and steps other wise I put off doing art!

I got home and sent Jack out by himself in the car!

I sent him to go get pie and chips for his dinner as planned, he went out, called me saying the shop was closed? so I said to go to the other we walked by this morning but I half expected him to bottle it and say "ill grab a pizza out the freezer" but no, my Jack stuck with it, drove to a new place and got his pie and chips. I was so proud! I had noodles 

after dinner I watered the plants and had a bath, I did my lazer treatment as I have to be in the mood to do it. Now doing diary but its almost 8:30pm and still done zero art today

maybe I will do some after this?

but then watch anime and go bed

We didn't go out out

 Evening

So last night I didnt sleep great. I was waking up cold and anxious. Also having nightmares. Think I was cold from sweating caused by nightmares.

It was all because I was worrying about driving to derbyshire and back + walking

I honestly wasnt sure if I could manage it all

So this morning I had breakfast which didnt sit well on my anxiety churned stomach

Jack asked what was - like what was really up

so I told him, I asked if we could go sherwood pines instead

he said "its still a 40mins drive there, a good hour walk round. Why are we doing all this just to kill yourself? youre not gonna enjoy it, Im not gonna enjoy seeing you like that. We dont have to go out, I enjoy spending time with you no matter what we do. I know you want to go places but right now your body is still recovering"

yeah...hes right

I just find it hard to accept

he said "besides we have our whole lives to go places"

i said "so its me being impatient again then?" XD

I just hate my illness ruining things as always

so he suggested a walk near the river and a picnic in the garden

so what we did was drive to the river trent which is a 5-10min drive, we did a walk and on the walk is the cafe I went with mum to last week. We had tea and cake which was sooooooooooooo good I was so happy. Jack always picks me up. He never makes me feel like a let down or disappointment or holding the relationship back. He is just happy spending time with me ^^

we walked back along the river to the car

as soon as we shut the car door - rain full on rain

as soon as  we pulled up the drive way it stopped completely

so we didnt get wet!

We couldnt sit outside and picnic tho as it rained again

mum picked us up at 1:30pm and we went to a garden centre for plants. We spent £50 on plants and compost. It was pricy as we went for more established plants rather than babies, simply because they stand a chance of surviving against Oz. He eats baby plants as a starter. No matter how hard we try to protect them - he finds and devours 

We dropped the plants off and went to another garden centre and I got cacti soil as my stuff came today and I can finally repot a load cacti I have ^^

I was exhausted by this point, not to mention I didnt really have lunch as what I had got for lunch I didnt like so didnt eat it! I didnt have time to get anything else as mum was coming for us. So I was tired and hungry but just had a cup of tea when I got in as it was 3pm.

After a sit, I went for an early bath, a very very hot bath tho to kill off the aches

now just waiting for jack to finish in the tub then I can put the noodles on. We have korean noodles tonight I put the broth bit in the slow cooker this morning I hope it tastes ok! 

then tonight I need an easy night so might draw or something

I have plenty to draw I just been unmotivated to draw

tomorrow

think we will have a quieter day

I am certainly going to sort my cacti out!!!

I have had a really nice day tho

I have done a river walk with my Jack and had amazing cake

I then went out with Jack and mummy to choose plants

coming home to my Ozwald chasing pigeons.

Its been a good day. Not how I thought it would go but maybe better. I am grateful for the people around me.

we said that in future if we make any plans to have a 'back up' plan so I dont feel the pressure I put on myself to do the plans and feel like we will still do something.

we also said we might have an over night stay at water fall place so I can manage it better and it breaks it down a bit. But thats a future problem

will we actually go out tomorrow??

 Evening

So last night  leisurely did my nails in front of youtube, it was quite relaxing. Then I was playing on my switch in bed. Jack text to say they didnt go out for drinks and he was getting a lift home from James thank god. But I was just playing on my switch til 11pm when Jack got home. I felt I couldnt sleep until he was home. I wasnt worried I was just unsettled and felt like by time I had drifted off he would turn up. So I just carried on playing

Jack came in to me, surprised I was still awake. He said he needed to wind down and that he was hungry so going to get a snack. I decided to get up and join him. So we had another night of going to bed at midnight T^T

I woke up at 6am, 7am, finally 8am. I refused to start my day that early after going bed so late but I also knew my bunny was waiting to be let out.

I left Jack in bed til 9am

This morning I got to it and drew llama's in my dad's birthday card, planned out the route to derbyshire as we MAY go tomorrow. I sorted out other bits and pieces until finally flopping on my bed with Hammington. I was aching so bad and tired.

We had lunch and I thought id escape my pain with sleep but no. I was tossing and turning so much that I couldnt sleep so I got up and went for a 20min walk with Jack as that was all I could manage T^T

mum turned up just as we returned home. She said she wasnt staying but stayed an hour with a brew XD I was so tired and wasnt gonna see her today. I was just in all positions on the floor whilst talking to her. No pain killer has touched my pain today

she left and me and Jack did a bit of gardening. I put some plants in a pot 

I then prepped the noodles for tomorrow then prepped stuff ready for tomorrow for in case we do actually go out. I then did the dinner which was good~

we sadly finished season on of Rise of the shield hero. Its been a long time since I thought so highly of an anime. Who ever wrote that needs a medal. I LOVE Filo. We are running short on free dubbed anime we might have to start paying for it online T^T

going to put Oz away soon, as hes only loafing anyway

then grab a nice hot bath ^^

might do some drawing tonight or might not, see what I am in the mood for 

but yeah tomorrow - depending on if I can walk and how much pain I am in - we may go to derbyshire to my favourite waterfall place :D I really really hope we can go. I have been asking Jack since Feb! But I have just not been in the best of health, I know I havent

If we cant go tomorrow not sure what we will do really

got to get my noodles on and bed to change.

But if we do go out we will be back early afternoon

Yeah new inhaler isnt good

 Evening

So I can confirm that yes, my new inhaler does not agree with me as I had another go last night with it. My anxiety went through the roof I was upset as I was worrying about Jack getting sick of me and my illness, my heart was pounding and I was shaking. I did eventually get to sleep but kept us up til midnight....and Jack had his interview the next day ^^;

We woke up at 7am

and Jack was a bit off, not horrible, just not his usual self. I think he was just nervous. Well I know he was nervous as he went for like a 1000 wees.

I did 50mins of yoga then we went over to mums to print some things out for his interview, no one was home so we were done in 10mins. It gave me enough time to ring doctors, apparently no one can even speak to me to advise me til next weds...so until then just use my old inhaler. I have my blue one but not brown one. stupid. Its cus over in England we build more and more houses or food places but no services. So getting an appointment is murder. But I couldnt believe I couldnt even SPEAK to someone for 10 days. I will leave that inhaler alone tho. I do not want to feel poorly my whole easter holidays

I was colouring a picture but soon gave my laptop and craft room over to Jack

Whilst he was in his interview I made biscuits and made Jack his lunch which he was really grateful of. He felt it had gone well. He came out my craft room smiling anyway. So it couldnt have been that bad. He has done he absolute best. It will be over a week before we hear anything tho.

After lunch I went over to mum's - I walked

I had a cup of tea with her and my £200 worth of skin care turned up! So I gave mum her cream. I then txt Jack to come pick me up. The first ever time hes been in the car by himself!!! He did well bless him. Once home I gave him his skincare

He did an hour of gardening, I finished my colouring then did the dinner. Which I didnt like. It was my limit of spiciness but it was the rice cakes, I dont like rice cakes! I dont like thick noodles so I did wonder if I would like them. Jack really enjoyed the dinner XD

I went in the bath, then Jack did then I drove him to Harvey's to go have a drink with his friends. I didnt have the energy to socialise and I also dont wanna be labelled as one of those couples joined at the hip. Its good to see your friends without your partner. 

So I am home alone

I think I will have an early night of my switch in bed

tomorrow

havent got anything planned actually so might try do some art or something

Buns have gone home

 Evening

I couldnt get off to sleep last night, Jo hurt too much. We got up for extra pain killers and a biscuit. I slept after that but when I woke up at 7am I HAD TO GET UP. I felt like Id been in an accident....

So we had a relaxed morning before shopping

however, my anxiety was through the roof. Like real bad. I felt like I had done something wrong so I was trying to think 'what have I done?' like Jack was gonna find out something bad I had done. I felt like something bad was gonna happen, like what? 

Jack offered to go shopping for me as he can now since he can drive. But he said he would be mega stressed doing that. I didnt want to stress him out so I said I would be fine.

Going round the shop was awful, I could have cried. I couldnt breathe, I had to use my new inhaler twice. My heart was pounding and I was breathless

We got home after the shop

Jack made me and told me to SIT as in 'Jo stay and dont move' as I am fidget arse and dont sit for long.

He made me tea, fruit loaf, got Oz in, put the buns out, put the shopping away

ahhhh he is so good ^^

But yeah I was like death

my heart was pounding, my body felt like it was vibrating, my hands were so shaky and I felt anxious. I also obviously had bad back ache from my massage. So all in all I felt poorly.

I literally downed my tea and went to bed.

I got up for lunch and went back to bed

I just couldnt do anything

I felt poorly

but what was up?

the only thing that was different was my new inhaler I started last night

so I went into the recycling dustbin for the box and instructions to read 'possible side effects'

on there 1 in 10 people

breathlessness 

trembling

sense of doom

anxiety

palpitations

and I think 2 others that I didnt have

sooooo my new inhaler is to blame??

I rang my mum and talked to her. She said steroids can have funny affects on people as granny sometimes had reactions to them. And my inhaler is a steroid for the lungs 

she told me not to use it and ring the nurse

as much as I think, "yeah it was probably inhaler" I also wonder if the powerful massage has just made my other conditions worse and its made me like this. As I can suffer in those ways and massage always gets me next day.

I managed to finish my picture I have been working on. And I put it on my redbubble too. I only had about 10mins of work to finish so even tho it was an ask for me to do it, it was a quick achievement 

I did dinner which I was grateful it was simple

after dinner Jack's sister and step dad came for the buns. They had a good tan! The buns have gone home and Oz has the garage to himself again. Jack's sister was very grateful tho and was happy to see them. I mean if I was being reunited with Oz I would have had him out, fussing his face off in my arms and inhaling his scent, but each to their own ^^; she brought me a bowl made of a coconut and Jack some alcohol  

I drew Angewomon for a friend who turns 30 this friday so I am gonna pencil crayon that in tomorrow

I had a bath after that

then spoke to Jack about my inhaler. I told him I was tempted to have 1 more dose of my inhaler just to see if it definitely that which is making me poorly. As I really like the inhaler!!! Its PINK, it counts down its uses left, it doesnt have a taste and yeah I am actually impressed with it as I wasnt getting on with my previous ones. So I took one more puff 10mins ago. See how I go tonight I guess as I have picked up from my horrendous morning.

tomorrow

I asked Mia if I can see her in the morning but I havent heard from her yet

Jack has his online interview at midday so I need to be quiet then. He is gonna be on my laptop doing it. So I will be in the lounge doing something. 

full on day and full back massage

 Evening

I slept pretty well

My back tho waking up today...like id been in an actual accident. Just from doing some gardening.

This morning, as I felt so crippled, I decided to go on Just dance to loosen my back up a bit. My hair looked awful this morning so I was gonna wash it anyway. Might as well get sweaty and have a shower! 

So i did that for 15mins, had shower and got ready and went to see the Harvey and Theo at 9:45am at pudding pantry. We had Oz out before we went and put the buns out. So we achieved a lot this morning!

At pudding pantry I had 2 scoops of ice cream, Jack had 'full pantry' it was nice to see Harvey and Theo too. 

We left there and Jack went over to Harveys for a bit, I wanted to get off as I was tired but used the excuse I was off to chemist and mum's. Jack was then heading into city centre so I didnt need to bring him home with me.

I went chemist and got my new inhaler, its so werid looking and counts down how many uses are in it! genius! 

I got to mum's she was happy to see me and made me a cup of tea

we just chatted and chatted. I had a bit of porridge there but couldnt eat it all

I came home as  Jack was on his way home and hadnt got a house key

After we had a sit down we cracked on with chores.

We both cleaned out the rabbits, I cleaned the bathroom, cleaned out a cupboard we keep dumping stuff in, made some biscuits and he hoovered the house and sorted out Oz's corner. 

We sat down for a bit then I went for my massage which was another reason I did so many chores - i knew id be like death tomorrow

I asked her to just literally do my back, neck and shoulders. I said "I have set recovery days and this needs sorting" she said "is this you saying to not hold back?"

bring it on

after I turned onto my back she said

"you are strong and brave"

I said "why whats gone off?"

she said "I didnt hold back, I must have hurt you but yet you didnt even flinch"

no i didnt

yes some bits hurt but its nothing compared to the pain I am usually in. I know the pain she is giving me now will end shortly. My pain never ends.

I enjoyed my massage and felt so much looser.

I got home and was starting to feel the massage. And thought "this fast!!! ohhh crap"

I regret nothing!!!!

I had a hot bath and a pamper in the bath and out the bath

did the dinner as I was starving it was gone 7pm!!! 

Now Jack is clearing up my dinner mess

think we will just go and play switchs in bed. No point in watching anime really we've just literally watched anime with out dinner, and no way do we want a hot drink - far too full!!!

Tomorrow

weekly shop and food cooking and recover

I AM GONNA HURT

it gonna be sore tomorrow

the buns should be going home tomorrow too

i've told Jack's mum not to stress about getting them home but she seems to think she will have time to get them even tho they fly back tomorrow....so we shall see!

We didnt manage to go out

 Evening

I woke up at 2am and felt sicky anxious really bad. I cuddled Jack for 10mins and wondered how the hell he slept through someone hugging him.....why cant I sleep that deep!? I got up and decided to take extra pain killers, have a drink and biscuits and then Jack appeared! He had randomly woke up. He made us both a tea and sat with me and cuddled me. he is just the best. At 3:30am we went back to bed

This morning when I woke up at 7:45am I was disappointed. My legs hurt despite me skipping on exercise yesterday, I felt sick to my stomach with anxiety. But I have no idea where all this anxiety is even coming from. I felt tired from not sleep great. So all in all i thought "can I go out with Jack today??"

I talked to him, I rang my mummy and yeah we summed up that realistically, I cant go out for a walk anywhere. I wont enjoy it.

So we decided to do some gardening together with Oz and do a little walk round the block.

Jack kindly gave my legs a massage as they felt ridged 

In the morning we did almost 2 hours of gardening. Which hurt my back -- massively 

I wasnt even doing anything strenuous >.> 

We had lunch and i went bed afterwards

when I got up we did a short walk but I was really struggling just with that. 

We had a cup of tea together and then an early bath as I thought it might help my aches and complains. It did a help a bit. When I came out the bath my mum appeared so I was talking to her in my towel. She had brought us both a cake from Bakewell as she and dad had managed to go out for the day. I envied that. 

we had dinner, now we are going to go round up the 2 buns. Oz is happy indoors he can stay a little while longer. 

Jack has got gaming tonight so hes off to do that after we have buns in. I think I will try do some drawing maybe

I have had some of my cake and it was amazing....

Im sorry I didnt get to out but hopefully I will next week

Tomorrow

we're seeing Harvey and Theo at Pudding Pantry in the morning!!!! so yay sweet treats in the morning. Then I need to pop chemist. I have a massage at 4pm which I am so ready for

is it just my depression?

 Evening

I slept last night, but before bed I was restless and didnt feel happy

god knows why tho.  I was playing Disgaea til 10:30pm and felt like I could play more 

I had violent dreams again...

this morning my stomach was twisted with anxiety, god knows why

whats wrong with me lately!? I should be happier and more relaxed on holidays but my mental health is not good this holiday

I didnt know what I felt like doing this morning but Jack asked if we could go hobby craft so I thought if I went it would snap me out of the funk I was in, but I couldnt be bothered to leave the house if I am honest. Whilst we were down there I picked up a few bits and my mum has been after a 250ml jug for a while as hers broke and she uses it to wash the girls. I thought we would check the Range whilst we were there for one as yup they had one! I was so excited as I knew my mum would be so happy shes been looking like everywhere!! 

We got back and I felt quite done in, it was hurting me to walk a bit and I just felt exhausted. I felt much better yesterday....Mummy came to see me after she had finished at Maureen's. She came in and I surprised her with the jug, she was soooooo happy. Overly so, over a jug XD she had a cup of tea and stayed til midday. When she left we had lunch

after lunch I just curled up in my bed for 2 odd hours. Just was so tired but couldnt sleep. Didnt want any stimulation or anything. Just quiet nothingness 

I got up and looked poorly. I was so clammy and white.

whats wrong with me!?

sick of feeling so crap and wasting so much time by recovering in sodding bed.

im wondering if it's my depression maybe? as depression can make you feel like all this

did literally nothing all afternoon, nothing

I didnt even put the buns out again from this morning as I couldnt face rounding them up. We also have to wear protection as Skyler growls and tries to rip your vein out your wrist.....

we had dinner and after dinner Oz quickly latched on without any grunt warning and bit me whilst mating with my hand, I pulled his head away but he wouldnt let go of my skin between his teeth, it made the pain worse so I had to let him get on with it. Sure his jaw locks like a staffordshire >.> he hasnt done it in days. Thought we were making progress....

the weather has been bloody awful all day, really hard bitter wind and rain.

We were gonna go out today and I am so glad we didnt! what with the weather and how I am feeling

tomorrow tho

I am hoping to go Sherwood Pines with my Jack, have a walk round then a picnic. Just hope its not soaking everywhere. But I would like to actually go out with him as its been a long time.

time with mummy. 1 bun is better than 2

 Konbanwa~~

Im so bruised after my blood test! I cant look at my arm without feeling like I will faint. No word of a lie there.

I slept well after playing on disgaea with Jack in bed

This morning I got up at 8am with Jack, we brought Ozwald inside. I got the Thai curry on 

I had my 'new' breakfast of cereal and yogurt and weighed out what a portion was. Next to nothing! But only 200 calories. made a change to eat I have to say

by 9:30am my mummy came to pick me up. We went shops and I got a few bits and pieces and picked Jack up some treats like fudge, fizzy sweets, toffee apple cider. He was happy ^^

From the shops we went to a cafe, I had a rainbow cake with lots of icing and it was soooooooooooo nice the guy even warmed it up a little and it was just the best. 

Mum brought me home as it was really raining and I was worried about the buns. Jack had txt to say that rather than let him get them in they chose to sit under the rhubarb plant. So i was keen to get them home. They actually we're too wet at all which surprised me. Their feet were wet through

mummy had really enjoyed her time with me and I enjoyed it too :)

We had lunch and Jack asked me if my breakfast had been enough and I said it had but only because I had been distracted by shops. If I was round the house I bet I would have snacked but we shall see.

After lunch I was putting bits away I had bought and doing other bits and pieces but I said to jack I needed to rest my body needed rest but I just find it so difficult to rest lately. He came and read next to me in bed whilst I had an hour. I find it easier to relax with him there sometimes.

When I got up I did an hour of yoga, then dinner which was soooo good

The buns have been able to play out and Oz is inside snoring. I dont think I will bother letting him play out again later cus he doesnt like the wind today.

I am full and tired and have those buns to round up ><

Jack asked if seeing two buns playing outside makes me ever want 2 rabbit

NO

its too much

and theyre not bothered about you, just one another. 1 rabbit you get so bonded to and have a good relationship with. You dont get that when own two. Obviously you have to put a lot of time and effort to gain that trust and relationship and you have to be there more for just 1 rabbit compared to 2

but yeah, just 1 is enough.....

I still havent been able to do any drawing just been too tired

My cousin Remi said Bobows had arrived today! so fast!! she was so happy with the repair job she said she was shaking and crying. I am so relieved that 1 she got it back and 2 she likes the job I did. 

tomorrow

we were gonna go out for the day/afternoon somewhere but the weather doesnt look great so I think we might do it on friday instead. So i told mum I can see her for a cup of tea in the morning.

Done my yearly blood test!

 Evening

I am so tired T^T

I didnt sleep well. I was cold. Each time I woke up cold I felt sick and anxious about my impending blood test in the morning T^T

I woke up at 7,then 7:30am and I got up to get Oz in and I waited til 8am to wake Jack up so I could have breakfast with him

We had breakfast, I somehow managed to get it down me

then we went for my blood test....I was called in straight away I didnt even get to sit in the waiting room! which is fantastic as it gave me no time to get myself worked up

I walked in and my lovely nurse Angie was like "aw Jo youre sweating already" XD thats just me haha I sweat 24/7 I am always drinking and always sweating. 

I was well behaved and didnt pass out and retained my colour too! i told her that I was still struggling with my breathing so shes prescribed me my 3rd type of inhaler but its instead of my other 2. Basically a 2 in 1, I need to go chemist and get it. It was worth mentioning to her ^^ shes amazing

I came home, Jack helped me out the car as I was a lil shaky on my feet.

he made me a sweet up of tea and brought me a biscuit. He is so good to me. I was grateful of him driving home too.

Jack put the buns out whilst I was recovering.

He then cleaned out his sister's buns.

once I was better I worked on Remi's Bobows and did the repair job. I wrapped him up and put some necklaces and hair clips in the bag for her that I dont wear anymore. I have grown out of costume jewellery and cat ears

after lunch, I was so tired but so restless

I have been like this for days.

my body is tired but i cant rest. i feel I must keep going

I lay on my bed, my body needs it but my body and mind desire more

So I suggested to Jack that we go post Bobows as I do not like having responsibility of him and I know Remi is missing her comfort toy. I just hope she likes the job I did >< and we also went oriental supermarket to stock up on noodles and things

we came home and I know I needed  to relax but still couldnt really

I did dinner which was nice and after dinner I put all the buns away. Needed down time

but I went on just dance and got sweaty in 25mins i felt so much better for it tho

like that was what I needed. I was tired but the endorphins kicked in and kept me going 

I had a bath and now just doing my diary

I should draw as I havent been drawing due to being to damn tired and tonight i actually have blurred eyes i am so tired

i want my bed

tomorrow

i had set weds aside for my mother

its only fair she gets some of my holiday time as usually i work and die so i have no time for her. We both thought about the city centre but then thought better about it as Nottingham since covid-19 has just become one big food court. Like next to no shops. Not worth going into the dirty city and dealing with people ugh. I need more quiet setting and less people.

So I suggested going to the shops 5min drive from the house so TK maxx, B&M, Boots, B&Q, M&S yeah just need a few random bits from each shop really then go to a cafe and have cake and tea. I only have my stew to put on in the morning and then I can go out. I should be back for lunch so then I shouldnt be dead the rest of the day - I hope ><

I have a £2 coin size bruise from my blood test! what the hell!!? how have I bruised so bad and its proper dark purple. I cant look at my arm as it makes me feel light headed. so I can not wait for that to pass >.>

I have Bobows!!

 Evening

I was grateful to Jack for coming off his game at 9pm. I hadnt asked him and he was happy gaming with Harvey and Theo but he said he wanted to come to bed with me. I had been playing on my switch in bed for an hour and I was so tired.

I was a bit chilly in the night so when I woke up and crawled up to Jack for heat

My alarm went off at 7:30am as I was suppose to go for a walk with mia at 8:30am however it was raining. So I txted to call it off even tho I really wanted to see her. In the end the rain did blow over but she didnt get here til 9am (could have had a lay in after all) because the dogs were hyper so she went to a field and threw the ball for them to get rid of some of their energy so they wouldnt be pulling on the lead so I was grateful of that

we talked about stuff and she said she doesnt know the full ins and outs of her hen-do but what she does know about ti she knows I cant do or would struggle to do. So she said, as her sister is unable to take part too as its not her sort of thing ether, that Mia would do something with me and her sister. Like and afternoon tea so I was very much relieved and grateful. Weight off my mind!

I got home, grabbed my stuff and went to mum's as I was waiting for Remi's comfort toy 'bobows' but it didnt turn up in the post then, I waited til mum came home, had a brew and did the girls claws

I then went to fetch my meds and then came home to have lunch with my Jack

He had been doing his car insurance which only cost him an additional £150 to his current insurance...how? I know hes 28 and not 18 but when my brother passed at age 17 it cost close to £2000 to insure him. My parents had to pay for gods sake! We werent complaining tho.

After lunch I laid on my bed, tired but restless. Life is not fair T^T mum rang me to say Bobows had arrived so I thought id go fetch that and took jack with me and we went to a shop for some cleaning crap and skin stuff. Nothing fancy but cheaper than getting it from super market.

we came back and had a brew, Oz was being a git indoors so I took him home, I think he just wanted to play outside as he hadnt actually been outside yet but the other 2 need to play out really

I decided to wash Bobows,, as the state he was in.....I hand washed him as he is fragile. But dear god the water...I changed it 3 times as it instantly went like gravy. On the 4th bowl of water I left it to soak in some vanish for an hour. Then washed it out, soaked it in fabric softener and then put him on my radiator. Tomorrow I begin surgery to fix him!

I brought him in after some cool down time and then did dinner which was soooo good

swapped the buns round so Oz is finally outside

gonna have a bath now I think

my legs are hurting so hot bath sounds nice.

tomorrow

I do not want tomorrow to come round

got my sodding annual blood test at 9:10am >.> Jack is on blood test duty as mum is working

after that I dont really have anything planned as I imagine I will be done in from that. We could be doing with going to an Asian supermarket tho

Snappy and upset

 Evening

I slept through the night. I was playing Disgaea4 til late as I was too involved in the item world, youre a bit committed and can't leave ^^; and I bit off more than I could chew but hey whats new!

We got up and I left the buns in their cage but brought Oz in. 

we went for food shop which exhausted me

when we came home we brought Oz in and put the buns out.

Oz was determined to mate with me, I just let him. He tends to mount my arm and grab my skin in his teeth which feels like a very painful pinch. He did this 5 times in same place. Think I might have a bruise tomorrow but the pain was welcomed. To feel something different. I didnt flinch or make a noise but I know it would normally make another person yell out. I welcomed the pain. Almost like he was doing the self harming for me.

I also had to ring my mum as we had a panic as I noticed a leaking pipe coming from our boiler. I bit my mums head off on the phone and after we ended the call I felt instant regret and I cried and cried. I am exhausted, tired, in pain, and the littlest thing pushes me over the edge. This leaking pipe - i couldnt cope with it

I got on with cooking meat and prepped meat. I decided I am gonna have yogurt and cereal for breakfast and chicken for lunch. 

we had lunch but I only managed a hot chocolate and biscuit as my stomach was churned up

my parents came at one, I apologised to mum for snapping and she said it was fine, I told her whats up and that I had cried it out my system. My dad fixed the pipe it was such a small job and I am so so grateful. I had visions of having to change pipes! He looked at the windscreen wipers on my car and says I need a new motor, so yeah hes got that to fix sometime. hes gonna order the part for me.

they left and I went to bed for almost 2 hours. I was drained of life. I was upset as I am just fed up of feeling so crap. 

I didnt fall asleep but once I got up I went for a walk with Jack which was nice but tiring even tho we went at my pace. My legs were hurting.

luckily dinner wasnt too difficult and I was relieved

we put the buns away, shaved Oz's tummy and let him outside for a bit but hes not that active and likes to go home at 7pm-ish, I have no idea how that rabbit knows the time.

I had a nice bath and then Jack did, now hes gone to game with Harvey and Theo, I cant imagine it will be a late one as they still have work in the morning even if we dont.

I might do some drawing but I am very tired

tomorrow

should be going for a walk at 8:30am with Mia and the dogs. Hopefully I can manage it and it doesnt bugger me up for the rest of the day. then I am going to my mums to wait for a parcel. Then maybe go shops with Jack. see how I feel.